wheatley
Greenlighter
hey Bluelighters! heres my little problem. and i dont know if im just going crazy or i just need to sort myself out.
i take ketamine everyday. between 1-3 grams and have done on and off for 3 years. i will quit for a few months then pick it back up again hard!
i need to stop but just always have this massive mental craving for ketamine. i fucking LOVE the drug and if i wasnt contantly thinking it was gonna kill me i wouldnt be posting this thread. i want to know the true damage ketamine can cause really..
ive heard horror stories about bladder removal etc . but i've only had slight pee problems, i have had k cramps wich were fucking UNBEARABLE but still. im still doing it. still get them. a little stingy piss or needing the toilet maybe 12 times a day if ive cained it HARRDDD. (which could potentially be explained by the amount of water and cranberry juice i drink 4ltr's a dayi'sh) and always over drink so that i can pee as much as possible. I take cranberry extract and milk-thisstle and other vitamins that help with cleansing and circulation, maybe as some sort of trickery to me making me believe im counteracting the risks i just dont know. i feel im in a bad place.
while on the other hand, recently, i'm happy with my life. Ive been saving money from a job i have and want to go traveling for a few months to get away from everything
(mainly drugs and family problems) and ive been doing well as saving. so i can prove to myself that i can achieve. im just scared im too addited.
i think about it everyday. every problem i have its like 'lets take a line' and the fact its so available makes it worse. i have as large group of friends that i do it with.... everyone does it really aha! im trapped in the k circle. but i i know i cant go on living like this without answers. somone with first hand experince.
in conclusion. i would just like to know how much permanent damage ketamine can do to your bladder/kidneys/gall bladder? and how quick are those organs to heal? and whats a good way of coming of of ketamine? ive tried just sticking to weed but my mind just switches and i just go buy a gram.
and as soon as i have a couple of drinks the first thing that comes to mind is a line. and have k cramps been known to cause any serious health risks?
ive never injected. scared i would like it too much although my friends who do IM say its a lot cleaner... is this true?
i take ketamine everyday. between 1-3 grams and have done on and off for 3 years. i will quit for a few months then pick it back up again hard!
i need to stop but just always have this massive mental craving for ketamine. i fucking LOVE the drug and if i wasnt contantly thinking it was gonna kill me i wouldnt be posting this thread. i want to know the true damage ketamine can cause really..
ive heard horror stories about bladder removal etc . but i've only had slight pee problems, i have had k cramps wich were fucking UNBEARABLE but still. im still doing it. still get them. a little stingy piss or needing the toilet maybe 12 times a day if ive cained it HARRDDD. (which could potentially be explained by the amount of water and cranberry juice i drink 4ltr's a dayi'sh) and always over drink so that i can pee as much as possible. I take cranberry extract and milk-thisstle and other vitamins that help with cleansing and circulation, maybe as some sort of trickery to me making me believe im counteracting the risks i just dont know. i feel im in a bad place.
while on the other hand, recently, i'm happy with my life. Ive been saving money from a job i have and want to go traveling for a few months to get away from everything
(mainly drugs and family problems) and ive been doing well as saving. so i can prove to myself that i can achieve. im just scared im too addited.
i think about it everyday. every problem i have its like 'lets take a line' and the fact its so available makes it worse. i have as large group of friends that i do it with.... everyone does it really aha! im trapped in the k circle. but i i know i cant go on living like this without answers. somone with first hand experince.
in conclusion. i would just like to know how much permanent damage ketamine can do to your bladder/kidneys/gall bladder? and how quick are those organs to heal? and whats a good way of coming of of ketamine? ive tried just sticking to weed but my mind just switches and i just go buy a gram.
and as soon as i have a couple of drinks the first thing that comes to mind is a line. and have k cramps been known to cause any serious health risks?
ive never injected. scared i would like it too much although my friends who do IM say its a lot cleaner... is this true?
