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Need Help - This is My Very First Post in 'The Dark Side'

Read thru those other posts, and I agree... You DO need some help. It is my opinion that you need to taper off your benzodiazepine use and then get into some form of rehab, in-patient if possible. You won't get much sympathy from people around here when you ask for help but refuse to take anyone's advice.
 
Web said:
Read thru those other posts, and I agree... You DO need some help. It is my opinion that you need to taper off your benzodiazepine use and then get into some form of rehab, in-patient if possible. You won't get much sympathy from people around here when you ask for help but refuse to take anyone's advice.
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Thanks.

The Rehab is hopefully in the pipeline, i have to fill out an application form on Thursday with my Drug Councillor and then send it off ad fingers crossed they accept me, as far as im aware it is an in-patient Rehab centre, although mainly geared towards Heroin + other Opiates + Alcoholics.

Im sorry if it comes across as if i dont want help, i do, im just completely addicted.
 
I read through both your other threads, pally, and I really hope that you get into the rehab! Tapering safely off the benzos will be a long process but so worth it in the end. Hopefully you will realize the need to try to tackle your depression and anxiety without opiates as well. If you think about all the experimenting, risk, expenditure and unknowns that are inherent in self-medicating (or even being medicated by a psych), why not put that same effort, and faith, into trying every available non-drug avenue out there to deal with your issues. There are many, many ways to go--most of them complement each other and the only side effect is hyper-introspection which tends to go away with time.;) Good luck and I really hope that the system which seems to have failed you thus far actually comes through for you at this juncture.<3
 
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I read through both your other threads, pally, and I really hope that you get into the rehab! Tapering safely off the benzos will be a long process but so worth it in the end. Hopefully you will realize the need to try to tackle your depression and anxiety without opiates as well. If you think about all the experimenting, risk, expenditure and unknowns that are inherent in self-medicating (or even being medicated by a psych), why not put that same effort, and faith, into trying every available non-drug avenue out there to deal with your issues. There are many, many ways to go--most of them complement each other and the only side effect is hyper-introspection which tends to go away with time.;) Good luck and I really hope that the system which seems to have failed you thus far actually comes through for you at this juncture.<3
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Thank You for your kind words of support and understanding.

Now Hyper-Introspection has been a problem of mine for many years, ive thought/read/learnt to believe this is where a lot of my faults lie, and in turn are part of my mental illness, or they are just who i am and im going to have to accept it for the rest of my days.
 
I only was half joking about hyper-introspection--meaning that those of us with lots of "issues" to resolve can become so focused inward that we need to remember that the purpose of it all is so that we can freely focus outward! Introspection is necessary to being mentally healthy and it is only when it leads to over-analyzing that it becomes unhealthy IMO.

What you said about accepting yourself for the rest of your days is a bit of wisdom. I think that if we learn to accept our individual natures and brains, rather than seeing every one of our differences as a "disorder" that we can then take responsibility for adapting our thought processes, changing them where we can, and tailoring lives that fit. I am, by nature a very anxious person. I am spacey and distracted. I see-saw between the most cynical pessimism and the most indefatigable optimism. At 58 years old, I am still learning ways to adapt and accept who I am. The only time I ever call this mental illness is when it gets so out of balance that I am not functioning well--then i have no problem seeking help for it and calling it what it is.

When you say that the introspection has been a problem, do you mean over-analyzing?
 
herbavore said:
I only was half joking about hyper-introspection--meaning that those of us with lots of "issues" to resolve can become so focused inward that we need to remember that the purpose of it all is so that we can freely focus outward! Introspection is necessary to being mentally healthy and it is only when it leads to over-analyzing that it becomes unhealthy IMO.

What you said about accepting yourself for the rest of your days is a bit of wisdom. I think that if we learn to accept our individual natures and brains, rather than seeing every one of our differences as a "disorder" that we can then take responsibility for adapting our thought processes, changing them where we can, and tailoring lives that fit. I am, by nature a very anxious person. I am spacey and distracted. I see-saw between the most cynical pessimism and the most indefatigable optimism. At 58 years old, I am still learning ways to adapt and accept who I am. The only time I ever call this mental illness is when it gets so out of balance that I am not functioning well--then i have no problem seeking help for it and calling it what it is.

When you say that the introspection has been a problem, do you mean over-analyzing?
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Exactly this.

Whenever i outwardly express my thoughts and feelings whether through words or explanation of my actions no matter if it is a family member, a person i have just met, a lifelong friend they ALL tell me i over analyze everything!

Here-in lies my biggest problem, i just want it to stop, i just want my brain/thoughts/analysyze to shut down and switch off but i never does and i fear it never will.

I analyze everything from the way i think to what i think to the way i think about what or why i think about it to the way other people think about it to the way other people think about me to the way people think about the way i think.

I feel i am over-Analyzing myself and being over-analyzed by others all at the same time all the time.
 
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