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Dreaming about using

Last night I dreamt of Heroine. I woke up & thought to myself: "Why would I even dream of that? I've never even used H before." Then I heard that my roommate had some documentry on Heroine turned up too loud, lol. Then after falling back asleep, I dreamt of Zyban, which was odd because I've only been on it for 3 days.
 
I still dream about heroin about 50% of nights, and I've used twice in the past 150 days. It's really, really annoying.

I have noticed that early on, my dreams were just frustrating and made me want to use. Now they make me sad, since I want to stay off of the stuff but the dreams bring a lot of the fear and panic back.

I also have dreams in which I break my sober streak from alcohol and then get very psychologically messed up from having to be back at square one. These are not as bad, and I usually am happy waking up from them.
 
It sucks but when you think you relapse and feel guilty and worried either in the dream or right when you wake up its kind of nice knowing you have a conscience of it. I mean for me its like that
 
I have those dreams all the time. Just try to enjoy them as dreams. I've had dreams so vivid that I couldn't tell the difference between reality. I like my H dreams unless it's about being chased by police or friends OD'ing and shit. Just be happy your dreams aren't about being at work. That sucks the worst. Alarm goes off and then you literaly gotta go to work. You don't get paid when your sleeping, unless sleeping at work. But that's another story.
 
OxycoDrone said:
Whenever I would dream of oxy, I'd never actually get to have my shot.. something would always go wrong and I'd wake up in a cold sweat and crave like nothing else.
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I have had the exact same dreams. Constantly doing sketchy things to acquire the drugs throughout the entire dream and then right at the end waking up without getting high.

I've noticed that during periods where I would start to lapse in my belief that I didn't want the drugs I would begin to have more frequent dreams (almost nightly). For a while it took some serious reconvincing to get myself in check that I did in fact know I didn't want to relapse and do the drugs again.

After I began gain control and acceptance that what I wanted deep down was sobriety the dreams stopped happening as frequently.
 
I'm 10 years or so clean of Heroin and still have them quite often. SwimmingDancer, exactly as you and others have said they're always about trying to get a score together, or a shot together, but never quite getting there. No matter what I do in my dreams something always prevents me from shooting up. I sometimes wake from them feeling like I should be rattling, and wondering why I'm not. And then comes the relief . . . I'm not rattling cos I don't do this shit anymore . . . :)

They don't bother me, and they're not triggering, or craving inducing, or anything like that, cos I understand what they are. They're not *really* about Heroin. They're just frustration dreams. Just so happens that having done shit-loads of Heroin that's what my brain uses as subject matter when it's trying to express that frustration. That's all. When I have them I usually try and work out what it is I'm maybe frustrated about, but sometimes there isn't really anything to work out. They're just random things my brain does to keep itself entertained when I'm asleep. No biggie. Try and dismiss them as just that.
 
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Dear Friend, I too have dreams about cravings and I have found a way for me at least to handle them. I have taken to sleeping in a e chair in the living room. This has worked because I do not reach rem4 sleep sitting up.
Just a suggestion

Blessings Mistyswann
 
Dear Friend, I too have dreams about cravings and I have found a way for me at least to handle them. I have taken to sleeping in a recliner chair in the living room. This has worked because I do not reach rem4 sleep sitting up.
Just a suggestion

Blessings Mistyswann
 
Yep, my dreams are about the quest to use drugs, things are always preventing me from actually using (can't find a dealer, can't find my drugs, can't find a syringe, can't prepare the drugs properly, can't find a private place to do them, etc etc). So it's not about feeling guilty or feeling like I've relapsed. It's like a dream manifestation of cravings, but the weird thing is it can happen randomly even when I've been not having any cravings in my waking hours. Then when I wake up I have brutal cravings :(

I did have one recently where I did finally get to use the drugs but I woke up immediately before feeling the high.

It seems like for me, the only thing I've found at all helpful is talking about it and giving in to feeling the cravings and recognizing that cravings don't mean I have to act on them. The dreams don't seem to have a pattern of only striking when I'm really stressed or wanting to use or not focusing on my "sobriety".
 
I can completely relate to this! Ive been clean over a year, sometimes when im going through really stressful times in life, even if i dont feel like usisng, when i go to bed ill be haunted with dreams about heroin. I had a dream once where i had the stuff and had NO VEINS and in my sleep i stabbed my self over and over growing increasingly frusturated and angry ughh woke up feeling sick, ashamed, and unrested. Its happened (diff scenarios) many times over but i do notice a correlation between stressful events and these dreams (although sometimes they pop up out of the blue).

I understand how upsetting these dreams are and how they intensify cravings upon waking. Just know that you are stronger than your dreams and cravings, think back to how terrible the cravings were when u first got clean but you made it through to the other side. I heard an alleged myth that sugar before bed can cause nightmares, not sure if its true but its worth trying to avoid it if possible. During the day, if u start craving, think back to when ur were at ur worst in addiction. Think back on heroin and all the hell it put u and ur loved ones through, start to hate the drug w increased intensity and the dreams may start to diminish.
 
I have dreams like that too. It's frustrating because in the dreams I know without a shadow of a doubt that I'm going to get high, do a shot, score, etc. Sometimes I even have my fix but the recurring theme is that I never get to do it. Just recently I dreamt that an old friend/connect of mine said he would give me his rinse if I stopped by his place that afternoon after he got home and I spent the whole dream waiting on him to get back to his place so I could do a shot. I'm so desperate I'm dreaming about a damn rinse lol. It's really frustrating though. Once I get on the jones it's really hard for me to let up. Even in my dreams
 
Swimmingdancer said:
It seems like for me, the only thing I've found at all helpful is talking about it and giving in to feeling the cravings and recognizing that cravings don't mean I have to act on them.
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Yes, exactly this. You could maybe try to see them as a sign of your strength, in that you're able to experience the intensity of them while they last and just leave them to do their thing, knowing that at some point they'll pass. Take something positive from them instead of allowing them to dominate your thinking in a negative way when they happen. They're gonna be hard to deal with cos their creeping up on you all unexpected while you're asleep sneaks round the mental protection and coping strategies you put in place through the day to deal with triggers before they have chance to really induce much in the way of a crave, but they'll get easier to deal with in time, I promise you.

The dreams don't seem to have a pattern of only striking when I'm really stressed or wanting to use or not focusing on my "sobriety".
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That's what I was getting at with the not being really about Heroin thing. I'd expect stressful times, feeling low, environmental cues, etc to be triggering of them if they were, and there'd be an obvious link. That there isn't I think says that though they may trigger craving when they happen, they're not necessarily linked to craving, or weakening of resolve, or desire to use, or anything like that, so in that sense you're winning. ;)
 
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I do and the weirdest thing about them is that I get high in my dream. But the dream-high is not the same as the real-life high, the dream-high is a lot more disorienting.
 
I have dreams every single night revolving around drugs of some sort. Mostly it's about scoring, or trying to use, but never getting any privacy. I drug seek in my dreams too, by checking prescription bottles. My late best friend, who OD'd 4 years ago makes frequent appearances & I never believe or acknowledge she's dead. I'll remember that I THOUGHT she died though.

It's really messed up, but dreams are what our subconscious sorts through.
 
if you say to yourself before you go to bed or sleep :" tonight im not going to dream about drugs" and try to quickly move on from the statement /push the the thought aside .
hope it works for you man .
 
Eyes On the Roll said:
I often have dreams of taking ecstasy, with old friends long gone. In the dreams, I actually feel it, and it's awesome, and I'm partying with my old friends that I don't see or talk to anymore. I think the reason why I only dream of using MDMA (despite being an ex oxy addict) is because I long for that feeling of empathy, and that feeling of togetherness that I once had with my old friends. I don't get those feelings naturally.
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Very much the same,of late I often dream about being at parties taking MDXX and it can feature randomly in other dreams. I haven't taken the stuff in years but I do look back on those days with rose tinted specs, the freedom and happiness have largely eluded me since.
 
Maybe not quite darkside material but I dream regularly about drugs. As I'm in the run-up to a trip or a roll, they feature very prominently. At present, I have some LSD burning a whole in my freezer - been dreaming about it for a couple of days. In a few weeks, I have another little event planned. I'll dream about that for at least 5 days before hand. I can get so excited I find it difficult to sleep.

It used to be that I got excited about Christmas, now it's eating RCs.
 
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