curious swimmer
Greenlighter
- Joined
- Jul 1, 2012
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- 39
I think i have some sort of personality or mood disorder
Reason being is. Well let me tell you what i have been diagnosed with before i continue. I have adhd and take 30mg adderal a day. I have pad and gad and take 3mgs of klonopin a day (1 3x daily) and i have insomnia and am prescribed flexeril 10mgs 1-3 at bed time as needed. But its like im either happy or just irritated and for no reason. I have a very beautiful fiancé and a beautiful baby girl who is almost 2 months old and although she wasnt planned we couldn't ask for anything more in the world. There will be times when im just really euphoric feeling and mind you this is when im not on anything. Not even my prescribed meds. Ill just be laughing for no reason or at something really stupid as if im stoned. Theres nights on end where i dont actually sleep ill just lay there in a emotional state. While not being able to sleep. I have a hard time making sense of things and sometimesdont even know how to put things into a paragraph to talk to someone. Or when i get into fights or altercations i do the or think of the most fucked up shit i could do to them. I always black out when i get beyond a point of angry also and have somewhat homicidal thoughts. Never suicidal though. I always try to help people wjo harm themselves. Im always finding myself being overly ocd or just careless as can be. Look im not looking for a diagnosis because i know you guys arent doctors but if someone can give me some sort of insight that would be great. Thank you very much for taking the time to read this and help if you can.
Reason being is. Well let me tell you what i have been diagnosed with before i continue. I have adhd and take 30mg adderal a day. I have pad and gad and take 3mgs of klonopin a day (1 3x daily) and i have insomnia and am prescribed flexeril 10mgs 1-3 at bed time as needed. But its like im either happy or just irritated and for no reason. I have a very beautiful fiancé and a beautiful baby girl who is almost 2 months old and although she wasnt planned we couldn't ask for anything more in the world. There will be times when im just really euphoric feeling and mind you this is when im not on anything. Not even my prescribed meds. Ill just be laughing for no reason or at something really stupid as if im stoned. Theres nights on end where i dont actually sleep ill just lay there in a emotional state. While not being able to sleep. I have a hard time making sense of things and sometimesdont even know how to put things into a paragraph to talk to someone. Or when i get into fights or altercations i do the or think of the most fucked up shit i could do to them. I always black out when i get beyond a point of angry also and have somewhat homicidal thoughts. Never suicidal though. I always try to help people wjo harm themselves. Im always finding myself being overly ocd or just careless as can be. Look im not looking for a diagnosis because i know you guys arent doctors but if someone can give me some sort of insight that would be great. Thank you very much for taking the time to read this and help if you can.
