Benzos Almost 11 months off benzodifagapines, much better but not completely healed yet....

[Trigeminal]

So, what are the chances of me getting 100% better, back to my old self?

I don't believe in "karma" or any of that other shit, but this is so fucked up. I was a short term user and it's not "fair" I'm still withdrawing after so long. I have friends who have taken many, many more benzos than I ever did and they had no problems with withdrawal whatsoever.

Anyway, I am getting better, so I didn't want to make this whole thread just to complain. My remaining symptoms are still a little anxiety and some insomnia. It's pretty typical for me to sleep about 6 hours a night. Anxiety is not bad enough to significantly disrupt my life or anything, but it's bad enough that I am not as happy and content as I would like to be.

I would just like some opinions--is it possible for me to get completely better? It's been almost a year now, and I can't believe this bullshit is still happening. I just want to be NORMAL again.

I'm looking for opinions of people who withdrew for many months, like 6+, if you had a week long withdrawal and then you were fine, good for you and you're lucky, but I'm not interested in hearing about it--it's not relevant to my situation (I mean, obviously you can post about whatever the fuck you want, but what I mean is, for the purposes of this thread, it's going to help me about as much as posting a picture of the most recent shit you took).

 

[Pagey]

Well I haven't been withdrawing for so long but I've heard many people say it takes about 2 years for your brain/body to return to normal after sustained benzo use, so I think it's perfectly normal you're not completely better yet.
Good luck though!

 

[DaftPunkFan]

(for the purposes of this thread, it's going to help me about as much as posting a picture of the most recent shit you took).

Lol!
Anyways, what benzos were you taking? Also at what dosage and for how long?

I'm currently towards the end of a Valium taper from a 2 year long Xanax addiction, and I'm really hoping I'm not going to go through this shit for a year after stopping, that just sounds ridiculous... (I was at 1mg-1.5mg daily, occasionally more)

P.S. Picture of the most recent shit is on its way. Stand by...

 

[ErgicMergic]

Trigeminal, Benzo PAWS is absolutely horrible, but you're almost through it, so just stick in there! :D

I was drinking 5-8 beers a day for two months, then switched to taking prescribed Valium, 20-30mg daily along with 175-350mg Soma daily, with occasional Xanax and Lyrica (small dosages) thrown in, for 3 months, then 5-15mg of Valium taper for 3 months, then tapered down to 1.25mg Valium daily and maintained for 1.5 months, and still went through hell when I jumped off. I resorted to using Kava Kava tincture, and tapered further using that. I still take 50mg of L-theanine a night to keep PAWS away, it's horrible shit for such a small, prescribed dependence.

I'm now 12.5 months clean off of daily benzo usage, and I'm so much better, but I find that staying away from GABA-ergics helps so much. Just one night of getting drunk or doing a moderate dose of benzos (0.5-1mg+ Xanax) is enough to bring back PAWS heavily for a week or two, leading me to reinstate mini-Valium tapers after just a day of heavy GABA-ergic usage.

Stay tough, and it will get better and better slowly over time. The more you use GABA-ergics, the slower your GABA system will heal itself. You can drink tea, it has L-Theanine, or take 50-100mg L-Theanine a night with 0.5mg Melatonin like I do, they both affect the GABA system. Anything more than that, even Kava-Kava, brings back PAWS in a big way. Stay away from any positive allosoteric modulators of GABA-A and you'll get better.

 

[SaosinEngaged]

"benzodifagapines"

I'm sorry, I had to post because that is the funniest fucking shit I've read in a long time. Thanks for that.

I also sympathize with your situation, although I cannot offer you guidance I can only extend the notion that I'm knee deep in my own shit; a steady dose of Opiate WD. I just cling to this strange notion that someday I'll eventually feel normal without relying on my narcotic feelings.