Opioids sub+norco+benzos = i need advice and help

[ballandchain]

this is my first time posting here so sorry if i do something wrong i will learn i guess.
so heres the deal im an iv heroin addict finally got clean may 13 2011 ive been on subs lowering my dose from 16 to now .50 as of now i smoked some dope 2 months ago not a lot tho i was on 2mg subs at that point and didnt get a nod but felt a little high. im at the point that i dont give a fuck about life.plus ive had a lot of back pain i also have sever anxiety so i am prescribed xanax recently ive been taking more then im supposed to but not to much 2mg to 2.5mg dont keep track sometimes more ive been taking zanies on a daily basis for the past 4 months. so as of today i took .50 of subs at 4am .50 of xanax at work which was just to ease anxiety and the drop in subs at 330 i took 10mg of norco wasnt really feeling anything so i took 2mg of xanax and just took another 5mg of norco which totals to 15mg i know i need to take more to feel anything cus of the sub. i finally am starting to feel something i just really want to nod and feel completely numb but i dont know how much more i should take. im use to Xanax so should i just take more of that or should i take another 5mg of norco. i obviously am searching for the IV heroin high but im rationalizing in my mind that this is better i dont know if this makes any sence i usually know what to do its just cus im on the sub it makes it more confusing. how can i intensify it? and then how long do i hve to wait to go back on sub? to get thru work since i am a barista at starbucks.

 

[tricomb]

I doubt you'll be able to feel hydrocodone if you're on buprenorphine maintenance, even at 0.5mg/day. It builds up in your system, so even if you try and go a day without suboxone, you still will not get as high if you take a full agonist like hydrocodone.

Stop mixing alprazolam with your opioids, it's highly dangerous, lethal, and is possibly the worst polydrug addiction one can have.

 

[ballandchain]

yah thats how i od zanax and heroin i just really wanna feel high right now. and im fucked cus of the subs. i just took another 1mg of xanax which i know is dangerous im at 3.5mg of zanax with 15 of norco i know i shouldnt take anymore but like i said i just want to get high and escape life for a second. fuck.

 

[tricomb]

I think you would benefit from visiting The Dark Side of our forum as well as Addicted & Need Help

Using drugs to escape is very dangerous and often leads to death.

 

[ballandchain]

ill check it out but honestly i feel like all addicts do that thats why were addicts. but thanks.

 

[tricomb]

Some need support more than others, we are all at different stages of addiction.

Either way, welcome to Bluelight.

 

[BiggDirty01]

Yo-yo-ing with full agonists AND benzos is playing with fire, and as someone who has done this and been burned trust me you do not want to be playing around trying to guess dosages to breakthrough sub or how much sub to smooth out the hours between dosing with full agonists.

You really want to lean one way or another, especially when dealing with lower-tier opiates like norco with tylenol in them. Its an easy way to get sick and in my case (with xanax and soma) to OD for the first and ONLY time in my life (and this is after 5 years of Oxy, dilaudid and Heroin abuse after starting on Hydrocodone).

I know how you are feeling bro, honestly I do. But chasing the high while juggling subs and substantial amounts of benzos is really a disaster waiting to happen. And as someone who OD'd doing it, I hope my words can help you avoid any potential problems...

 

[ballandchain]

Yo-yo-ing with full agonists AND benzos is playing with fire, and as someone who has done this and been burned trust me you do not want to be playing around trying to guess dosages to breakthrough sub or how much sub to smooth out the hours between dosing with full agonists.

You really want to lean one way or another, especially when dealing with lower-tier opiates like norco with tylenol in them. Its an easy way to get sick and in my case (with xanax and soma) to OD for the first and ONLY time in my life (and this is after 5 years of Oxy, dilaudid and Heroin abuse after starting on Hydrocodone).

I know how you are feeling bro, honestly I do. But chasing the high while juggling subs and substantial amounts of benzos is really a disaster waiting to happen. And as someone who OD'd doing it, I hope my words can help you avoid any potential problems...

m just at a confussed point and i havent taken norco in so long i cant remember much about it just that i have it. like right now i feel like im starting to be sober and i just want to go back up again and i wanna take more xanax or drink but i actually no alchol in the mix will fuck me up more in a bad way i dont know whats wroung with me i guess i really just wanted to shoot dope today but couldnt get my hands on it and proabably doing heroin with all this now will really fuck me up. im so lost. i feel so alone right now.
on a side note i can tomorrow go with out taking subs ill try ill cus i dont work tomrrowand just try to go thro the wds of the sub and see if ill jump off then but becuase of work i have to becareful and have more energy and stuff but when and if take subs again how long should i wait cus ill prob be sick either way from the sub or mixing sub with norcos

 

[BiggDirty01]

depending on how much norco you took, somewhere around 18+ hours before redosing the sub again. Even if the norco didn't get you high it may have displaced the Bupe on your receptors so you wanna just be safe and make sure you give it enough time to flush out of your system.

But honestly bro, try staying on the sub. It can and might just save your life if the alternative is jumping back on the H train. You really have to understand that all these feelings your experiencing are mostly the result of the drugs or lack of drugs and that if you give it some time the brain eventually heals and resets itself. Is inpatient detox/rehab or even an Intensive Outpatient program possible? They've done wonders for me before my last surgery and were able to treat my underlying psychological issues (depression/anxiety) that made getting clean so much easier and more enjoyable. I totally understand as do all fellow BLers that getting clean/detoxing can be a brutal and lonely experience.

And if alcohol is not your thing, def do not start drinking! You don't need another monkey on your back! I know it seems like 'hey I just wanna get out of my own head and numb everything' but alcohol is straight poison especially with opiates and its too easy to hurt yourself accidentally.

Keep ur head up bro! Remember Pac!