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[MEGA] What is your goal for today?

Goals for tomorrow:

- Learn a lot of Japanese. I was a little bit lazy the last week. ;)
- Do my paper work. It kind of accumulated over my whole desk.
- Most of all: Stay as positive as I am right now. And clean, of course.
 
- Tutor someone in GED math
- Talk to the accountant and get answers
- Avoid the internet until 8 P.M. in order to stop time-wasting
 
@CH - you'll do fine buddy, hang in there.

@VW - reminds me that I should probably be doing my homework instead of posting on Bluelight :)

@PIP - I have much organization to accomplish too. This entire school year my binder has been a complete mess, I just have a stack of papers at the front of each...so that's a goal I should probably look into ;)

@mami - the internet is the one thing that keeps me from achieving all of my life goals. Except I love you all too much to ever give it up.

Well it started raining today, so there goes my plans for skating :| Oh well, there's still always tomorrow.
 
Got my bed spread and I love it. I haven't had one tobacco cigarette all day and have been using my electronic one. My early goal for tomorrow is going to be to not buy a pack tonight and continue tomorrow as day two :-D.

VanWeyden, staying positive is one of my big goals. I did pretty well with it today. It's you and me buddy. Day two of positive thinking ftw <3.
 
I haven't had ANY nicotine today! =D I'm actually very happy about that, and I'm happy for you that you stuck to your e-cig, that can be tough for me sometimes because I really love the oral fixation that I get from smoking anything really.
 
Half the battle with smoking it the oral fixation. I highly recommend ecigs for transitioning off real cigs. I could totally steer you in the direction of the right one if you wanted to use it to quit. I went through like 5 different ones before I found this one I'm using now that rocks. I have maple syrup flavored juice and it's heavenly!!!!

<3<3 thanks mami!!
 
^this is interesting, and you might notice while indoors with others for extended periods of time, you can tell who are the smokers from how often they will put their hand to their mouth or face...one of many tell-tail idiosyncrasies that help make me want to stop.
 
Going on day two of no tobacco. Morning craving went well. Now onto my driving in the car craving...and after dinner craving. Wish me luck!!!
 
Great show ^ :D

I was really happy to have gotten something out of therapy yesterday, and my goal for today is to discover something new about my life.
 
My goal for the day is to go out tonight to a gig with my friend to see a band called Alkaline Trio who are playing in my home city and to go to the night sober, enjoy it and remember it!

I usually use Benzos (Which i have in my possession but am determined not to touch) And sometimes i may use some Opiates aswell, usually Oxycontin or Poppy Pop Tea, the last i went out to a gig in february i ended up getting thrown out by the security for being asleep on my feet (I was nodding ;)

I have access to buy some ORAL morphine sulphate solution which ive never tried and am very tempted to get (And take Orally as i dont inject) I had to write that because a lot of people assume im going to IV which ive never done and dont plan to.

Yesterday i was one step away from getting the Morphine but decided against it, and then when i woke first thing this morning was to go out and get that morphine but after a fair bit of digging/researching and asking questions im lead to believe thats it's not very recreational, and besides im used to using Oxycontin (OC) crushed and taken orally anywhere between 80-240mg in one dose so my tolerance will probably play a role in my Morphine experience.

Anyway sorry i went off on one then. Essay stylee! :D
 
Today my goal is to pull away from arguments. My mom won't listen to anything I have to say anymore, she attacks me and I start to yell and argue, but today I am done with that. Today she got mad because I told her I was done with our conversation because she started attacking me, so when I was putting my headphones on she started screaming and telling me how I was disobeying her, but you know what I just persisted and didn't even try to argue the point I had. What I had to say made so much sense and was reasonable but it isn't even worth going after, she'll be mad but I'm happy right now that my vocal chords aren't stinging and I just walked away from a triggering situation. Mom, you might be a fighter and a pursuer but I refuse to bring myself down to your level. Maybe you'll let me talk one day and understand what I have to say.

Thank you therapy :)
 
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