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TR LSD AND 4-HO-MET #1
Title: Pure euphoria and sense of wonder of everything around me
Substance: LSD, 4-HO-MET
Dosage:
1 black microdot declared to be 160 mcg, orally
20mg 4-HO-MET fumarate rectally at T +02:00
Personal data
Male, 85kg, 178 cm, 27 years old , athletic, exercise daily, but some back pains and undiagnosed ADHD and cyclothymic (slightly bipolar)
Medications and addictions: none except vitamins.
Set & Setting: At home on weekend with friends, relaxed and happy after yoga
Rating: 9/10
Previous experiences:
* 2C-C (x2)
* 2C-D (x1)
* 4-ACO-DMT (x1)
* 4-HO-MET (x1)
* 5-APB (x1)
* Alprazolam (x2)
* Amphetamine (x1)
* DOC (x2)
* DOI (x1)
* Dichloropane (x2)
* Etizolam (x3)
* Kratom (x4)
* Methoxetamine (x4)
* Methylone (x2)
* Modafinil (1 week)
* Shrooms (x3)
* Salvia (x1)
* Weed and hash (many times)
Substance appearance: black cylindrical microdot around 2mm in size
Closest previous trip: 3mg DOC two weeks before
Tolerance: None
Sensitivity: Low
Addiction potential: Average
Main effects: colors enhancement, euphoria, laughing, openness, lack of anxiety
Side effects: None
After effects: afterglow with elevated mood
Shulgin scale: ***
T -03:00
Early in the morning, I took 1 cholinesterase inhibitor pill and vitamins, did not have breakfast. This pill increases acetylcholine level, which itself affects how well other neurotransmitters work, and possibly should increase effects from serotonin and dopamine affecting substances, which LSD is. Anyway, I had these pills laying around, and last time combined with methylone they potentiated it a little, so I decided 1 pill will not harm me. I don't know role it played, but everything worked out fine.
T -02:00
I went to yoga for two hours. It always calms me and makes mood very nice and relaxed. If done in the morning, it charges me with positive energy for the whole day. It was the case this time, so my state of mind was very pretty even without mind-altering substances. After I finished yoga, I went for a small walk before going home. It was freezing hard (like -15 or -20 C) and sunny day, snow was sparkling and my breath beautifully going to sky as smoky exhalation.
T -00:30
I came home, waiting for my trip buddies, Coyote and Panda to come. I already mentioned them in 4-ACO-DMT report, but I repeat in short. Both Panda and Coyote are skinny and short height. Coyote tripped on LSD several years ago, in contrast with Panda and myself - we never had luck to try this one.
Coyote is older, wiser and calmer person with great sense of english humor, likes to pull your leg with serious face. He is skillful engineer, has great manual labor skills (does furniture and simple car repairs himself) is married and have a child, and read a lot of mystical and philosophical books like Kabbalah.
Panda is my age, but somewhat geeky, asocial, shy, anxious with strangers and totally don't understand how things in life work. He spends most free time doing nothing in web and watching art house movies/listening obscure music (our common interest). He never had girlfiend and his friends are a few. He thinks of himself high and low at once, ignores, despises and fears other people simultaneously, and overall is very confused person.
Me and Coyote did not know, whether Panda will come, because he is very unsure in anything and can't choose what to do. Usually this ends with him just sitting in front of PC all day and night. But for some reason he was able to come, being late for half a hour, as he always does.
T 00:00
Panda tried to argue that we should take something else then LSD microdots I suggested (we had plenty untasted substances to choose from). His reasoning was: because these dots are from unknown source, they could be either not LSD or very strong. Because we did not spoke a lot last few weeks, he did not know how and where I obtained microdots. I told him, that this same microdot was bioessayed by our common buddy Behemoth, and he told it is very weak, threshold-like product. As about whatever it is LSD or not, length and effects, according to Behemoth, were very convincing. Note, that Behemoth tried many RCs in last year, but never had acid before.
Panda was not convinced, but he acted like he even did not want to be. I told I'm perfectly ok to try anything else, but he must convince Coyote. Now, Panda started this talk too late because we already unpacked microdots at this time. I feel like partly this was due to him thinking of himself low, being anxious and fearing of Coyote (without reason, obviously, because Coyote is gentle man, ready to adjust to needs of others).
Anyway, we took 1 black microdot each, obtained online from well known onion place. They were declared to have 160 mcg, but I highly doubt they had even twice less (see below).
T +01:00
Coyote told he feels something, I am uncertain. Panda always blabs about "placebo", because he is not sure of himself and what he feels, this time no exception. We talk about philosophy, relationships etc, joke a lot, conversation is easy and funny, most talk is done by Panda. I listen to him, but Coyote seems to be a little distracted, because Panda tells too much not very useful details and his thoughts are jumping from topic to topic. Coyote even asks him: "Do you always change topics like that?". I believe Coyote likes slow and thoughtful discussion, when there are time to think and feel. Coyote tried to concentrate on feelings of being one with nature and surroundings, like he always did on LSD, but without much luck, because effects are too subtle. We look through the big window I call "TV" during the trips at the trees, cats and bystanders. Curtain at the top of window hampers this show, so we remove it.
T 01:45
Barely threshold level we are feeling last hour (no CEV,OEV, only very slightly brighter colors and talky mood). This makes me supplement my trip with 20mg 4-HO-MET white powder obtained from reputable source. I use it rectal way in a capsule. Coyote still thinks trip can become harder, so he passes, and Panda don't want to take tryptamines because last time with 4-ACO-DMT was too much for him. I chosen 4-HO-MET on impulse, because my first trip with it was very nice (see report).
T 02:00
Effects develop pretty quickly, I think maybe after 20 or 30 mins after administering.
T 02:30-T 03:00
Come-up from 4-HO-MET was intense, but in very pleasant way. I felt no body load, nausea, or other negatives whatsoever.
Instead, I felt overwhelming euphoria, and laughed on everything. All around me was interesting, bright, I had positive attitude to anything I saw, including speaking with fellow trippers, looking at brown cupboard, looking at the floor.
Compared to methylone, euphoria was more funny, stronger, intense, but not so emphatic and entactogenic and calm. Compared to mushrooms, no body load and nausea was present, and also no dysphoric moments (that were lightly present even in my previous 4-HO-MET trip, and strongly present with mushrooms).
My friends asked me to find syringes to measure DOC and batteries to turn on my game console. I was not able to find anything, batteries because I was confused, and syringes because I used them all (I don't do IV/IM, just measuring compounds). So, we put old batteries in charger. As for syringes, Panda wanted to go into pharmacy and buy them, but I certainly wouldn't be able to, and Coyote did not want to do it.
Thoughts about doing these things were unpleasant, because I enjoyed my trip, and although I wanted to help my friends, I was not able to think clearly, and to move anywhere, so I just laid down on a coach. They went to another room for a while:because I was tripping so hard, I could not talk with them with any sense.
There were a lot of interesting effects (that may be widely known around community, but somewhat novel to me).
First, time for me slowed down tenfold. When in my subjective time passed a minute, in real life clock shifted only by a few seconds. I was not able to speak because anything I could say was too slow, in comparison with how my fast mind perceived surroundings. I was seeing a lot of details of everything around me, my senses were overflown with visual, audio, touch and other inputs. When I tried to construct a phrase, I was speaking extremely fast, by was able only to tell my friends that it is still too slow. I don't know if they understood me, because my actions did not have much sense looking from outside.
But I was feeling normal, confusion was related mostly to sensory overload, my mind worked ok, although not able to concentrate for a long time. When Coyote asked me "are you ok, do you remember who you are and what you are doing", I told "Yes, certainly I am". I was not able to answer him in details, but I was telling the truth. Panda several times tried to give me advice what to do if experience is too overwhelming, but my answer every time was: "Why I need to be it less intense? I actually want to be it MORE intense!". Well, I did not really wanted to, because I felt perfect at this moment, but I thought like I easily could handle stronger experience.
Second, I saw CEVs. They looked like 4D Rubik's cube game that can be found on web - colored transparent cubes on black background. Sometimes they formed series of trapezoids, with smaller side at the bottom and extending to the top, like fantail. Interestingly, that each fantail segment was in different color: red, blue, green. Also, more interesting visuals blazed for a moment, too vague to remember or describe, but I think they resembled tentacles tied into impossible Escher kind of structure.
Third, OEVs: there were mainly present in form of patterns on textured surfaces, like cupboard or laminated floor. I stared on cupboard in awe for a few minutes, liking how breathing, vibrating and living it appears, and knowing it exists only in my mind. Next, I stared at the floor, to the stage all of its surface became like a swamp, and even peripheral vision saw movement. I was staring closer and closer, lastly standing on my knees. Also, what I seen was in and out of focus all the time. My friends left me alone, understanding I'm too occupied to talk at this moment, and really enjoying myself.
Fourth, Coyote brought me some Lipton "Cashmir valley" tea with spices like cinnamon, and when I smelled it, this smell literally became me, and I became this smell. Everything in me was made of it. After that, we drank a lot of this tea and this smell will now forever associate with particular trip and emotions of joy and intensity.
Fifth, when come-up started, everything in my field of view seemed connected by lines, these same lines Coyote described me from his 6mg DOI trip. Also, I had tiny episode of anxiety, when I was alone for a moment, and what appeared to me like difficulty breathing. But then I tried inhale with full lungs, and it was not problem, so I said to myself: "I can breath very well, as I see, so this is totally psychological issue". After that, there were no similar problems. I remember vaguely, however, that during other parts of trip I had little troubles, because I forgot to inhale, because everything around me was so amazing, and I was thinking too fast, but this was not scary, just funny, because I just inhaled and that's all after noticing I have this problem.
I think all of described above (come-up from 4-HO-MET and peak) lasted just for half an hour (cannot be sure), but for me it felt like a very long time.
T 03:00
We decided to go for a walk, while sun was still high. While putting winter clothes on, I told Coyote that this is very complex to do, but he responded: not, it is not. Then, I remembered how we stoked fireplace during 4-ACO-DMT trip and it looked hard, but turned to be simple, so I asked Coyote: "It is as simple, as stoke fireplace?" and he told that yes, it indeed is. After that, I quickly put clothes on. At this time come-down somewhat finished, so I even managed to act almost proper: choose very warm clothes (because of freezing cold outside), check if heater and water is turned off before going out, not laugh on the street too much.
After we left my place, Panda went to pharmacy to buy syringes. He did not call them "syringes" because it sounds to him very "junkie". Instead, he used some slang word employed by insulin users. Sometime ago I also had such laughing issues, but now I understand well, that people mostly don't care and don't notice, especially area professionals. For them this word sounds perfectly valid, and it is crazy to try to mask it. So, as a result, Panda got into self-made trouble: he did not know that insulin syringes can be different, and trying to pass himself as insulin user by trying slang trick, he only shown that he is, in fact, not. Anyway, he managed to buy few syringes, and off we went.
Even standing on the street corner and waiting for Panda to return from Pharmacy was very interesting. I did not care about people walking on the street and looking at us, anxiety, frequent for me with mind altering substances in public places, was non-existent. Instead, I looked around and was amazed, how much do I hear and see. Sound was extremely 3d - like I could find where people and cars are moving to with eyes closed. Birds crisping, people talking and cars making noises was all pleasant and fun. There were no OEVs, only pure bliss and euphoria, again, anything was interesting, regardless of what you are doing. Last time under 4-HO-MET i felt calmness and relaxation, but now LSD and 4-HO-MET synergy gave me probably my most beautiful psychedelic experience so far, although I will not call it most profound, because I think it lacked depth. But that did not worry me then, and not worrying me now, because this trip was something to remember, pure joy lasting for at least 5 or 6 hours.
We walked to the nearby forest. Panda was complaining how cold it is, and that he does not want to go there (he often complaining), but when we got there, he enjoyed it. Because
kids there were using sleds to enjoy sliding from hills, and some adults were secretly using bottles to enjoy drinking hard beverages. Panda was telling how we forgot to take sled with us and let's ask someone to borrow us so we could ride too. I was not interested in that, because I was feeling good already, and besides, no point in complaining about past actions. I knew for sure, Panda will not ask anyone to borrow sleds, because he is too shy, and what this is just empty talk he always does under substances.
We went to the top of the hill by my suggestion, where I enjoyed meditative state, staring at the pine trees and sun over the tree tops, thick layer of sparkling snow on everything. Coyote was walking back and forth, showing something to Panda, but I was perfectly ok with myself as is. After few minutes, we headed back home, because it was already feeling colder and sun was gradually stepping behind the horizon. House near the end of forest looked very nice (despite being pretty casual), and we speculated how fun it is to live there: like waterfront property, but instead "forestfront" property. When I saw car driving on the road, I felt strong urge to cross the road, before car will be too close, and did it. This was unnecessary risk, because I certainly could have waited until car passes, but it seems like in this state I felt like whatever could be done, it should be done. I think this because when we saw supermarket, and thought if we need to go in, I first decided against it, because we may be acting strange. But then, I remembered what Coyote told me about his psychedelic experience: you need to live your life as always, and not worry about anything. After considering this, I decided that visiting shop will be interesting experience, and indeed it was.
We thought what to buy, and noticed freshly baked bread. It looked diabolically attractive. I knew this kind of bread is not very tasty when not freshly baked, but now it looks very nice. I spend a minute thinking: will this bread be tasty like it looks, or it is just my impression, because my brain is flooded with serotonin?
T 04:00
After some thinking, I decided it will be tasty, because it is different kind then I thought about, not bread in packages, but fresh. Coyote bought it, and this was right decision no doubt, because when we returned, we munched it with great appetite. I also ate some sauerkraut with meat, (not very tasty for my current senses then, but ok), and Coyote told meat smells rotten to him because of substance we took.
Panda also bought three fancy cakes, and I slowly and relectantly took one, because I was almost full. But when I crushed my teeth into it, I almost experienced orgasm. It was crunchy, fatty and sugary, and this feeling filled everything in me for a second, almost like spicy tea I mentioned before.
T 05:00
After that, we went to living room, turned flatpanel on, where at first famous Bergensbanen video was playing. It is video how train goes through most of the Norway: from Oslo to Bergen, almost 7 hours. Not exactly full of events, but nature views are good, and it's nice for background, although I suspect Coyote did not appreciate it. Also, Coyote constantly put his not very interesting and kind of depressing music on, despite that we agreed before, that we will change music between his and mine. I was in the state of utter bliss, though, so I just laughed and my complains were not serious.
After that, we started to watch my "watch later" youtube playlist, which consists of some random stuff I never had time to watch when sober. This was fresh view and not routine process, because videos were very different and after some pop music video we could watch how japanese robot is driving bicycle, after that - pakistani truck drivers conquering dangerous ridge, etc. I liked all of these videos to different extent, always finding something worthwhile and teaching in each. Coyote seemed to not like many of them, but usually waited patiently, while Panda tried to change videos, enraging me and breaking my inner peace.
At this time, trip gradually started to slow down, but slowly. I felt it like 4-HO-MET weared off, leaving pleasant afterglow, but LSD was still acting, although just enhancing senses a little and making everything bright, because our eye pupils were still huge (this started approx. at T +2:00)
We spend all time talking and watching videos, discussing them and drinking a lot of tea. I also remembered there are Pomelo fruit hidden somewhere in my
cupboards and we ate it, quite enjoying its tenderness, mellow juiciness and taste.
At this time, I already was feeling a little tired of such strong and long-lasting experience, but after eating something, it became much easier to handle, so I continued to enjoy trip to some extent.
T 09:00
I wanted to visit swimming pool after accompanying Panda and Coyote to their homes, but it was too late, and pool was closing. So I headed back home, and had late dinner, not having much appetite, but ate anyway. Mood was very nice, with pleasant afterglow. I wanted to sleep already, but browsed web and read a book for a while. I also drank strong chamomile tea to calm down my still-open senses.
T 13:00
I was able to sleep without much difficulty, and even without melatonin I usually take in such cases. Next day I was a bit slow, but no hangover of any kind. Consequent days were nice, even with slightly elevated mood than usual, because memories of experience enlighten me.
Summary
This was amazing, truly psychedelic, mind and soul opening experience, shared with friends and leaving only wonderful memories. It was not very deep or perspective-changing, but instead warm and joyful. I really liked it, have no second thoughts and don't want to change anything. I can relate that under alcohol I also could experience similar state of joy, friendship and good vibe, but never with it I can experience such openness of senses, sense of wonder and beauty of things around me and beautiful visuals. Even euphoria was so strong, Pity that only small percentage of populace can do it, even rarely, but poison themselves with booze instead each weekend. 4-HO-MET for me confirmed its character as mild and euphoric, and had beautiful synergy with LSD.
Title: Pure euphoria and sense of wonder of everything around me
Substance: LSD, 4-HO-MET
Dosage:
1 black microdot declared to be 160 mcg, orally
20mg 4-HO-MET fumarate rectally at T +02:00
Personal data
Male, 85kg, 178 cm, 27 years old , athletic, exercise daily, but some back pains and undiagnosed ADHD and cyclothymic (slightly bipolar)
Medications and addictions: none except vitamins.
Set & Setting: At home on weekend with friends, relaxed and happy after yoga
Rating: 9/10
Previous experiences:
* 2C-C (x2)
* 2C-D (x1)
* 4-ACO-DMT (x1)
* 4-HO-MET (x1)
* 5-APB (x1)
* Alprazolam (x2)
* Amphetamine (x1)
* DOC (x2)
* DOI (x1)
* Dichloropane (x2)
* Etizolam (x3)
* Kratom (x4)
* Methoxetamine (x4)
* Methylone (x2)
* Modafinil (1 week)
* Shrooms (x3)
* Salvia (x1)
* Weed and hash (many times)
Substance appearance: black cylindrical microdot around 2mm in size
Closest previous trip: 3mg DOC two weeks before
Tolerance: None
Sensitivity: Low
Addiction potential: Average
Main effects: colors enhancement, euphoria, laughing, openness, lack of anxiety
Side effects: None
After effects: afterglow with elevated mood
Shulgin scale: ***
T -03:00
Early in the morning, I took 1 cholinesterase inhibitor pill and vitamins, did not have breakfast. This pill increases acetylcholine level, which itself affects how well other neurotransmitters work, and possibly should increase effects from serotonin and dopamine affecting substances, which LSD is. Anyway, I had these pills laying around, and last time combined with methylone they potentiated it a little, so I decided 1 pill will not harm me. I don't know role it played, but everything worked out fine.
T -02:00
I went to yoga for two hours. It always calms me and makes mood very nice and relaxed. If done in the morning, it charges me with positive energy for the whole day. It was the case this time, so my state of mind was very pretty even without mind-altering substances. After I finished yoga, I went for a small walk before going home. It was freezing hard (like -15 or -20 C) and sunny day, snow was sparkling and my breath beautifully going to sky as smoky exhalation.
T -00:30
I came home, waiting for my trip buddies, Coyote and Panda to come. I already mentioned them in 4-ACO-DMT report, but I repeat in short. Both Panda and Coyote are skinny and short height. Coyote tripped on LSD several years ago, in contrast with Panda and myself - we never had luck to try this one.
Coyote is older, wiser and calmer person with great sense of english humor, likes to pull your leg with serious face. He is skillful engineer, has great manual labor skills (does furniture and simple car repairs himself) is married and have a child, and read a lot of mystical and philosophical books like Kabbalah.
Panda is my age, but somewhat geeky, asocial, shy, anxious with strangers and totally don't understand how things in life work. He spends most free time doing nothing in web and watching art house movies/listening obscure music (our common interest). He never had girlfiend and his friends are a few. He thinks of himself high and low at once, ignores, despises and fears other people simultaneously, and overall is very confused person.
Me and Coyote did not know, whether Panda will come, because he is very unsure in anything and can't choose what to do. Usually this ends with him just sitting in front of PC all day and night. But for some reason he was able to come, being late for half a hour, as he always does.
T 00:00
Panda tried to argue that we should take something else then LSD microdots I suggested (we had plenty untasted substances to choose from). His reasoning was: because these dots are from unknown source, they could be either not LSD or very strong. Because we did not spoke a lot last few weeks, he did not know how and where I obtained microdots. I told him, that this same microdot was bioessayed by our common buddy Behemoth, and he told it is very weak, threshold-like product. As about whatever it is LSD or not, length and effects, according to Behemoth, were very convincing. Note, that Behemoth tried many RCs in last year, but never had acid before.
Panda was not convinced, but he acted like he even did not want to be. I told I'm perfectly ok to try anything else, but he must convince Coyote. Now, Panda started this talk too late because we already unpacked microdots at this time. I feel like partly this was due to him thinking of himself low, being anxious and fearing of Coyote (without reason, obviously, because Coyote is gentle man, ready to adjust to needs of others).
Anyway, we took 1 black microdot each, obtained online from well known onion place. They were declared to have 160 mcg, but I highly doubt they had even twice less (see below).
T +01:00
Coyote told he feels something, I am uncertain. Panda always blabs about "placebo", because he is not sure of himself and what he feels, this time no exception. We talk about philosophy, relationships etc, joke a lot, conversation is easy and funny, most talk is done by Panda. I listen to him, but Coyote seems to be a little distracted, because Panda tells too much not very useful details and his thoughts are jumping from topic to topic. Coyote even asks him: "Do you always change topics like that?". I believe Coyote likes slow and thoughtful discussion, when there are time to think and feel. Coyote tried to concentrate on feelings of being one with nature and surroundings, like he always did on LSD, but without much luck, because effects are too subtle. We look through the big window I call "TV" during the trips at the trees, cats and bystanders. Curtain at the top of window hampers this show, so we remove it.
T 01:45
Barely threshold level we are feeling last hour (no CEV,OEV, only very slightly brighter colors and talky mood). This makes me supplement my trip with 20mg 4-HO-MET white powder obtained from reputable source. I use it rectal way in a capsule. Coyote still thinks trip can become harder, so he passes, and Panda don't want to take tryptamines because last time with 4-ACO-DMT was too much for him. I chosen 4-HO-MET on impulse, because my first trip with it was very nice (see report).
T 02:00
Effects develop pretty quickly, I think maybe after 20 or 30 mins after administering.
T 02:30-T 03:00
Come-up from 4-HO-MET was intense, but in very pleasant way. I felt no body load, nausea, or other negatives whatsoever.
Instead, I felt overwhelming euphoria, and laughed on everything. All around me was interesting, bright, I had positive attitude to anything I saw, including speaking with fellow trippers, looking at brown cupboard, looking at the floor.
Compared to methylone, euphoria was more funny, stronger, intense, but not so emphatic and entactogenic and calm. Compared to mushrooms, no body load and nausea was present, and also no dysphoric moments (that were lightly present even in my previous 4-HO-MET trip, and strongly present with mushrooms).
My friends asked me to find syringes to measure DOC and batteries to turn on my game console. I was not able to find anything, batteries because I was confused, and syringes because I used them all (I don't do IV/IM, just measuring compounds). So, we put old batteries in charger. As for syringes, Panda wanted to go into pharmacy and buy them, but I certainly wouldn't be able to, and Coyote did not want to do it.
Thoughts about doing these things were unpleasant, because I enjoyed my trip, and although I wanted to help my friends, I was not able to think clearly, and to move anywhere, so I just laid down on a coach. They went to another room for a while:because I was tripping so hard, I could not talk with them with any sense.
There were a lot of interesting effects (that may be widely known around community, but somewhat novel to me).
First, time for me slowed down tenfold. When in my subjective time passed a minute, in real life clock shifted only by a few seconds. I was not able to speak because anything I could say was too slow, in comparison with how my fast mind perceived surroundings. I was seeing a lot of details of everything around me, my senses were overflown with visual, audio, touch and other inputs. When I tried to construct a phrase, I was speaking extremely fast, by was able only to tell my friends that it is still too slow. I don't know if they understood me, because my actions did not have much sense looking from outside.
But I was feeling normal, confusion was related mostly to sensory overload, my mind worked ok, although not able to concentrate for a long time. When Coyote asked me "are you ok, do you remember who you are and what you are doing", I told "Yes, certainly I am". I was not able to answer him in details, but I was telling the truth. Panda several times tried to give me advice what to do if experience is too overwhelming, but my answer every time was: "Why I need to be it less intense? I actually want to be it MORE intense!". Well, I did not really wanted to, because I felt perfect at this moment, but I thought like I easily could handle stronger experience.
Second, I saw CEVs. They looked like 4D Rubik's cube game that can be found on web - colored transparent cubes on black background. Sometimes they formed series of trapezoids, with smaller side at the bottom and extending to the top, like fantail. Interestingly, that each fantail segment was in different color: red, blue, green. Also, more interesting visuals blazed for a moment, too vague to remember or describe, but I think they resembled tentacles tied into impossible Escher kind of structure.
Third, OEVs: there were mainly present in form of patterns on textured surfaces, like cupboard or laminated floor. I stared on cupboard in awe for a few minutes, liking how breathing, vibrating and living it appears, and knowing it exists only in my mind. Next, I stared at the floor, to the stage all of its surface became like a swamp, and even peripheral vision saw movement. I was staring closer and closer, lastly standing on my knees. Also, what I seen was in and out of focus all the time. My friends left me alone, understanding I'm too occupied to talk at this moment, and really enjoying myself.
Fourth, Coyote brought me some Lipton "Cashmir valley" tea with spices like cinnamon, and when I smelled it, this smell literally became me, and I became this smell. Everything in me was made of it. After that, we drank a lot of this tea and this smell will now forever associate with particular trip and emotions of joy and intensity.
Fifth, when come-up started, everything in my field of view seemed connected by lines, these same lines Coyote described me from his 6mg DOI trip. Also, I had tiny episode of anxiety, when I was alone for a moment, and what appeared to me like difficulty breathing. But then I tried inhale with full lungs, and it was not problem, so I said to myself: "I can breath very well, as I see, so this is totally psychological issue". After that, there were no similar problems. I remember vaguely, however, that during other parts of trip I had little troubles, because I forgot to inhale, because everything around me was so amazing, and I was thinking too fast, but this was not scary, just funny, because I just inhaled and that's all after noticing I have this problem.
I think all of described above (come-up from 4-HO-MET and peak) lasted just for half an hour (cannot be sure), but for me it felt like a very long time.
T 03:00
We decided to go for a walk, while sun was still high. While putting winter clothes on, I told Coyote that this is very complex to do, but he responded: not, it is not. Then, I remembered how we stoked fireplace during 4-ACO-DMT trip and it looked hard, but turned to be simple, so I asked Coyote: "It is as simple, as stoke fireplace?" and he told that yes, it indeed is. After that, I quickly put clothes on. At this time come-down somewhat finished, so I even managed to act almost proper: choose very warm clothes (because of freezing cold outside), check if heater and water is turned off before going out, not laugh on the street too much.
After we left my place, Panda went to pharmacy to buy syringes. He did not call them "syringes" because it sounds to him very "junkie". Instead, he used some slang word employed by insulin users. Sometime ago I also had such laughing issues, but now I understand well, that people mostly don't care and don't notice, especially area professionals. For them this word sounds perfectly valid, and it is crazy to try to mask it. So, as a result, Panda got into self-made trouble: he did not know that insulin syringes can be different, and trying to pass himself as insulin user by trying slang trick, he only shown that he is, in fact, not. Anyway, he managed to buy few syringes, and off we went.
Even standing on the street corner and waiting for Panda to return from Pharmacy was very interesting. I did not care about people walking on the street and looking at us, anxiety, frequent for me with mind altering substances in public places, was non-existent. Instead, I looked around and was amazed, how much do I hear and see. Sound was extremely 3d - like I could find where people and cars are moving to with eyes closed. Birds crisping, people talking and cars making noises was all pleasant and fun. There were no OEVs, only pure bliss and euphoria, again, anything was interesting, regardless of what you are doing. Last time under 4-HO-MET i felt calmness and relaxation, but now LSD and 4-HO-MET synergy gave me probably my most beautiful psychedelic experience so far, although I will not call it most profound, because I think it lacked depth. But that did not worry me then, and not worrying me now, because this trip was something to remember, pure joy lasting for at least 5 or 6 hours.
We walked to the nearby forest. Panda was complaining how cold it is, and that he does not want to go there (he often complaining), but when we got there, he enjoyed it. Because
kids there were using sleds to enjoy sliding from hills, and some adults were secretly using bottles to enjoy drinking hard beverages. Panda was telling how we forgot to take sled with us and let's ask someone to borrow us so we could ride too. I was not interested in that, because I was feeling good already, and besides, no point in complaining about past actions. I knew for sure, Panda will not ask anyone to borrow sleds, because he is too shy, and what this is just empty talk he always does under substances.
We went to the top of the hill by my suggestion, where I enjoyed meditative state, staring at the pine trees and sun over the tree tops, thick layer of sparkling snow on everything. Coyote was walking back and forth, showing something to Panda, but I was perfectly ok with myself as is. After few minutes, we headed back home, because it was already feeling colder and sun was gradually stepping behind the horizon. House near the end of forest looked very nice (despite being pretty casual), and we speculated how fun it is to live there: like waterfront property, but instead "forestfront" property. When I saw car driving on the road, I felt strong urge to cross the road, before car will be too close, and did it. This was unnecessary risk, because I certainly could have waited until car passes, but it seems like in this state I felt like whatever could be done, it should be done. I think this because when we saw supermarket, and thought if we need to go in, I first decided against it, because we may be acting strange. But then, I remembered what Coyote told me about his psychedelic experience: you need to live your life as always, and not worry about anything. After considering this, I decided that visiting shop will be interesting experience, and indeed it was.
We thought what to buy, and noticed freshly baked bread. It looked diabolically attractive. I knew this kind of bread is not very tasty when not freshly baked, but now it looks very nice. I spend a minute thinking: will this bread be tasty like it looks, or it is just my impression, because my brain is flooded with serotonin?
T 04:00
After some thinking, I decided it will be tasty, because it is different kind then I thought about, not bread in packages, but fresh. Coyote bought it, and this was right decision no doubt, because when we returned, we munched it with great appetite. I also ate some sauerkraut with meat, (not very tasty for my current senses then, but ok), and Coyote told meat smells rotten to him because of substance we took.
Panda also bought three fancy cakes, and I slowly and relectantly took one, because I was almost full. But when I crushed my teeth into it, I almost experienced orgasm. It was crunchy, fatty and sugary, and this feeling filled everything in me for a second, almost like spicy tea I mentioned before.
T 05:00
After that, we went to living room, turned flatpanel on, where at first famous Bergensbanen video was playing. It is video how train goes through most of the Norway: from Oslo to Bergen, almost 7 hours. Not exactly full of events, but nature views are good, and it's nice for background, although I suspect Coyote did not appreciate it. Also, Coyote constantly put his not very interesting and kind of depressing music on, despite that we agreed before, that we will change music between his and mine. I was in the state of utter bliss, though, so I just laughed and my complains were not serious.
After that, we started to watch my "watch later" youtube playlist, which consists of some random stuff I never had time to watch when sober. This was fresh view and not routine process, because videos were very different and after some pop music video we could watch how japanese robot is driving bicycle, after that - pakistani truck drivers conquering dangerous ridge, etc. I liked all of these videos to different extent, always finding something worthwhile and teaching in each. Coyote seemed to not like many of them, but usually waited patiently, while Panda tried to change videos, enraging me and breaking my inner peace.
At this time, trip gradually started to slow down, but slowly. I felt it like 4-HO-MET weared off, leaving pleasant afterglow, but LSD was still acting, although just enhancing senses a little and making everything bright, because our eye pupils were still huge (this started approx. at T +2:00)
We spend all time talking and watching videos, discussing them and drinking a lot of tea. I also remembered there are Pomelo fruit hidden somewhere in my
cupboards and we ate it, quite enjoying its tenderness, mellow juiciness and taste.
At this time, I already was feeling a little tired of such strong and long-lasting experience, but after eating something, it became much easier to handle, so I continued to enjoy trip to some extent.
T 09:00
I wanted to visit swimming pool after accompanying Panda and Coyote to their homes, but it was too late, and pool was closing. So I headed back home, and had late dinner, not having much appetite, but ate anyway. Mood was very nice, with pleasant afterglow. I wanted to sleep already, but browsed web and read a book for a while. I also drank strong chamomile tea to calm down my still-open senses.
T 13:00
I was able to sleep without much difficulty, and even without melatonin I usually take in such cases. Next day I was a bit slow, but no hangover of any kind. Consequent days were nice, even with slightly elevated mood than usual, because memories of experience enlighten me.
Summary
This was amazing, truly psychedelic, mind and soul opening experience, shared with friends and leaving only wonderful memories. It was not very deep or perspective-changing, but instead warm and joyful. I really liked it, have no second thoughts and don't want to change anything. I can relate that under alcohol I also could experience similar state of joy, friendship and good vibe, but never with it I can experience such openness of senses, sense of wonder and beauty of things around me and beautiful visuals. Even euphoria was so strong, Pity that only small percentage of populace can do it, even rarely, but poison themselves with booze instead each weekend. 4-HO-MET for me confirmed its character as mild and euphoric, and had beautiful synergy with LSD.
