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cant stop the craving for heroin

Please do another blog post soon jones or let us know how you're going :)
 
Sneak preview: 2 days off heroin and on suboxone. Deleted all my contacts in phone, changed phone number and deleted facebook to make sure i dont get dope.

Realized a girls addresss who knows my dealers number is stored in my gps so am already heavily considering going there to get it. Im a real winner ::thumbs up sarcasm::
 
dont be too hard on yourself i have truly truly wanted to quit but i have never even been able to do as much as u just said i mean i voluntarily checked into detox and stored a spare supply of rigs u know just in case... believe me i feel doomed
 
shit jones I'm like on hour 15 and i am not liking this. i am supposed to go fishing with my dad in minesota on july 7th and need to clean out before then but it is going to be tough i think. I have to work today and tomorrow and i have 30mg of hydrocodone and that aint gonna do it so i think I'm gonna cop tomorrow but i have no money. i would have been fine, i had a ration of bags but i said fuck it and got super high yesterday. stupid decision.
 
wow....we are going thru the same shit man....this is unreal..you seem like your young, i cant beilieve your goin thru the same shit, im just floored you know...this is like a living nightmare.....you are doing so good, i fucked my shit up already, we both started the subs around the same time n shit, keep up staying clean, i look up to you doode...dont fuck up, i need you to stay clean, inspire me...
 
A suggestion for the future - try to realize the place that you keep finding yourself when you use drugs. Look around, is it really worth killing the craving for? Every time that you get high, you're only putting yourself 2 steps back again. I really do hope that you can stay in this suboxone program because you need to get clean but each time you try to move forward you have to understand that those cravings will never go away, and satisfying them will only put you backwards.
 
jones-in_J said:
But going there dopesick i wouldnt wanna do shit except lay in bed lol
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Or float around in the ocean and chill out in the sun. It really helps. When I went I brought some poppy pods and didn't use them to get high, just to take the edge off. (1-2 pods a day). Shit, let me know if you go, I would love to go up there again. I'm not working right now and if you need a ride...
 
i ended up using that last time i posted. now I'm in the same spot as i posted it and am again thinking bout going to cop right now. i have 3 days till i leave. i will still be uncomfortable but maybe not full blown sick. its just getting through the next few days is the problem. i mean i can go cop on thursday and think that i have enough dope to last me a week but it won't. and then i will be sick for the end of the trip and when i get home. fuckikkkkkkkk.
 
good luck with the suboxone jones. that shit never worked for me, i used the whole time i was on suboxone. fucking around with dope, benzos and speed. my doc would script me alot of benzos and speed lol. i would stay up for a week at a time on the adderall lol....crazy times man

nowadays im taking it easy on the dope. ive used once in the past 1.5 months. ive been on the methadone. the done works so nicely you guys. i never have to worry about feeling sick anymore, which is a really nice feelin
 
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