How often do you start threads and then delete before posting in TDS ?

[Beat Narrative]

I do this almost every few days, write some self indulgent post about my anxiety induced woes, the fact that i am writing it with the idea of putting it in a public forum makes the writing process more thoughtful and for me more therapeutic

once i get to the end i just delete it 75% of the time, but the change in thought of writing process with knowledge of the intended audienc creates a whole different analytical to your writing as opposed to something just for your own reference

so thanks for TDS side for letting me express myself in a way that is still personal but creates an analytical frame of mind

maybe no one else does this though

 

[painenduser]

I have done that a few times, but more because before I post I usually stop for a minute or two and spell check it, and while doing that I am proofreading it and realize just how insanely stupid my post was about to be and how much of a fool I will look like so I decide to ditch it and not post it. I do this on replies to others posts as well, in fact hands down this is where I ditch most things, it's in my replies and not usually fresh new posts. Alot of times I have noticed where I have done this it was because I would start to write a reply and then realize that it has NOTHING to do with what the OP was talking about as I did not comprehend the OP's topic while initially thinking I have. Hear Hear to TDS!!

 

[herbavore]

^^I am so glad that both of you post here. TDS is an amazing entity. People bare their souls and in so doing call up each of our own dark places in response. I know exactly what you mean BeatNarrative about starting to write something out and then actually almost working through it in the process and ending up deleting whatever it was. I hope you do both know how much you contribute.

 

[painenduser]

I like posting here. TDS is the only place I really feel truly at home with the people. I mean don't get me wrong, I have and will post in other areas on Blue, however, when I am in need of a little lovin' or something just isn't sitting right with me and I need to get it out of my head and talk about it, I will come here and post. N oone here judges you, no one here makes you feel dumb or out of place. TDS is a great forum, in fact, it not only deserves it's own forum, but it deserves it's own complete dedicated forum with categories and sub-categories! I find TDS to be it's own entity, although it does fit in nicely here at Blue, but there is just so much more that could be added here. I wish there was a TDS chat room <---Back atcha Herbavore And thank you because I honestly didn't know if anyone really did care if I posted here or not, it's a wonderful feeling to know that what you do sometimes no matter how little or insignificant you make think something is, could actually mean the world to someone else. I never quite thought of that before you said what you did. Thank you very much, that meant alot to me. And btw, remember what I was saying about not fully comprehending what the OP was saying? Yeah I kind of missed the whole analytical part of Beats OP lol but it's so true, about the therapeutic value. It's rather intrinsic.

 

[batmanplaybaseball]

TDS is a great forum, in fact, it not only deserves it's own forum, but it deserves it's own complete dedicated forum with categories and sub-categories!

This is off-topic but I always thought there should be a dedicated withdrawal section of bluelight. Something like a sick bay where people in withdrawal could go to post and be among their own, and people who have experience with that kind of thing could go and try to help out.

 

[herbavore]

Thanks, Pain! I, too, think that TDS could have more added. I don't know about a chat room--don't even know how those work, really, but imagine they would have to be somewhat separate from BL as they would be unmoderated, no? What else would you add?

And batmanplays, I agree that would be a good thing. I will bring it up with the more experienced mods. I like the analogy of a "sick-bay". I was just reading a criticism of the mega-threads by someone that felt that no one reads them as much as individual threads, though, so I wonder about that. What do you think?

 

[batmanplaybaseball]

Are you talking about the mega-threads in general or just the ones pertaining to withdrawal. Either way I would say that they do serve their purpose, as a catch-all database for someone to read over. But it can definitely hurt the value of the boards for people to have their experiences drowned out, especially experiences as personal as drug withdrawal. I know that when I have gone through WD it made a world of difference to have someone intimately addressing me and what I was dealing with.

Edit: And also, one argument for making a withdrawal based area of bluelight is that I'm always finding withdrawal threads scattered throughout almost all of the forums. They come up in OD, BDD, TDS, TL(I feel bad for whoever makes that mistake), and really just about anywhere. To my mind it's such a specific topic, and such an important one, that it would benefit everyone to have it consolidated.

 

[painenduser]

Thanks, Pain! I, too, think that TDS could have more added. I don't know about a chat room--don't even know how those work, really, but imagine they would have to be somewhat separate from BL as they would be unmoderated, no? What else would you add?

Hya Herbie!! Can I call you that? I know there was some talk a while ago that the Sr mods had wrt a chat room for Blue as a whole, I do not recall however, what became of it. They can certainly be moderated, infact, when you secure a chat room on a chat server you assign Mods to the chat room and they have full control over the channel, ie kick, block, ban, even password protect the room if you like, the possibilities are endless. I used to be a mods YEARS ago of a very prominent support channel for an IRC based chat room. It's not that hard to do, but you have to have people knowledgeable in IRC chat (like me ). As for additions to TDS, I can envision TDS having sub-forums which would allow you to break TDS down into sub-categories suck as the sick bay batman was mentioning. It would give us more areas to group our mind sets too. For example, perhaps someone withdrawing would like to only discuss this with like minded people at the time, or people who are more in tune to that subject. One owuld think that that area would draw in just those people at that time, I don't know, perhaps it's a lot of over head, however, the chat room would be nice because it would allow people to network among the group easier and perhaps someone not feeling so hot would like to get more of a personal / immediate response, the chat would allow for real-time discussion and chat. There are people I have met here that I am not freinds with who I chat with on Facebook, 1. because I am not afraid of people knowing who I am so I dont need the anonymity and 2. We can chat in real time. I dunno, sometimes I would prefer the real time responses but thats just me

 

[snafu]

I've posted a thread in here saying I was about to commit suicide. But after thinking about it, looking thru other TDS threads, and even calling a hotline, I deleted it. In a depressed state of mind some people will often post things that they will later wish they wouldn't have. It's understandable, but if you leave it open you never know what kind of advice you'll get. TDS is a great place for advice.

 

[Vaya]

I have a feeling that withdrawal item might be brought up more amongst staff, it's certainly an interesting idea.

As to the original post, Beat Narrative, you're at home - I do this a lot. Like, at least once a day. Sometimes the act of writing is in and of itself as much therapeutic value as actually "submitting" some of your writing can be (even as a post on a message board, doesn't have to be some fancy thing). Sort of along the same lines as writing an angry letter to someone who makes you angry, waiting a while and ending up not sending it. Maybe you should save some of what you intend on deleting, first, though so you can read some thoughts over later before deleting them for good? There've been a ton of occasions where, in the moment, I was dissatisfied with something I'd written and then later wished I hadn't been so quick to ditch it. Maybe you're the same

...I am proofreading it and realize just how insanely stupid my post was about to be and how much of a fool I will look like so I decide to ditch it and not post it.

You're a good contributor and I hope that this place doesn't seem like it's crawling with critics (just a hint... it's not ). I definitely catch myself in these funky headspaces though, too, I will admit where I feel as though I'll get some sort of a reputation for something I post. But unless it's something really really outlandish I doubt that any of my instincts have been correct about that!

 

[painenduser]

You're a good contributor and I hope that this place doesn't seem like it's crawling with critics (just a hint... it's not ). I definitely catch myself in these funky headspaces though, too, I will admit where I feel as though I'll get some sort of a reputation for something I post. But unless it's something really really outlandish I doubt that any of my instincts have been correct about that!

Thanks Vaya, no I certainly don't think TDS is filled with critics lol I just can sometimes comprehend something completely the wrong way and I sometimes will start to respond to something that was all made up in my mind, where upon later inspection of the contents would reveal I was out in lala land swinging from the tree tops all by myself lmao

 

[Vaya]

Glad to hear you like the place, then!!

...I was out in lala land swinging from the tree tops all by myself lmao

I like those times, sometimes, LOL Just don't forget to laugh along the way! (happens to me all the time)

~ vaya

 

[painenduser]

Glad to hear you like the place, then!!
~ vaya

I always enjoy encapsulating my time here with like minded people. Only we know how we feel, and only we know how we act. I have made some good friends here at blue and specifically here at TDS. There are good people up in thar hills! (I'm watching Pirates of the Caribbean can't ye tell? argh!!!!!!!)

 

[Vaya]

...and only we know how we act.

This is totally meant in good humor, and not to de-rail the thread, but the very opposite of this statement is why I'm sober and see a therapist at the moment LOL

 

[Dave]

Well, ideally TDS should be a 'sick bay' for withdrawal, among other things. The idea behind the megathreads is to act a bit as smaller focal points within the forum at large. Individual stories can be swamped in them, for sure, but they can be a good place for general support. We can bring it up the idea of a sickbay sub-forum for people in crises of all sorts with the senior staff, see what they think of it.

In the meanwhile, there is also Blogs, which has often acted as a a bit of a colony of TDS. It can be a great place to put your story down, chronicle your recovery, and read the stories of those who have done the same.

 

[painenduser]

This is totally meant in good humor......

Most definitely....life's to short... we have to learn to love and laugh and if your like me you spend most of your time laughing at yourself lol