Constant feeling of guilt

[tommy34]

Hey everyone, I haven;t posted here for a while and that is because my life has been pretty smooth. Lately I've had this constant feeling of guilt and I think its because I cannot be fucked doing anything. My hours got cut at work down to 18 hours a week. I was supposed to go to uni on Tuesday night and all day Wednesday. I went to one lecture on Wednesday and skipped Tuesday night all together and for no good reason. Its the end of the semester and I am borderline failing 2 out of 3 classes and when I say borderline I mean i am literally getting 25/50 so far an the last exam is 50 marks and I haven't studied at all.

Today I sat here all day designing a website for a little website design company I want to start. Now I feel so guilty that I didn't go look for another job or do any study. I'm waking up at like 9:30 - 10 everyday and I usually don't sleep past 8. I have become so lazy and I don't know why. I should be looking for another job as I may loose mine all together soon but I seriously cannot be fucked. I don;t really care if I don't have a job. I wont have enough money to pay the rent but idk I guess ill figure it out.

Just wanted to write something, makes me feel a little better.

 

[1394]

You're depressed, and given your age and current status, this is very normal.

Give it a month or two, but in the mean time force your self to do shit. It works wonders.

 

[DeathDomokun]

Although guilt, apathy, and lethargy can be symptoms of depression, it doesn't automatically equal depression. I'm so sick of people throwing around diagnosis' like they're nothing. If things were this simple we wouldn't have people charging $400 an hour to listen to peoples thoughts. There's a plethora of other things it could be, not to mention the fact that all of these symptoms can arise without there being a mental disorder to blame. Not to mention depression itself is a natural emotion that you're supposed to experience throughout your life time, it's when it arises for no reasons and stays for a long period and interferes with your quality of life that it gains merit as a mental health issue and not a healthy emotion.
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[1394]

Although guilt, apathy, and lethargy can be symptoms of depression, it doesn't automatically equal depression. I'm so sick of people throwing around diagnosis' like they're nothing. If things were this simple we wouldn't have people charging $400 an hour to listen to peoples thoughts. There's a plethora of other things it could be, not to mention the fact that all of these symptoms can arise without there being a mental disorder to blame. Not to mention depression itself is a natural emotion that you're supposed to experience throughout your life time, it's when it arises for no reasons and stays for a long period and interferes with your quality of life that it gains merit as a mental health issue and not a healthy emotion.
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pfffff, you know there's something wrong when people are charging you $400 an hour, and not necessarily with you.

 

[RedLeader]

You say that you "cannot be fucked to do anything," but then also tell us about how you spent all day designing a website. It sounds to me like you have the creativity and the ambition, it's just that you're not interested in the things you are required to do (uni, job).

I understand that it's hard, just be assured that a lot of us have battled through uni and that a lot of us don't like our jobs. You're not alone in this, and as long as you don't feel so alone, it's probably going to be easier to continue putting energy into things you don't like doing. Do you get along with your coworkers? Do you have friends in your courses? If so, can you bond with them a bit over the idea of doing work that none of you really want to be doing? Sometimes it feels a lot easier when you're doing it together, instead of trying to take on the world alone.

I'm going to suggest that you really try and get your grades up, as falling out of school can only make a situation worse. Can you talk with your supervisor/boss about your hours, and how you need to work as many as possible? Why did they cut them in the first place?

 

[webbykevin]

Although guilt, apathy, and lethargy can be symptoms of depression, it doesn't automatically equal depression. I'm so sick of people throwing around diagnosis' like they're nothing. If things were this simple we wouldn't have people charging $400 an hour to listen to peoples thoughts. There's a plethora of other things it could be, not to mention the fact that all of these symptoms can arise without there being a mental disorder to blame. Not to mention depression itself is a natural emotion that you're supposed to experience throughout your life time, it's when it arises for no reasons and stays for a long period and interferes with your quality of life that it gains merit as a mental health issue and not a healthy emotion.
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Great post, agree with everything you said here.

To the OP, My advice would be to find the thing you really really enjoy doing, and do that, do it with passion and joy, the money will follow, do not waste your life doing shitty meaningless jobs and study just because you feel that society expects you to toe the line, that's fucked and is why so many people are miserable. The guilt comes from the mainstream re enforcing over and over again the Brady Bunch model of reality and making everyone who is not living like that feel like they are not normal.