Hey man,
Not really sure what your asking. I mean, I read your post and your thread title, but there was a lot of stuff mixed in there that leads me to tend to think there is more behind your question than what your actually just asking in your thread title. That may be because in addition to me being a current and past drug user/abuser/addict (and having a major mental illness- PTSD- albeit I've been 'functional' as in maintaining full time employment for most of my adult life, being in my mid 40's now) I'm also a social worker and have worked as a drug and alcohol counselor (as well as having clients who have drug and alcohol abuse and/or addiction issues on top of major mental illness diagosis). Additional background of mine, which I firmly believe is/was directly connected to my use/abuse- which is that my PTSD is from childhood severe abuse neglect.
So as a drug user/abuser- sure I get the warm feelings from dope that make me talkative and feeling good (if I use an ammt that allows me to be functional and not what is IMO, for me, 'overdoing it' where I'm nodding or close to that point. And I like that, being happy and feeling good and chatty with people at work or strangers (not to a weird degree, like overdoing it or behaving inappropriate) or in particular with my wife where I'm communicative and my convo is flowing and I'm feeling good about it- although since 'at baseline' (i.e. my typical self off drugs I'm self adsorbed and under talkative and tend to be isolative).
As a person in recovery, which I consider, for myself at least, to be multi-facited and not necessarilly the standard definition of 'recovery' from a drug and alcohol abuse/addition perspective. What I mean by that is by having addressed underlying isssues related to my mental, emotional, psychological state which IMO is extremely connected directly to my upbringing. Now, IMO, this can not really happen if a person is abusing drugs and/or alcohol on a daily or almost daily basis as they don't have the clarity to effectively address such issues. But also, IMO and in my personal expeirience, it does not necessarilly have to happen only in the context of complete absitnance for an extended period of time. As a person in recovery I see your question in the context of your whole post where you reference some heavy use and some fairly hardcore inpatient treatment.
As a social worker- where my perspective is similar to the 'as a person in recovery' from MY definition as described above- I see your question as more complex as well.
So, overall, maybe you were just interested in knowing if people like the feeling of being chill on dope, my response on the surface is: sure, who the hell wouldn't? But I also question why you added in all the other stuff? If you simply wanted to know if people like feeling warm and chill and were high when you posted and feeling warm and chill why didn't the content of your post be filled with content that was all centered around 'warm and chill'? Why did it include info about past prob's with overuse and intensive tx? I wonder if there are questions you have, that you may or may not be fully in touch with consciously, that happened to come out, but not in the form of questions, but in the form of providing info about past abuse and intensive tx? From the in recovery/soc wrker I wonder if you have concerns about moving from occasional use and nice warm and fuzzy back into problematic use (by your own definition, whatevery that may be).
Any truth to my suspicions? That is simply a question I am posing to you, for you to take and consider, or not take. I certainly don't let other people tell me what to do or what to think, and will be the first to admit that I am often wrong, and very well may be in this case as I pose this as a potential perspective for you to consider pondering at some point.
If it makes a difference, at this moment I'm in a state of 'not quite nodding but past the point of warm and fuzzy', I'm 'over using dope' at this moment so maybe everything I wrote is a projection of my own issues onto you. Or maybe we are bouncing aorund in similar places so to speak. Mostly I'm in a great space on a low dose of subutex, below the 'warm and fuzzy' place but for me THAT place is better than the warm and fuzzy place for me and for my life. So for me, the warm and fuzzy place leads me to the overuse (by my definition, for myself) place. And I've been to the far past overuse place, although with the drug heroin it hasn't been for nearly as long as your stint of overuse. I've also been in long term tx, although not intensive, it was in a 3/4 way house where I maintained abstinance. Prior to that I was a heavy alcohol abuser with a history of chronic mj use and just dabbling with other drugs including coke and hallucinogens, but not opiates. After that period I was a massive coke head for a cpl of years, bla bal....
So my post here is filled with a bunch of content that would not be there if I wasn't under the influence. Hope that some of it might be of some help to you.
Peace,
Titus
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