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Today I am thankful for... ver. 2: thankful for all the darksiders!

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I'm used to living away from all my friends. Its not fun. I moved in the middle of highschool, and for those two years while I finished highschool I was so depressed, I didn't make any friends. I went back to my home state for college, and had to move back home this past August, so back alone once again. I'm trying to get back there so I can be around best friends/good friends once again. It kills me everyday being alone, especially with just losing a very close friend this past week because for who knows what reason, she doesn't want to talk to me.

Well, since this is the good news thread, I had a really great session at counseling. Made me feel a lot better about the whole losing a good friend.

Also I had a great time at my class last night that I started. It feels good getting myself on the path to get the fuck back to where I belong.
 
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Dave said:
SMFG-- Warning, it's a bit melancholy, but it is also very serene.
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Thankfull for Dave:)
Thnx hey, its something i could work with upon listining to the first quarter or so its finny how music influcenes me in the way that i could only immagine dragging bad shit up in this instance, the stuff i found by miricle today was more like rainforest stuff with these soothing sounding chimes i think it was called "forest dreams" or something. Maybe further down the path il be able to use this so shes added onto my favs.
 
Pretty sure I just got a part time job till the end of tax session. My mom works at a small tax company, and since it's a two person operation atm, they need a assistant essentially. I wont be getting paid much or that many hours most likely, but since I've been struggling to find a job this is good news. I'll be able to get out of the house, and make a little bit of money that I really need. With this and the class I'm taking this is good news.
 
Thankfull to have woken non volitile.... Yesterdays fiasco was so out of controll i scared myself.

Congrats on hookin up some work Splat!!! I so need a job aswell:\
 
Today i am thankful for my friend and my man, looking after me. Not well at all today. Also thankful for the internet and my smartphone :) not like me to post materialistic things in here.
 
Aw i hope that your going to be ok?good toi know that you got a good decent guy at your side there very hard to find nowadays as im sure you would agree luv and hugs to you pamela x
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Today i am thankful for my friend and my man, looking after me. Not well at all today. Also thankful for the internet and my smartphone :) not like me to post materialistic things in here.
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Yeh he is the perfect man for me, i had liked him for 7 years before we got together. I am blessd to have him and his lovely kids supporting me, my youngest step son has moved in to help his Dad look after me, he has adhd and he wasnt getting the attention that he needs at his Mums as she has 3 other kids so here i can teach him and counsel him for bereavement (step Dad 2010) and also cbt, dbt and talking therapy along with physio exercises for kids with learning difficulties now known as special educational needs. I miss my kids from school, they were such loving pupils even the one who was so severely autistic and neglected off his parents that he didnt even recognise his own name :( he was my little star, we made so much progress in a matter of months instead of years hewas super intelligent, genious level IQ like mine.
 
today im thankfull for where I live, there are dickheads everywhere no matter where you go, but you can controll the surroundings that you have to share with all these dickheads:)
I got utopia compared to some of my fellow bluelighters:|
 
I'm thankful for my mom getting me a part time job. I start work on Monday. It's going to be nice to get out of the house for work on top of class that I started this past monday. This is the step I needed to get my butt out of where my parents live, and to my home state.
 
S.M.F.G said:
today im thankfull for where I live, there are dickheads everywhere no matter where you go, but you can controll the surroundings that you have to share with all these dickheads:)
I got utopia compared to some of my fellow bluelighters:|
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Same thing here SMFG, so thankful to feel secure with my living arrangements.
 
S.M.F.G said:
today im thankfull for where I live, there are dickheads everywhere no matter where you go, but you can controll the surroundings that you have to share with all these dickheads:)
I got utopia compared to some of my fellow bluelighters:|
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I miss my old place of residence. Really, the first place I considered MY home. Sure I call my parents house's through out my life as my home, but there is a difference when you have your own place if you ask me. It was a shitty apartment, and even shittier, a one bedroom that I shared with a roommate. However, even with the one bed room it was legit, I took the actually bedroom as I signed the lease, and my roommate took the living room (was actually a bit bigger if you wanna look at it that way). We got along perfect, with really only a disagreement about food maybe once, and it was just something stupid because we were both being hot headed (I think it had to do with pop tarts lol). We shared weed, I'd share my other goodies that I'd get in, we'd share all food, and basically everything else (we owned a bong together). We had the same style of living (messy, to semi-messy), ate the same amount (similar weight), and brought over the same amount of people. He didn't mind how big of a druggy I was (extracted DMT with no concern for example), even when I was doing a shit ton of k or opiates. We both basically had ultimate freedom, even when there was someone else there who could want to lay down some rules. It was pretty unbelievable that it worked so well, especially since we spent a lot of time in each others room watching tv, doing drugs, etc.

The complex that I was living in, was also pretty much perfect. It was an older building in the college town, so not built as thin like the new apartments in the area, and pretty much half the people in my building were pretty cool. We'd have building get togethers all the time, go to the bar that was a 3 minute walk from the building together as a group, invite each other in to chill in the afternoons after class, chill out on the porch to just smoke a stog, etc. I've never lived somewhere where it was so peaceful, and friendly. Everyone was on the same wave length, which was surprising for college. Not everyone smoked weed, tripped, or whatever, but noone in the building gave a shit, everyone was just themselves.

I miss that few years. I know I'll never have that experience again, but I just can't wait to move out of my parents again and set up camp in an environment I feel 100% comfortable in. I honestly rarely feel comfortable in this house. When my parents are both gone, I feel a bit better, but there are still to many memories from the middle highschool when I moved here after from my home town.
 
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