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On the note of ER trips in the US. In some states there is actually a thing called Charity Care, which a lot of people do not know about. What Charity Care does is it pays for your medical expenses at the hospital if you don't have a job or your job doesn't pay you enough. My friend had a hernia and needed surgery and he received the surgery for free through Charity Care. My boyfriend also needed to go to the hospital once in an ambulance and it was fully paid for through charity care. It's in the more populated/money making states. The rich support the poor so to speak with medical expenses.

badfish--so sorry to hear about that girl. That is very heartbreaking. Try not to get your emotions tied into it. It's a bunch of heartache you don't need on your mind. It just leave you feeling sad and helpless. Putting heart into the sadness of others addictions is a losing and heartbreaking battle.
 
I don't know about anyone else but when I hear the new channels jingle I want to kill myself for a second. It seriously invokes some kind of response of loathing from my childhood bringing up flashbacks of me extremely bored on a Sunday evening while my parents sit lazily in the living room watching the news. The epitome of beatness.

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Man my mom has SO much to be sad about. Oh and I forgot about how little respect I treat her with. Take this for example. I get back from a run and decide to play some Nintendo, so I turn in on anad my mom walks in the room and starts grading papers and tells me she doesn't want to hear the sound. Well since there are no subtitles, I just turned the volume down to 2/60. Well she starts complaining again, and then blows up on me, telling me how it's her house and it's her rules, even though I could barely hear the fucking TV myself... And now we have to have a "family meeting".

Seriously what the fuck is her deal. Her life is run by a parenting book and anti drug ads. Basically anything that promotes fear in parents so they spend money to calm their fears. Yes, that is how this country is run, and my mom has been completely manipulated by the system.

I feel bad for her. She's probably one of the most naive people that I know. She is constantly making more and more problems for herself, but for that, I don't really feel bad for. I like to take walks in the morning and at night, but she thinks I go to get high each time. So I've decided to start taking more walks. I think one day she'll look back and realize how naive she was a parent.
 
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badfish45 said:
Man my mom has SO much to be sad about. Oh and I forgot about how little respect I treat her with. Take this for example. I get back from a run and decide to play some Nintendo, so I turn in on anad my mom walks in the room and starts grading papers and tells me she doesn't want to hear the sound. Well since there are no subtitles, I just turned the volume down to 2/60. Well she starts complaining again, and then blows up on me, telling me how it's her house and it's her rules, even though I could barely hear the fucking TV myself... And now we have to have a "family meeting".

Seriously what the fuck is her deal. Her life is run by a parenting book and anti drug ads. Basically anything that promotes fear in parents so they spend money to calm their fears. Yes, that is how this country is run, and my mom has been completely manipulated by the system.

I feel bad for her. She's probably one of the most naive people that I know. She is constantly making more and more problems for herself, but for that, I don't really feel bad for. I like to take walks in the morning and at night, but she thinks I go to get high each time. So I've decided to start taking more walks. I think one day she'll look back and realize how naive she was a parent.
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Being a parent is hard.

Now, beyond that point and back to your mother, imagine yourself a free fun having young individual. Now imagine you decide to share your life, no in fact, dedicate your life to a little being you created. This little being becomes your everything and you basically sacrifice your entire life into molding it into the perfect little creature. Up into around your age this little being listened to you and stayed on the path you whole heartedly believed would do it well. Now this child begins to think for itself and do things you may not agree with. Scary thing like drugs. You just gave up your entire life and dedicated everything you had to see this thing this far and it is now falling off the rails you set down for it. It is scary. She knows how to succeed in life. She only wants the best for you.

You will look back one day and understand all that she has done and is doing for you and how much it hurts her and how hard it is every day to worry if you will turn out okay. Be easy on her, she only loves you with all her heart.

Also, I'm not saying this to you because I believe you are a fuck up. What I am doing is looking at it from your mothers perspective and trying to help you understand what she could be thinking.
 
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Great day here tripnotyzm, thanks for asking! I am a few hours away from leaving on a 480 mile road trip to Atlanta, GA. What's at the end of this road trip?

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This little creature!!! He will be my 3rd dog. So excited. He was pulled from a high-kill shelter by a woman who was fostering him. We are picking him up directly from the vet, he is having his nados chopped off tomorrow morning sooo he will be a cone head for the ride home and for his first pictures I'll be posting on here. =D=D=D
 
Oh wow that's such a wonderful thing you're doing!
You and yer dogs.. So damn cute!!
I definitely want to see some cone head pics ^.^
Awh.
Have a safe journey <3
 
badfish45 said:
Man my mom has SO much to be sad about. Oh and I forgot about how little respect I treat her with. Take this for example. I get back from a run and decide to play some Nintendo, so I turn in on anad my mom walks in the room and starts grading papers and tells me she doesn't want to hear the sound. Well since there are no subtitles, I just turned the volume down to 2/60. Well she starts complaining again, and then blows up on me, telling me how it's her house and it's her rules, even though I could barely hear the fucking TV myself... And now we have to have a "family meeting".

Seriously what the fuck is her deal. Her life is run by a parenting book and anti drug ads. Basically anything that promotes fear in parents so they spend money to calm their fears. Yes, that is how this country is run, and my mom has been completely manipulated by the system.

I feel bad for her. She's probably one of the most naive people that I know. She is constantly making more and more problems for herself, but for that, I don't really feel bad for. I like to take walks in the morning and at night, but she thinks I go to get high each time. So I've decided to start taking more walks. I think one day she'll look back and realize how naive she was a parent.
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i lived with an over protective mom too. eventually she came around, and was fine with a dont ask dont tell policy. but that was after i had been arrested and subsequently cleared of all charges.

i used to think that as long as i wasn't high, drugs didnt effect my life.

perhaps, while your mother is naive and uneducated in the reality of drugs, maybe you can compromise with her and be more resonsible about it all.

also headphones are great for playing vids.
 
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Guys hold onto your seatbelts because I just came up with the best idea for a phone app store game ever!

My idea... the deer version of frogger. The object of the game is to time it correctly in order for cars to hit you.

It will be a classic.

I felt so safe when I realized that there was a fence all the way down the interstate I was driving on. I was like "oh thank goodness Georgia. I always doubted you..but now, now I approve." Then I glance over and realize there are two huge black forests surrounding my car and there is no longer a fence separating us. The fear I felt. Good thing I came up with this idea to post to take my mind off my looming death.
 
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I felt so safe when I realized that there was a fence all the way down the interstate I was driving on. I was like "oh thank goodness Georgia. I always doubted you..but now, now I approve." Then I glance over and realize there are two huge black forests surrounding my car and there is no longer a fence separating us. The fear I felt. Good thing I came up with this idea to post to take my mind off my looming death.
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Over here in the UK, a lot of the roads are unfenced, and I used to drive several of the most dangerous roads in the country on a daily basis. (A537 Macclesfield to Buxton, A54 Congleton to Buxton, A621 Baslow to Totley and A625 Calver to Sheffield for anyone who lives in North Mids) I found the reverse though, being a mere wrist flick away from death gives me a feeling of control over my destiny that I don't really feel anywhere else. The loss of that from having to give up my car has probably impacted my mental health more then I'd care to admit.

That's probably deeply unhealthy, but oh well...

Oh and I approve of the game, though you'd need to implement a chain bonus scheme if you can time it correctly to be bounced between 2 sets of traffic flowing in different directions.
 
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what do you do when the people close to you get *pissed* at you because you are depressed?
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One of 2 choices imo. Continue to be honest and deal with the consequences, explaining why you are the way you are and hoping they have the empathy and understanding to accept and support you rather than putting you under additional pressure. Alternatively you can shut down the depressed part of your personality working on a 'don't ask, don't tell' basis when you are with this person, something I think of as a 'social chameleon' ability.

The latter has the potential to be incredibly exhausting though, and over years of depression I've found it simpler to deal with people who respond badly to the darker side of my personality as little as possible, working in small managed periods of time, and devoting much more time either to introspection or the small group of friends who accept all the aspects of me and my depression.

I can't honestly say how healthy either of these approaches are though, they're just the coping mechanisms I've personally devised, but I can't speak for how harmful they are in the long term. It's probably better to deal with the base depression and then the problem solves itself, but I've not figured out how to do that yet.

EDIT: There's also a small vindictive part of my personality that says I'll be dammed if I'll make time for these people even if I do get better, fail to stand by me when times are hard, and I fail to see why I should make an effort when things improve.
 
Hi, thenightwatch, so glad to see you back here!:) I think that when people get pissed about a friend or loved one's depression it is really two things: first, there is a lack of comprehension that says it is all an attitude adjustment (i.e. you could be happy if you just tried) and 2) they are uncomfortable with their own inability to fix things. Either way, it is their problem and maybe giving them information/education about depression could help. Is it someone that you live with?
 
Sheffsam said:
Oh and I approve of the game, though you'd need to implement a chain bonus scheme if you can time it correctly to be bounced between 2 sets of traffic flowing in different directions.
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I think we're onto something serious here.

Buut besides that, the part about how you feel healthier mentally when you are driving on a daily basis, I can totally relate and agree. I have been in a few accidents, I admit I am a horrible driver, so I hate driving. My boyfriend usually needs to drive and still I am pressing imaginary brake pedals and imaginary handles at the mere sight of a red brake light or a car creeping from an intersection. I would say about 3 times per day I believe I am facing certain death in the car. I have noticed that when I go long periods of time without driving (which I tend to like to do) I will lose confidence in other parts of my life. Driving really does have a certain aspect that makes you healthier and confident.

It's so funny too because I have always thought that in the back of my head. Like the first day I start driving to work after having my boyfriend drive me for a month. I get this invigorating rush like I suddenly remember I am a much stronger person than I previously thought. Good observation.
 
Today I am going to clean around the house. We have a bajillion doggy fuzzes sitting in the corners of the rooms. Then later we are meeting a Bluelight friend, nekointheclouds, who lives close to us here in FL for the first time. Yay for BL party!
 
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