Of the psychotropic substances, psychedelics are the Sphinx.
Forever mystical and magical, colourful and whimsical
But on many occasion, terrible.
Far moreso excitingly frightening and potentially worse, tho', than any of this hastily tapped out tiny witless verse, hoho.
I, too, long to remember those happy days in warm Septembers with new friends and week-long benders; all in a daze and a blur of colour with kisses and the scent of autumn meeting summer (and perhaps me getting dumber, with every next pill: a blanket wrapped o'er, a fire I couldn't put out, so best for lack of motivation cover it, push it aside an' try to ignore it). But behind that and behind the blinds of my bathroom, I sit with legs crossed on the floor with a syringe, fingers trembling, needle pointed and commanding: "stab here and I'll be so, so very rewarding", and there it is, a pinch with a pull and cloud of crimson blood; nothing really can express that sensation, I'm not sure if I could, verbally, describe just how it flows into the barrel and my heart skips a beat with anticipation rising anxiously to the climax as the plunger then slides down, down, down and, for a moment, nothing.
Then everything. And joy. Euphoria's eruption spreading hot molten delight through my vascular system, and truly nothing else matters to me, especially not rhymes or reason or anything: I'm floating upon a cloud of poppies and it's very wonderfully important to me, right at that moment, that nobody knock me off it.
But after a time and life lessons and that dry, dull nonsense I learned I had to step off it, and well, I've never felt the same...
I remember a lot about those summers and the first time I fell in love with a person and the first time I fell in love with a drug. Some things are just too important to forget, and colourful fun filled frolicking fetched forth fr'm fabulous-'cid faithfully; factually, well, ought to be one of those feelings you ne'er forget.
"Miaow" said the man, staring at his cat.