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Morrigan

Morrigan

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I scoop information from BL all the time; thought it was time to properly register and introduce myself. I'm from NY, have kicked opiates numerous times, currently have an ongoing love relationships with a lovely ethnobotanical, and consider myself a huge know-it-all smarty pants about pretty much everything. Except crap about which I know nothing. %)
 
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Welcome to Bluelight :) Congrats on kicking opiates! Best of luck to you as well CH with tapering off. Feel free to PM me if you have any questions.
 
Captain.Heroin said:
Welcome to Bluelight!!!

I am so proud that you have kicked opiates.

I myself, am still trying to get off of buprenorphine but I have made wonderful improvements in a very short time. :)
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I was on suboxone for almost a year. They wrote me at 8 mg 3x/day and then after a few months of that I was like, "Dude really? Taper me." They wouldn't - the douchecanoe doctor I was seeing told me that I should expect to maintain on it for the rest of my life. To which I said, "Pshaw." (Okay, I didn't really say "pshaw," I pretty much cursed a lot. I started tapering myself and then BAM out of nowhere I went for my appointment and they no longer took my insurance. So I pretty much got told eff you, and I had no choice but to chip up what I had left. I still felt like ass but nowhere near as bad as if I'd kicked dope cold turkey. So yeah. Let me know if you need any help. It's a bitch.
 
Morrigan said:
I was on suboxone for almost a year. They wrote me at 8 mg 3x/day and then after a few months of that I was like, "Dude really? Taper me." They wouldn't - the douchecanoe doctor I was seeing told me that I should expect to maintain on it for the rest of my life. To which I said, "Pshaw." (Okay, I didn't really say "pshaw," I pretty much cursed a lot. I started tapering myself and then BAM out of nowhere I went for my appointment and they no longer took my insurance. So I pretty much got told eff you, and I had no choice but to chip up what I had left. I still felt like ass but nowhere near as bad as if I'd kicked dope cold turkey. So yeah. Let me know if you need any help. It's a bitch.
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8( Do wuuuut...

Well hey you live in New York, couldn't you taper on your own?

If I was you, I'd be thankful the doc was handing me so many 8mg tabs.

HOWEVER if you are one of those people who NEEDED the doctor to taper you, and the doctor was like "umm you should expect lifelong maintenance" - that's just fucked up.

The PATIENT is supposed to choose what they want, to stay ON the drug or get OFF. Ugh.

I'm SO SORRY the doctor was such a douche to you! However if you had any ability to taper yourself, I'd just do that, and keep the extra 8mg Suboxone tablets in case one day you end up in severe pain - I'm glad I saved mine for that reason alone.

My doctor was OK with tapering me off but I didn't WANT to quit; I was still in PAWS for a whole year. So he just kept prescribing me 8mg per day until I no longer showed up (as I had enough stockpiled to last me a long time).
 
Douchecanoe, lol. I make up words. Keeps me out of trouble. And yeah, I can't effectively taper myself off ANYTHING. Pretty much ever. I asked him repeatedly to do it but the treatment center I was going to was all about the money, so the more visits they could bill to my insurance for subs, the happier they were. It turns out that they had their license to treat Medicaid and Medicare patients revoked. For fraud. Imagine that. So now they're strictly private pay, but I'm sure they're making MORE money that way.

As for the pain, I try to deal with it with kratom. I am currently being run through a metric fuckton of tests for autoimmune, including lupus, and other fun stuff like kidney lesions. My rheumatologist has me on Lyrica for neuropathic pain and it seems to help. If I encounter pain that is absolutely intolerable, I will go to the hospital and 9 times out of 10 they will admit me to manage the pain. I've told them I don't want to bring home scripts for opiates because I can't be trusted, lol. I have found that ditching my old dopefiend behaviors and telling the truth gets me further in terms of pain control - mainly because I'm not skipping from ER to ER trying to get dilaudid shots and percocet scripts. I wish I could have saved the subs but yeah, that goes against my temperament altogether.

Thanks, everybody, for the warm welcome!
 
Wow well at least you're honest with them, and they can admit you to take care of your pain.

I'm very sorry to hear about the extreme pain levels you face, and I wish you the BEST in figuring out what's going on with your body. <3 You can always PM me if you'd like to talk about it. :)
 
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