A day and night, so maybe like 30 hrs possibly.
I don't use it anymore normally up until recently when I got a prescription bottle of 30x 5mg dexes from a friend. Initially I told him I wasn't interested, knowing myself. Then I was like: there are certainly those days where one of those can save the day... well similar thing with phenibut. I don't use it regularly, especially because it potentiates other GABAergics, but every now and then it can make a tough day into a walk in the park, and just like with a mere 5 mg dex the cost of physical energy or taxing the body it's quite manageable.
So I said: well I'll take 3 then.
He said: is it alright if you take 3 and also the zero? (He meant just taking all 30 in the bottle and calling it done). It wasn't my best moment of judgement and I was like halfway falling asleep already in bed by now so I just said yeah sure why not, thanks.
The guy has pretty severe ADD and eats like 5 or 6 of them every day, but less if he doesn't have responsibilities in a day so then he opts for having okay appetite instead. But get this: his practicioner would have him eat 11 pills every day including days without responsibilities, to structurize his entire life better continuosly. That's some pretty serious drugging! And also the reason he has surplus.
Unfortunately he also doesn't really eat anything other than 5 things that includes pancakes, french fried potato chips (has to be the thin ones, julienne), possibly pasta without any sauce, I forget the rest. But anyway you get the picture. I am amazed he is not completely fucked up. And this has been so since he was young. No fruit, no vegetables, basically also no meat, and the endless list continues.
Shit, got on a tangent again.
Anyway I took like half a 5 mg tab in the morning like last week, just a little extra jolt - higher productivity... basically everything okay.
Up until recently I have gotten K every 10 days or so for I.M.ing, this has now become unavailable which is I guess a good thing. I wasn't
planning on going on like that, on the other hand I managed. Other than a lot of hours spent passively, I got my sleep, I go to work, eating was okay, and my benzo tapering seems to make sure no schizo aspects have popped up in that time. Anyway it's probably for the best, I shouldn't go looking for an alternative source but just be satisfied with the honeymoon and say it's over.
I guess it's because of that I rather impulsively decided to start chugging dex.
Trading one bad habit for another one, never a good idea. Especially not like this. Anyway the dex is soon gone, so that will be the end of that as well. I'll probably see a rise in alcohol consumption serving as a new substitute but I tend to keep that under control actually. Also I can't be drinking too often, it makes me go to sleep skipping my diazepam dose. Not an immediate problem, but that causes fluctuation in blood levels days later.
It's a good thing I've checked into a program to help me with these issues. Because letting go is a critical point. K came to an end again. Let's call the dex a mishap because other than this I stopped allowing stims in my home stash. Benzo tapering was going well for a while, then stalled at a dose, now it seemed like I could continue the tapering, up until this little shitstorm though.
Oh yes great 4:20 am

- gonna brush my teeth