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What if you had the chance to do nothing?

I can;t quote for some one farther up said what I was thinking.
2010 I had an adderall script for helping me study in college. I would dose this very very highly, and run through the whole script in a week or two. For the week or two that I was taking my adderall (sometimes 120-180mgs of ir a time) I was hyperactive, and I wouldn't sleep for several days. Then when I ran out, I would crash for weeks with intense depression, until i refilled my script. This cycle went on for almost a year until I had a psychotic break during finals week for staying up 5 days straight taking adderall (delusions and paranoia), stressing about finals, and studying. I was hospitalized for 3 weeks in which time I became really depressed for not having my adderall to take anymore, I was diagnosed bipolar nos and was forced to go through ECT 9 times as a 20 year old. I am not bipolar, and the docs figured that out after not too long. I don't take any meds, no amphetamines, and I'm perfectly fine. My mood is at a constant plane, like it was before I started taking adderall.
 
i'm in the same boat i couldn't afford my meds without being on social security disability but i wan't to try to be a chef so i guess if that doesn't work out i could always go back on disability idk it sucks bad
 
Doom and every one on the board thanks for such enthusiasm and caring for a human being. It means a hell of a lot to me. I guess I just need to figure out how to put X where Z used to go. As in what to do instead of hanging out with my deadbeat friend who just uses me to smoke him and his girl out, I pay, you know? I'm ready for the big time, I was doing really good for a while, reading Castaneda and getting really on the straight path. Just never am able to stop thinking of ways to get high. Even though at this point I'm not even getting high, I just do drugs b/c that's what I've always done. Perhaps I need to go to some type of schooling, but academically I've never really excelled, I don't have any skills. The economy still sucks balls, and no fault to Obama, but let's not even get on that. It's time for a shift in consciousness for good, and without the drugs. Thanks everyone. I'm going to try and take my mind off things for the day. Gonna meditate and go to sleep.Jk I don't know how to meditate and I'm not tired.
 
After careful evaluation I think I may need to push myself into more drugs to figure out how to get back to the top by going to the bottom.

Is it better to do 60 dollars worth of meth weekend or eat 5 tabs every weekend?

I just wonder which is worse.
 
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jason, I've merged your 3 posts into one post to minimize the clutter. You can hit the edit button if you have anything to add to a post if nobody has yet responded to you.

Meth and LSD are in two completely different realms. Both have different reactions so we can't really say which would be better/worse for you. Doing both Meth and LSD every weekend is definitely harmful to the body and mind. Since we are in TDS, which is a recovery and support based subsection I'm going to reccomend against both of them.

jasonmccarthy5 said:
After careful evaluation I think I may need to push myself into more drugs to figure out how to get back to the top by going to the bottom.
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This statement is absolute nonsense. You know that is not the answer at all.
 
challenge your fears head on. What are you afraid of in particular? As for having no desire to do anything, just force yourself to do things, eventually it'll get easier and one day you may even derive pleasure out of simple activities. Easier said than done but it's been working for me. I'd see your doctor as well, if you're on that many meds and they aren't helping then maybe it's time to reassess.
 
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