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Aw Smfg I'm sorry bro. Just hang in there and let's try to make it a goal for both of us to have a 10/10 day. We both deserve it afterall. Man I hate CP Bio, the work they give us is all busy work that nobody has the will to do but it's all a bunch of stupid art projects and copying stuff down, but they treat it like an actual class :! Ahh... Gotta copy down the HW this morning I suppose. Met a cute girl on the bus, probably see her in a bit :) I suppose we'll see where this goes.

Sending <3 out to all my wonderful TDSers hoping you all have a great day.
 
Why you dissin' the art projects?!=D

Hi everybody. S.M.F.G.--can you see stars where you live or are there too many lights? If you can see stars, go look at them. I guarantee that will at least raise it to a 5/10 day before you go to bed.<3
 
Good morning/evening TDS... Iz shining good vibez @tchas right now, the kids gone to school im feelin level but as soon as i start to think, farrrrrrrkkkkkkkkkk, so the full mental block has gone up, tryin to be as positive as possible. Ur right bad we are both in need of a 10/10 day and i hope that the school shit isnt suckin as bad (yea right we talkin about highschool here)... I feel like doing something outlandish like going to the riverheads to swim (is a ways away and not the sorta place id normaly walk to) but im ever held back by that fucking door and the pill i gotta take to get out it and the sea of people i have to navigate on the way...
herby there are stars about here im in town but they can be seen, i do miss stargazing and its a wonderfull idea ty<3. Would be real nice to have the wheels to boot it even 10 mins west or north, Theres little to nothing but bush out there you would see every star that you were possibly able too.
Im also in somewhat of a wierd spot with this chick, although tried to establish exactly what she wanted its still messy and cloudy as to where things are gonna go, which kinda leaves me up in the air... I got so much luv for this one, its painfull she wants to see me today and i dont want it to be arkward or me upseting her with my shit im trying to deal with. It's gonna be an interesting day either way it goes.
Im so sick of being anxious, depressed or an emotional mess all the time im hard ass intent on changing that.... Hypnosis surpressed bad shit from my childhood... Why the hell cant I be in more controll of my shit? (retorical question) Its like ive gotten fed up with my brain and am being very stern with it, either that or ive 2 personalitys:\
Shit i was heading for another thread and got caught up socialing.... betta fly much <3 2 yall
 
It's one of those days. Clothes don't fit right. Too tight but also too loose and revealing. Bra is a medieval torture device. Tomorrow is my first day at my new job. 9-5 the good ole 8 hours. First impressions are the most important. Keep it cool. Keep it cool. The cool face will be in full bloom tomorrow.
 
stardust, how did the first day go? I hope it was good.<3 The first day of anything always is hard for me and I am always happy to have it under my belt.
 
My first day went really well. I am so surprised at how welcoming and friendly people were. It is such a shock going to a new job where everyone except yourself has an accent. Thanks so much for asking Herb <3. I hope everyone is doing great today! <3<3
 
I feel so anxious today. its funny how it wasnt to long ago (less than a year and a half) i actually got rid of it for the most part. now without drugs, its an omnipresent part of my life. yeah im at fault for running out of my scripts a little early, and potentially getting close to losing them. however it doesn't help blaming myself or not. no matter what things just cant help but remain the same. so im a little less depressed since i dealt with being heart broken. now im back to sucking at everything i do... i can't help but be a mess. ugh. i can't fuck up now or ill miss my goal of moving back to nc, around good friends, hopefully with a decent job. that is the only way i can see myself turning my life around. i just need to change enough to get there and to put enough into place for when im there.
 
Thanks N3o <3. Yes I keep catching myself trying to put prejustices against them for being different from myself (talking different, finding humor in different ways). I know it will be something that will hinder me from making new friends here. Just like it did when I move in with my boyfriend. I need to really work on accepting differences in people. It's an awful flaw I am plagued with. I hate that most about myself. I always assumed I was a very accepting easy going person but i've found a lot of the time it is not the case.

On another note though! I just got back from the grocery store with a pint of butter pecan ice-cream. There are no greater pleasures in the sober world.
 
On another note though! I just got back from the grocery store with a pint of butter pecan ice-cream. There are no greater pleasures in the sober world.
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awww, that was my Dad's favorite flavor! Every time I hear that I think of him and the pleasure he took in ice cream. I think in his case it was an actual addiction so does that count as the sober world? Not so sure.....=D
 
herbavore said:
I think in his case it was an actual addiction so does that count as the sober world? Not so sure.....=D
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hehe I'm not sure about his case then :P it was probably a full fledge addiction if I know butter pecan--and I do.

Also about your dad, that's such a sweet memory. I notice a lot of people around me are more receptive and in touch with their environment than I am. My boyfriend notices so many details that me in my daily life never seem to be able to take the time to notice. Small notations about life and it's beauty. I envy him and you and anyone else who is able to find interest beyond the main picture. It is such a gift.

I have a picture my father took of a comet when I was little with a little telescope and a slr camera. I was around 7 years old, I remember the night and the location we took the picture at. We spent a lot of nights developing pictures together in the basement. This one included. In the back of the picture he wrote me a note a long time ago that goes something like "remember the night we took this picture. Make sure to catch the comet when it comes around again (in like 2066). I won't be there but it will be beautiful. I love you". It is my absolute most cherished possession. I guess because it reminds me of him and that night. It really is one of the very few memories I remember notating of my early childhood. I really only have material objects that have memories attached to them. I don't remember small sweet little things like my fathers favorite ice cream or anything like that. Those things are so sweet and I wish I payed more attention to them.

I always wonder if it is a learned/taught ability and I just didn't get it yet. Maybe I can learn it eventually. Anyways it just hits me awestruck sometimes when I see someone has something I don't :P.
 
stardust.hero said:
I have a picture my father took of a comet when I was little with a little telescope and a slr camera. I was around 7 years old, I remember the night and the location we took the picture at. We spent a lot of nights developing pictures together in the basement. This one included. In the back of the picture he wrote me a note a long time ago that goes something like "remember the night we took this picture. Make sure to catch the comet when it comes around again (in like 2066). I won't be there but it will be beautiful. I love you". It is my absolute most cherished possession. I guess because it reminds me of him and that night. It really is one of the very few memories I remember notating of my early childhood.
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That is absolutely beautiful stardust <3

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Thanks N3o <3. Yes I keep catching myself trying to put prejustices against them for being different from myself (talking different, finding humor in different ways). I know it will be something that will hinder me from making new friends here. Just like it did when I move in with my boyfriend. I need to really work on accepting differences in people. It's an awful flaw I am plagued with. I hate that most about myself. I always assumed I was a very accepting easy going person but i've found a lot of the time it is not the case.
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I must've missed this somewhere, and for that I apologise hun, but where have you moved to??

Also, did you leave any ice cream for me? I could sure use some right about now! *sugar cravings* =D
 
Thank you :) and we moved to Florida. That little dohickey that hangs off the southern east coast of the US.

AND ughh I ate the entire rest of the pint of the pecans when I got home. I have gained 6lbs in the last month from eating hot pockets and ice-cream!!
 
Rahhh.
I am starting to form serious emotions full of what I can only describe as 'hate';
Hate towards some people who go out of their way to constantly put my partner and I down in the dumps.
And the worst thing is the world thinks they are innocent loving angels..
I'm just starting to look like a fuck wit to others for releasing my frustration.
I don't know what to do. Have been trying to sort this out for so long now.
 
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Rahhh.
I am starting to form serious emotions full of what I can only describe as 'hate';
Hate towards some people who go out of their way to constantly put my partner and I down in the dumps.
And the worst thing is the world thinks they are innocent loving angels..
I'm just starting to look like a fuck wit to others for releasing my frustration.
I don't know what to do. Have been trying to sort this out for so long now.
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Let go of hate and anger my friend, it only brings misery to you and others.

I'm slowly starting losing it myself... almost week with barely any sleep and what little I get feels almost worthless. I don't want to take drugs, pills, medicine, anything that fucks with my brain chemistry right now so I have to deal with terrible insomnia. It's literally starting to driving me crazy. This song represents the atmosphere I'm dwelling in right now pretty good Trentemoller - Neverglade (Trentemoller remix). It's soon 4am here but to be honest, I've totally lost the track of time and date by this point already. It's just one big ocean of grey I'm floating in.
 
Hey folks :)
Dropin thru to catch up on whats goin on n let every1 know im still here, Been focused on geting a training regiment happening and my diet in check. Having half a win too!! Thus ive been thru here a few times but just not had the words to post.... Now i found them i thought i best put them down here so yall know iz got uz on my mind eventhough i may not be talkin heaps;)
Much <3 to everyone
 
Hay there budday :). It's good to see you pop up. It's been a while. Glad to hear you're getting yourself a schedule of sorts in order. I have been working on it too but it is such a slow process D-: and things keep changing and I have to start over. Ugh. Some days I feel like I need a little bit of a mood stabilizer to keep me on track and not on the i'm happy no i'm sad no i'm happy no i'm sad roller coaster. I'm trying to hold off on it for a bit more yet though :-\.

Same here with me with the lack of words. New job = extra tired on my off time. You started a new job right? How is that going for you?
 
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