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i love mdma but i'm saying goodbye

nelektroa

nelektroa

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I fricken love mdma, there is no doubt about that. I've gone through phases where i never took any for months then started up again every weekend, just depending on what was going on at the time event wise. Anyways, the last couple months i've rolled about once a month at "raves" but its not the same anymore. I lost the magic forever ago but up until recently i used to have good feeling rolls. Now i just kinda feel strung out, still feel sort of good but just...high. It doesn't really enhance my rave experience anymore either.

So i've decided that its time for me to stop. I just think that since it's not really doing a whole lot anymore that it's probably time to just say goodbye to it. Which makes me kind of sad i guess, since i'm the kind of person to reminisce and try to relive old moments. I used to have great times with or without mdma but now i don't seem to get excited about going dancing anymore.... raves are just kinda blah... I still love the music but am content sitting at home listening to it all day.

Anyways this does lead to a question. I'm just wondering if anyone else here quit mdma and was really sad about it? Physically i am fine, but i reminisce so much that i get myself upset over it. I'm 24 years old ... i try to want to still go out all the time but i actually don't want to... hard to explain. Am i just getting old? lol

I had an amazing run with mdma, great times and a few bad ones in the middle but all in all i think everyone needs to experience it at least once. It'd be nice to hear other peoples stories of quitting and how they felt about their choice :)
 
You should make MDMA for special occasions only try a new setting IMO.

For the time being I would call it "quits" but in a year or so you might want to try a new setting like home with close friends.

The rave environment frankly makes me uncomfortable. Too many weirdos around high on mystery chemicals for me to enjoy the environment. I like to be comfortable knowing some dickhead on piperazines or research chems isn't going to harass or assault me for no reason (it happens these days...), not to mention get robbed or something. Maybe it's only like that in TX but from what I hear even Cali raves are becoming less MDMA-friendly environments.

Just curious, have you been testing your stuff? The reason it feels so "blah, just high" may be because it's not even MDMA. That's how mCPP and BZP/TFMPP make me feel. Tracer lights, distorted audio, but no "good feeling"
 
severely etarded said:
You should make MDMA for special occasions only try a new setting IMO.

For the time being I would call it "quits" but in a year or so you might want to try a new setting like home with close friends.

The rave environment frankly makes me uncomfortable. Too many weirdos around high on mystery chemicals for me to enjoy the environment. I like to be comfortable knowing some dickhead on piperazines or research chems isn't going to harass or assault me for no reason (it happens these days...), not to mention get robbed or something. Maybe it's only like that in TX but from what I hear even Cali raves are becoming less MDMA-friendly environments.

Just curious, have you been testing your stuff? The reason it feels so "blah, just high" may be because it's not even MDMA. That's how mCPP and BZP/TFMPP make me feel. Tracer lights, distorted audio, but no "good feeling"
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Not trying to derail this thread but just making a statement towards etarded's post.

I live in San Diego, and seriously the only way I can even find pills these days is at raves. Legit everyday hookups are too few and far between.

You are absolutely right though, I dont know if its something really prevalent in raves around here, but I would say 80-90% (bullshit statistics ftw) of the shit you even find at raves in Cali are pipes/research chems. Its honestly really sad. Which is probably why there are so few legit hookups anymore, because people just want to unload this shit onto randoms. It begs the question, who actually has ecstasy anymore? lol

Which leads me to believe that maybe etarded's right in saying what you are taking nelek isnt the good stuff anymore. I know I rarely find it.
 
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BlueGhostFlames said:
Not trying to derail this thread but just making a statement towards etarded's post.

I live in San Diego, and seriously the only way I can even find pills these days is at raves. Legit everyday hookups are too few and far between.

You are absolutely right though, I dont know if its something really prevalent in raves around here, but I would say 80-90% (bullshit statistics ftw) of the shit you even find at raves in Cali are pipes/research chems. Its honestly really sad. Which is probably why there are so few legit hookups anymore, because people just want to unload this shit onto randoms. It begs the question, who actually has ecstasy anymore? lol

Which leads me to believe that maybe etarded's right in saying what you are taking nelek isnt the good stuff anymore. I know I rarely find it.
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well its true. there are hardly any good pills or MDMA in general in the united states. to answer your question who has good E now. well the Netherlands have a lot of good beans man. take a vacation to amsterdam or something if you want good MDMA bro.
 
^ There are good pills in Cali and Chitown too lol... you can find them anywhere with a good enough hook up really.

Hell look at fucking UTAH (yeah, point that out on a map!) they have an amazing scene right now, well, for the people looking for MDMA that is.


I thought I had lost the magic for a long time too though man, it's OK though. Just take a LONG break, like 6+ months and I'm sure it will come back. Growing up is always good though. If you can tell when you need to stop, and you actually do, then I'm sure you can use responsibly in the future.

Less than 200mgs of MDMA every 3+ months, and you'll be more than dandy :)
 
I look at MDMA like something for your birthday or to celebrate the new year. Not a "regular" kind of drug like alcohol, weed, or even cocaine meth or heroin. It's something that you have to save for a special occasion or it will eventually become much less special
 
severely etarded said:
I look at MDMA like something for your birthday or to celebrate the new year. Not a "regular" kind of drug like alcohol, weed, or even cocaine meth or heroin. It's something that you have to save for a special occasion or it will eventually become much less special
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spoken for truth... i followed this for 16 years and i never lost the magic.. its like with anything in life.. dont do it too often and really cherish the times when you do.
 
I agree, maybe try new settings, to use MDMA again or JUST BECAUSE....Sounds like you could use something fresh musically! There are some great music communities out there where people are in many headstates, not just thizzd or loaded....friendly environments, more age groups. Not everyone is a tard zombie. The music may not be electronic, but give it a try. You could get the magic back....No I dont mean the MDMA magic...I mean MUSIC and DANCING magic. Then you wont be so hung up on MDMA in your world if you find something that feeds your heart and not just a high. Im just guessing. I know I am getting too old for MDMA and I will have to quit soon. I have already severely cut down in the last 2 years. It feels good. Yeah I miss super twakky nights where I didnt come down so hard and when it was all fresh and new but there is so many other things to be excited about like going to see my fav bands with great people, that it doesnt bother me too much that I have to cut way back. I just have to get over the Roll Envy thing when friends are doing it, and just enjoy some cocktails and maybe a little psychedelics. I think its great that you are being so aware of these feelings. Sounds like you would really love a new scene and a new scene would really love you. BTW I have never been to a major rave. A few festivals in the woods but not a rave rave.....but from some events I have been to, seems like that would wear on me after awhile, and I dig electronic music. Just the whole Too Much E vibe gets creepy after awhile. Seems like the older I got the more diverse crowds I enjoyed, differnet headstates, people being huggy and nice without even a mention of MDMA. its out there!
 
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