I was IVing my Suboxone a little bit more often than I'd like to admit to, recently (was doing this every day for about two weeks. May not sound bad, but I've only been sober since the middle of December). I had an IV dope habit prior to this. I DO want to remain sober; that is not the issue here...
The "issue", I guess, is that I've realized that I enjoy injecting Suboxone! I don't even get a rush or much out of it, I just feel the need to do it. I am one of those recovering dope addicts that just CAN'T put down the needle. I have a compelling urge to spike up, sometimes so strong of an urge that I will shoot water. It's SO fucking strange to me, though, because I do not crave dope in any way! Has anyone else had this happen? I DID switch back to putting these films under my tongue, but I want SO bad to IV these!
Oh, by the way, I've been living in a sober living house for the past few days, and I refuse to fuck this up. I don't want to get kicked out cause I was IVing a Suboxone! That's not how I want to go! I want to stay here and be safe! Anyone got suggestions for how I can slowly teach myself to really put down the rig?