This may not belong to this part of the forum, but I'm a new here and not sure how this all works. Hopefully you don't mind me writing here.
Anyway.. I've read about depersonalization, ego-death and about various views of what they possibly might just mean. Some individuals who say about themselves that they are long-term experienced in meditation claim that people experiencing depersonalization might got confused with it and regard it as ego-death. One part of the argument is that ego-death exprienced while being in state of depersonalization differs from actual ego-death due to it's tendency to leave oneself disconnected from everything else. Leaving oneself empty.
My own experience felt deeply profound and included understanding of how human mind ''represents itself'' and how does it work. When I got into conversations during this period of my life (from februari to march) my way of acting slightly changed. Also I felt like I didn't have defence system anymore. Nothing inside me that could get panicked or afraid of being touched/hurted/panicked by simply being ''wrong'' in some cases.
First time experiencing possible ego-death was deeply spiritual and deeply uniting experience. Felt high understanding, being connected with everything else. Felt like something in my head/brain started to change, felt tingling and parts changed their places.
Whole this time, about 2 months. I felt that intuition guided me. Everything was meant to happen. There was a ''natural path'' to things to happen, natural ways. Repetitive cycles in everything, chemistry, neurochemistry, human mind. Certain molds of representing life forms.
During this time I learned that human skulls varies, at the moment there are 3 different types of human skulls.
Once during this period or a bit later (don't remember for sure) I meditated during day-light. During the same day but at the evening started to see geometrical figures behind my closed eyelids.
All this which involves head/''sensations'' in brain is obviously part of depersonalization or something alike. I agree on that. But the claims that the ego-death experienced in this state leaves empty, is pure nonsense.
Has anyone experiences like these?
Would be happy to hear some experiencences, and critics is more than welcomed.,
Anyway.. I've read about depersonalization, ego-death and about various views of what they possibly might just mean. Some individuals who say about themselves that they are long-term experienced in meditation claim that people experiencing depersonalization might got confused with it and regard it as ego-death. One part of the argument is that ego-death exprienced while being in state of depersonalization differs from actual ego-death due to it's tendency to leave oneself disconnected from everything else. Leaving oneself empty.
My own experience felt deeply profound and included understanding of how human mind ''represents itself'' and how does it work. When I got into conversations during this period of my life (from februari to march) my way of acting slightly changed. Also I felt like I didn't have defence system anymore. Nothing inside me that could get panicked or afraid of being touched/hurted/panicked by simply being ''wrong'' in some cases.
First time experiencing possible ego-death was deeply spiritual and deeply uniting experience. Felt high understanding, being connected with everything else. Felt like something in my head/brain started to change, felt tingling and parts changed their places.
Whole this time, about 2 months. I felt that intuition guided me. Everything was meant to happen. There was a ''natural path'' to things to happen, natural ways. Repetitive cycles in everything, chemistry, neurochemistry, human mind. Certain molds of representing life forms.
During this time I learned that human skulls varies, at the moment there are 3 different types of human skulls.
Once during this period or a bit later (don't remember for sure) I meditated during day-light. During the same day but at the evening started to see geometrical figures behind my closed eyelids.
All this which involves head/''sensations'' in brain is obviously part of depersonalization or something alike. I agree on that. But the claims that the ego-death experienced in this state leaves empty, is pure nonsense.
Has anyone experiences like these?
Would be happy to hear some experiencences, and critics is more than welcomed.,
