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^^ How so?? Is everything okay?


Hey nightwatch, thanks for sharing some of your poetry with us! <3
 
n3ophy7e said:
^^ How so?? Is everything okay?


Hey nightwatch, thanks for sharing some of your poetry with us! <3
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old article that alleges someone with my name was doing illegal things. everything is fine, until someone who I want to employ me finds it on the internet
 
n3ophy7e said:
Was it actually you though??
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yeah.

the media is quick to vilify people, but they don't seem to be as interested in publicizing peoples exoneration.

people were googlin' names at work, and I almost had a panic attack that I would be next.
 
Hopefully nothing becomes of it kaywholed.
Glad today is a good day for you!

Today is a great day over here as well :)
 
thenightwatch said:
not creepy at all. in fact, i would appreciate it if you elaborated on what you were thinking. :)
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Well I've noticed that a huge barrier in overcoming my social anxiety is the fact that I used to have a lot of trouble approaching girls, and if I'm not in the right mindset or I haven't talked to them I still do. I've gotten much better over the years, yet I still hate how all of the weight of love is put on my shoulders at the beginning. It's always me that has to lean in for the first kiss, it's always me trying to advance it, and girls sort of just sit back and wait for us guys to make the first move. Like I have to drop all the hints and understand all of THEIRS. So I basically said fuck it, and then right now there's this girl I'm going after (who I actually sort of really do like. I guess we'll see because it hasn't even been that long). And then I think about how much of myself I have to put out there when I'm unsure of her feelings. But its sort of worth what's to follow. I'm going to have to risk a lot of myself doing this but

Also the fact of the feelings versus the actions. They don't intertwine well for me because my feelings are raging, as well as my hormones ;) When I say I love somebody, be it a friend or what, I do mean it. And it's hard to know what's appropriate to do because my feelings are so strong, which is honestly rare for people my age to actually say what they mean (or any age for that matter). I honestly did not realize how complicated love was until I started instilling the acts of love. But it really is worth it no matter what happens :)
 
You're such a smart dude. Especially at your age. Being at that mental level to be able to see that intimate interaction (decipering other peoples actions and intentions) for what it is and what you have to do. It's hard but you are seriously on top of the game.

badfish45 said:
When I say I love somebody, be it a friend or what, I do mean it. And it's hard to know what's appropriate to do because my feelings are so strong, which is honestly rare for people my age to actually say what they mean (or any age for that matter).
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You are one of the few with good intentions. A lot of people at your age don't even know what they want or how to show love. It seems like you obviously have a large capacity for love and compassion. I don't think YOU in particular should be afraid or feel the need to harness down or limit your feelings. I think because they are automatically aimed in a positive good hearted direction, that they will lead you just fine.

You are awesome <3 I appreciate the fact that I know you and can interact with you online. Much love to you broski <3<3<3
 
Just sending out some badfish love too, man you never cease to amaze me with your maturity, insight and intelligence. You're so awesome <3
 
Another typical Friday at home. I hate that bluelight is slow on Fridays. Boo :( I went to walmart today and my boyfriend and I were out looking at trees and shrubs in the outdoor section and we found a momma cat and her 2 babies hiding under a shelf. My boyfriend was never a cat lover but I think the one little guy struck his heart and he told me we could take it home if we could catch it. By golly you guys should have seen me ripping those shrubs off the shelves and climbing around in the mud. I couldn't catch any of them they escaped through a crack into a back room section that I couldn't get to. RATS! I'm still a bit upset about it. I was never really given the chance a a kid to have pets so since moving out and onto my own I've gotten my first love/want which was a dog and I've really been wanting to complete the picture a little more with a cat. I am a huge animal lover. I'm glad I realized the window of opportunity to maybe get a cat in the future is a good possibility since he mentioned it.

But back to it being Friday and me being bored.

Yeah.

I love you guys btw.
 
shadowman-x said:
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Good for you but we don't have much interest in such details here in TDS.

Besides, don't the first times with any drug make us feel good, hence giving us a false (and very temporary) alleviation of symptoms of depression?
 
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^That is fucked tricomb...Im thinkin ur in the states.... The healthcare system is fucking discusting.
Makes me feel lucky to be over here. May have to wait there for a couple of hours, but you will get seen...
Going out tonight to some friends of the gf... Not great with social shit and strange people so im hopein shit is mallow and i dont make a fool of myself. Hope everyone else is having an ok weekend:\
 
Yeah... can't afford an ER trip? It's fucked that an ER trip should cost anything.
 
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