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I feel as if I'm about to get back into opiate abuse

Parallel*

Parallel*

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I'm not going to have a problem staying off amphetamines, and I've been 1 month clean of H, and all other opiates. But I feel this sudden urge to cop an 8-ball, or some kind of opiate today

My justification? It's memorial day

I need some help to not use today

thanks everyone
 
Thanks for staying in touch and stopping in here before going out to cop. Not a lot of people can put a craving on hold long enough to be able to come on here in the heat of the moment to post. This is amazing. I am so proud of you!!! <3<3<3

I know how you feel about opiates. They are my only temptation. They cross my mind every day. I'll hear a song or pass a place or think of someone that reminds me of them. It's so hard. 1 month clean is sooo long in opiate land. You absolutely cannot do it to yourself and we have to find a reason that works for you that will remind you why you are okay without it.

A craving really only lasts a few minutes it's up to you how long you want to draw it out. Do you have any plans for tonight other than sitting home? Let's see what we can work with :).
 
Thank you for the fast reply and words of encouragement! Just like you said, it was a song that triggered it. Nightclubbing by Iggy Pop always get the thought of getting high in my mind, and that's what did it this time. I planned to BBQ, but other than that no plans for tonight :\
 
hey i hope you stayed strong, i am new to the forum but am having my own tug of war with the H addiction, just finished my last half bag so now time to try and stay clean again! A month is a awesome amount of time! i hope you have kept away from shit last night, its so not worth it, you think its going to be but its not, plus a month dude! thats awesome!!!!! Stay strong
 
Man fuck h and fuck opiates. I hate em. Just keep being strong. The thoughts will pass. 109 days clean and sober today ;)
Just wait until that month turns into years. You will feel really good about yourself and happy you got away when you did..
 
Anomaly <3<3 I get so happy when I see you posting about. I thought about you the other day because I haven't seen your thread pop up in a while. Such good news as always from you. You were my hero when I first started coming on here again in the depth of depression and addiction and you are still my hero. I haven't been counting but I would have never thought it had already been 109 days. Best news today!!

<3<3 So good to see you as always.
 
Its memorial day is not a legit reason to use! (not that there is a legit one, period)

If you do it because its memorial day then after awhile you're going to want to use again and you will start to justify it to yourself more and more often. Well, its Christmas.....Well its my birthday.....soon, well...it is Tuesday after all.. Haha get what I'm saying?
 
Parallel* said:
I'm not going to have a problem staying off amphetamines, and I've been 1 month clean of H, and all other opiates. But I feel this sudden urge to cop an 8-ball, or some kind of opiate today

My justification? It's memorial day

I need some help to not use today

thanks everyone
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It will pass
Justifications aside, let us not forget about the plethora of inevitable downsides
 
Wow!! You are doing so well!! 1 month is a long time<3 congratulations!!! Urges will get lighter. You will still have the thought but the feeling that pulls you in will loosen its grips on your body. Then it's just mental. I believe in a higher power, God. I believe the devil is here to pull us all away from his grace. I believe he whispers in our ears and encourages negitive behavior. When I was fighting my smoking addiction, I have intense cravings to go buy a pack or rationalize bumming one from my neighbor. "Just one won't hurt." well it will. To help combat my addiction and craving when I had strong ones or light ones I would say simply "Devil be gone in the name of Jesus!!" it may sound sill, but it worked. The cravings and thoughts went away.
 
Thank you so much everyone. Luckily, a friend of mine called to have some herb and beer so I hung out with him and his lady. Still clean and haven't used! :)
 
Iggy pop makes me think of the movie trainspotting, and you can guess where my mind goes from there. I've been clean from ALL substances including alcohol for going on 5 months. It gets easier, just remember if you really wanna pick up dope, you got to be lucky EVERY time to slide by cops, they only need to get lucky once. Same with doing the dope, every use is a potential OD (we had lots of dope cut with fentanyl in my area). Do the benefits really outweigh the risks? You shouldn't be dopesick so there should be no physical need for opioids/opiates, and whatever psychological cravings you get will pass, dope won't make them go away and won't make any problems better (could potentially make situations worse). Best of luck to you, and remember you don't have to use, even if you really want to.
 
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