Hey, this hasn't been a big worry on my mind but it has been something ive thought about occasionally. I have noticed that theres quite a lot of things I cannot do as well socially or mentally, not many but a few that I could do better before I tripped. I also think mentally im a bit weaker or something, im not sure its hard to think about how I was mentally before I tripped, it seems like a before and after of a complete different perspective. I feel im a lot more spacey, less motivated and a bit slow and dopey since using psy drugs. Whenever I smoke cannabis or cannabinoids I get a very very large amount of static and CEV's imprint the walls, when I am sober less distinct CEV's imprint the walls and carpet etc. I get minor visual distortions occasionally but nothing like HPPD.
My use of psy's started with a first trip of 1.5mg DOC alone with my and my fiancee on holiday in a little scottish, very elegant and rich village. Surreal to say the least, I had prior experiance to other drugs including grass, mdma, dxm, freebase, mephedrone, valium, cocaine + some codeine products. After this trip I didn't trip for another 2 weeks but then on my fiancee's birthday we decided to order 100mg's of aMT as we didn't know anyone were we lived that sold psychedelics. In the next 5 months after that first trip we used aMT usually once a week sometimes twice sometimes not at all. Im aware this is a bit of overuse and stupidity but we were on are psychedelic honeymoon and it was the only substance available to us apart from MDMA but im not a huge fan of that. We then decided to slow down from our aMT use, we had lost most of our friends and become not very social at all mainly spending time together in my room. Me and her have always done this though as we have an amazing connection mentally and we prefer to be alone together over anyone elses company. After a 1 - 2 week break from aMT we were back tripping once a month maybe less frequent on aMT. I tried a very small amount of a 2c-x + tripped on lsd twice (my favorite experiance yet although I thought it was a bit cold unlike warm aMT). I have now taken a break for a few weeks to a month to a couple months of all drugs apart from cannabinoids + the real deal. As me and my fiancee realised that are use of substances was making us paranoid, edgy, anxious, socially awkward + many other negative things. For a month I thought that me and my girlfriend were weirdo's bordering on isnane people I was so paranoid.
Now were these syymptoms of my psychedelic use or were they just probably other things in ym life that contributed. Of course it would be hard for anyone to say as you dont know me but just take a guess.
I am currently growing mushrooms + waiting on a sample of 25I-NBOMe but think I will hold off on taking these for a while. I jsut feel like im so much more mentally active after tripping that it is hard for me to function and not be spacey as im constantly thinking. I kinda wish I could go back to ignorance and its bliss, you know? Anyway, any replys would be great.
My use of psy's started with a first trip of 1.5mg DOC alone with my and my fiancee on holiday in a little scottish, very elegant and rich village. Surreal to say the least, I had prior experiance to other drugs including grass, mdma, dxm, freebase, mephedrone, valium, cocaine + some codeine products. After this trip I didn't trip for another 2 weeks but then on my fiancee's birthday we decided to order 100mg's of aMT as we didn't know anyone were we lived that sold psychedelics. In the next 5 months after that first trip we used aMT usually once a week sometimes twice sometimes not at all. Im aware this is a bit of overuse and stupidity but we were on are psychedelic honeymoon and it was the only substance available to us apart from MDMA but im not a huge fan of that. We then decided to slow down from our aMT use, we had lost most of our friends and become not very social at all mainly spending time together in my room. Me and her have always done this though as we have an amazing connection mentally and we prefer to be alone together over anyone elses company. After a 1 - 2 week break from aMT we were back tripping once a month maybe less frequent on aMT. I tried a very small amount of a 2c-x + tripped on lsd twice (my favorite experiance yet although I thought it was a bit cold unlike warm aMT). I have now taken a break for a few weeks to a month to a couple months of all drugs apart from cannabinoids + the real deal. As me and my fiancee realised that are use of substances was making us paranoid, edgy, anxious, socially awkward + many other negative things. For a month I thought that me and my girlfriend were weirdo's bordering on isnane people I was so paranoid.
Now were these syymptoms of my psychedelic use or were they just probably other things in ym life that contributed. Of course it would be hard for anyone to say as you dont know me but just take a guess.
I am currently growing mushrooms + waiting on a sample of 25I-NBOMe but think I will hold off on taking these for a while. I jsut feel like im so much more mentally active after tripping that it is hard for me to function and not be spacey as im constantly thinking. I kinda wish I could go back to ignorance and its bliss, you know? Anyway, any replys would be great.
