Used it 8 times in 13 months, snorted, from 1/2 g to a max of 2g over 48 hours, with a night's sleep in between.
- Main draw is the horrible comedown and dopamine depletion, if I go over 1/2 g it I feel myself only after several weeks.
- Blurred vision for a couple of weeks, probably due to the savage eye wiggling while rushing hard
- Mouth sores after use, which go away with a couple of hot water and rock salt rinses if done as soon as I get them, and sensitive gums.
- Dry, wrinkly skin, a bit of dandruff for a day or two
- Pins and needles in my hands
- Cold feet
- The awareness of being a step away from a serious addiction, thinking about that unforgettable high more that I should, cravings
Only writing this list makes me shudder, I've always been pro-legalisation but this stuff is dangerous, awesome but difficult to use sensibly for those who like that kind of sensations and have addictive tendencies (step forward Safrolette)
I discovered drone Autumn 2009, I'd say buy Christmas of that year, it was already starting to get out of control - me and the missus, got through a lot between us over the xmas period, from there on it was downhill all the way - starting Friday night and finishing Sunday night when work beckoned (can see how pop stars get into so much shit without the boundaries us mere mortals have) every week, even a couple of midweek sessions - turning up to work fucked, then doing keys in the loo on a thursday - WTF?
This all started to take it's toll on our relationship, we were either off our bulb or in the depths of a comedown, so rowing started, and we actually split up over it in May 2010, as neither of of felt in control of our lives, I've had my issues with booze, weed and pills but this was something else - it was like looking into the life of a 'proper' drug addict - it scared the shit out of both of us, and as liberal as we both are - the ban saved our ass, the quality stayed pre-ban for a while then went to shit for a while which allowed us to pull ourselves together. I can still get decent stuff, but limit it to a once a month 3-6g blowout now, which feels 100% more manageable - and if I'm honest with myself more enjoyable too, as it feels like a payday treat after busting my ass all month.
Side effects?
Never got blue fingers etc - just slight reddening of the knuckles from time to time
Nose - absolutely fucked on the pre-ban stuff, felt like it was falling to pieces - now, just blowing my nose for a few days, the odd sore bit, fuck all really.
Physical effects for me seem to be limited to the consequences of not sleeping for a couple of days and thats about it.
But the absolute number one side effect of 4-MMC... Anxiety! After a sesh, I'll keep having flashbacks for (4 days usually) of fucked up conversations I'd had during, and even though I'm a 37 year old experienced drug user, would start thinking shit like 'oh my god I hope her wasn't offended by something I said' and shit like that, It was overwhelming sometimes, fucking horrible. This usually gave way to depression at the tail end of the comedown, which I also struggled to deal with sometimes.
All in all, it's a seriously enjoyable, but seriously addictive substance, and despite all I've just said, is my weapon of choice still for a night out or a house party, It's just took me a while to respect the stuff. Let's call it a honeymoon period and have done with it.
Now pass me that motherfucking mirror...
