After finding himself in the psych ward the first time he got 20g MDPV - CRAZY-P - (19grams going down the drain prior to hospitalization), he decided it was in order for him to double check his conclusions on this substance once more and obtained 10g. The first 36-48 hours were delightful, dosing .10 mg about every five hours. What he has found is that it is not "IF" psychosis sets in, it is "when" it sets in. he figures if the compulsive urge to redoes is halted at about 48 hours or less, psychosis does not have a chance to set in. Once the sleep deprivation onsets,however, is where he believe the rationality is dissolved into delusion. For him, this is when the damn shadow people started to show themselves. The same ones that put him in the psych ward the first time were out for him again and this time, he was prepared for battle. he lost. He was literally in unfathomable violence with one sole shadow in the confines of his room as he relentlessly tore his room apart trying to hide what was left of the crazy powder. He simply could not do it. The shadow people would not let him. and torment him they did. for hours. until he sailed his white flag, rushed to the basin, and dumped the evil down the toilet. Now when he went back to the room, all was calm. and the sole shadow befriended him. silently hinting the things that he had done the past WEEK. The comedown was to be another living hell for him, Lasting several days. the shadow people are gone from his site, he says, but he still truly believes that they are still out there. Waiting. On red alert.
Would he do it again? yes he says....but with greater restrictions. (famous last words). The compulsive redoes urge is greater than he had ever felt before, and after a few days, he is not even sure he redosed at all. Would he recommend it. If one is all about seeing everything there is to see, taking the good with the bad, fly my poor soul. But be warned...Your going to get exactly what you ask for. Some things are better off left unknown. Now that he knows this, even though the post traumatic consequences far exceed the pleasurable onset, he feels that he still wants to fly again. after DAYS of pure terror, this substance still has that compulsive allure to it for him. He is baffled by this. "Buy the ticket, take the ride" - Hunter S. Thompson