Menta*Lity
Greenlighter
Before reading i would like to let you know i had to write this and get it out very quicly due to lack of time! speeling is bad and structure even worse..hah
So i recently have decided that i was in starting to enter down a dark path with using heroin, not being physically addicted yet therefore it all being mental. Ive had some weak days however. All in all the struggle continues. However My father went to Detox for alcohol after a 3 week long binge and got out a week ago. He met a women in there that supposovly has extreme pain through her body from an axident she was in when she was younger. Anyways she was a opiot user that went from vikes to heroin. She used heroin like once or twice but never shot it. She used to be prescribed meds however they took her off of them for a reason that im not 100 percent sure of. Anyways she was in detox and started talking to my dad. My father is 57 and she is 32. ya quite the stretch. He has stayed away from alcohol for the last week because he is now head over heels for her and she supposovly likes him Within the first day he bought her 6 vikes, they were 10s. she told him that she would never go back to heroin and that she has only ever snorted it. The second day he came to me asking for some op 60s. This is where i for some reason first thought ok this is bullshit she is using him. I told him i couldnt get them and sent him on his way. Later that night i caught him crying because he felt so bad because of how much pain she was telling him she was in. and i tryed explainning my thoughts and concerns to him about the situation and he was very very defiant about what i thought. complete denial. The next day he woke me up at 8 am on a day off and asked me. "Hey can you get any heroin, we cant find anything else its a last resort. So i freakout and continue to tell him how dam stupid he is being. This man has never touched heroin. He has touched other things but not this and he is now asking me for it for this chick. He dosnt know i use he thinks i just have the hookup. I told him how he shouldnt have me get it and that its a bad idea. he starts telling me how i dont know anything and that idk what im talking about. Thats when i decided to take a leap and not tell him the whole situation, but tell him that i have used before to hopefuly make him more weary of having it around. so i tell him and he dosnt even seem to care to much. He however started to relize the situation and didnt like it to much and started thinking what if she is using me, but he dismissed it and kept asking me. I eventually took his money and got him it. He went to her house and came back later that night. I asked him about it and he started to tell me how she cooked it up and everything but i said wait! It went from her only trying heroin once or twice in her life and only blowing it in desperate situati0ns and never trying it again to her wanting some and only ever have blown it to now cooking it up with supposive no knowledge and shooting it. I explain what i have gathered from just listening to what she has said and how many lies there have already been. And he still dosnt care... what the hell Love is so dam Blind. Now this is even closer to me..
So i recently have decided that i was in starting to enter down a dark path with using heroin, not being physically addicted yet therefore it all being mental. Ive had some weak days however. All in all the struggle continues. However My father went to Detox for alcohol after a 3 week long binge and got out a week ago. He met a women in there that supposovly has extreme pain through her body from an axident she was in when she was younger. Anyways she was a opiot user that went from vikes to heroin. She used heroin like once or twice but never shot it. She used to be prescribed meds however they took her off of them for a reason that im not 100 percent sure of. Anyways she was in detox and started talking to my dad. My father is 57 and she is 32. ya quite the stretch. He has stayed away from alcohol for the last week because he is now head over heels for her and she supposovly likes him Within the first day he bought her 6 vikes, they were 10s. she told him that she would never go back to heroin and that she has only ever snorted it. The second day he came to me asking for some op 60s. This is where i for some reason first thought ok this is bullshit she is using him. I told him i couldnt get them and sent him on his way. Later that night i caught him crying because he felt so bad because of how much pain she was telling him she was in. and i tryed explainning my thoughts and concerns to him about the situation and he was very very defiant about what i thought. complete denial. The next day he woke me up at 8 am on a day off and asked me. "Hey can you get any heroin, we cant find anything else its a last resort. So i freakout and continue to tell him how dam stupid he is being. This man has never touched heroin. He has touched other things but not this and he is now asking me for it for this chick. He dosnt know i use he thinks i just have the hookup. I told him how he shouldnt have me get it and that its a bad idea. he starts telling me how i dont know anything and that idk what im talking about. Thats when i decided to take a leap and not tell him the whole situation, but tell him that i have used before to hopefuly make him more weary of having it around. so i tell him and he dosnt even seem to care to much. He however started to relize the situation and didnt like it to much and started thinking what if she is using me, but he dismissed it and kept asking me. I eventually took his money and got him it. He went to her house and came back later that night. I asked him about it and he started to tell me how she cooked it up and everything but i said wait! It went from her only trying heroin once or twice in her life and only blowing it in desperate situati0ns and never trying it again to her wanting some and only ever have blown it to now cooking it up with supposive no knowledge and shooting it. I explain what i have gathered from just listening to what she has said and how many lies there have already been. And he still dosnt care... what the hell Love is so dam Blind. Now this is even closer to me..
