Little follow up on my post above; Old dealer is pissed because I call them on their shit and brought up some stuff about how I uh...well did a lot of shit for their family when they didn't have their own car. But suddenly, I'm not begin invited to come over after they get their own car? They were basically using me as a ride for MONTHS and would always ask me to take them shopping/to town when they knew I was dope sick and would do it for a couple of goodies. Not only that, knowing how sick I was they'd spend up to 3 hours grocery shopping, and don't even getting me started on the other places I would take them.
But the longer time went on, the less and less gas money or "goodies" for these trips. Oh by the way, I was helping this person make...well lets just say it paid the rent, bills, bought that car, put groceries in the house,...the works. I treated these people like family and I thought the feelings were mutual.
The used me, straight up, I should have cut these people off sooner like I said. It was so damn obvious but I was blinded by the addiction and chasing those freebies. Addiction is such an awful thing, more so when you're dope sick!
This person has basically always been a PITA to deal with, but as time went on it just go worse and worse. It wasn't me neither, I wasn't coming over there begging for fronts. I was always respectful, I never used in in front of them, and I always had cash in hand when I came by.
I even managed to "visit" for at least 30 minutes every time I went over there because this person was paranoid about traffic (which I again, understand). But her mooch family lived with her, and would bum smokes off you left and right. I eventually got to the point where I made sure I was leaving my packs in my car before going in. I can barely afford smoking myself and should just quit I suppose.
TL;DR: My other connect came through, I'm currently on a mix of opiates and a bit of xanax and going to slam a few shots of moonshine. Decided to do a little oxy because I haven't had any in weeks and I knew I wouldn't be buying anymore anytime soon. Got a roxi 30, split in half, ate that with a perc 10 and two bar xanax. Getting ready to fire up some mean green I got from my cousin tonight. Going to just say fuck sleeping and start working in about 3 hours.
