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jasdero

jasdero

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I'm so fucking tired of losing all my passion. I can blame the people, myself, or anything in the world.

Google won't give me the answers I need lol.

Just proclaim me dead to the world now.



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Fuck I wish I had a bag of weed...not that it will make everything else in the world better but it will calm me.
 
Wishing you were dead won't solve anything. Cliche as it may sound, passion comes from within. Sometimes you have to force it, and even on a good day, they don't always come naturally. If you've been feeling off, everything seems more bleak, but its not always the case. Be careful, stay safe, and PM me if you just wanna talk <3
 
I think I know how you feel....if I'm not just a little bit high from opioids I feel depressed and have no motivation to do anything....and I often feel like I don't want to be alive if my doctor took me off my pain meds...opana ER and dilaudid.

But I'm not suicidal, just have no motivation and rarely happy =/
 
marie.claire said:
Wishing you were dead won't solve anything. Cliche as it may sound, passion comes from within. Sometimes you have to force it, and even on a good day, they don't always come naturally. If you've been feeling off, everything seems more bleak, but its not always the case. Be careful, stay safe, and PM me if you just wanna talk <3
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I didn't say im wishing myself dead XP just...it's like I'm dead : P
I'm not suicidal.
 
jasdero said:
I'm so fucking tired of losing all my passion. I can blame the people, myself, or anything in the world.

Google won't give me the answers I need lol.

Just proclaim me dead to the world now.



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Fuck I wish I had a bag of weed...not that it will make everything else in the world better but it will calm me.
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That shit's crazy... I had to check your name, jas, because I thought I must have written it then forgotten about it.
I feel every word you wrote in every cell I have. If misery loves company, then I'll be your company.
Is there any way I can help?
 
No...I just need to talk about my problems and not try to solve everything myself : P

Too many things going on.

Too much stress. bah!
 
The main reason I was stressed was because my blood results hinted my kidneys were damaged and they've made a mistake! I have a protein leak however my kidneys function properly : D

I'm increadibly relieved and I feel so glad to be healthy.
 
How long have not had cannabis for? After a few weeks, I suspect you should feel different.

I went about 2 weeks without cannabis last year, and it wasn't pleasant for me at all either. I get a lot of great relief from anxiety and PTSD from medical cannabis.

Why don't you tell us more about what's stressing you out? Talking about what's bothering you tends to help tremendously in my experience. :)
 
Captain.Heroin said:
How long have not had cannabis for? After a few weeks, I suspect you should feel different.

I went about 2 weeks without cannabis last year, and it wasn't pleasant for me at all either. I get a lot of great relief from anxiety and PTSD from medical cannabis.
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What does weed have to do with it?
 
xP It's alright....my latest post said my main reason for stress was the fact that I was told I had kidney damage.

I had to take a lot of tests to find out and waited a long time to know as welll....so when you wait to find something like that out...it's torture. So that's why I wished I had weed so I could just chill out and stop crying over it.

I'm good now though : P Drinking my beer and smoking my bongs ;P
Though i'm perfectly good without that as well :P
 
Of course. There are quite a few restrictions that coming along with having kidney damage. So having been told that I might have it sucked tremendously... even if i didn't get testing, just having that chance could be dangerous. Therefore it was a blessing to hear that im ok after taking the tests.
 
sometimes i go into the [nachatroom.org" to talk to other addicts, sometimes it helps and other times makes me wanna use lol, but at least theres a chatroom for NA
 
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