Since I have last been on I have experienced much more of these drugs. I hung out with a friend who uses and has been using for years, he injects of course, I stick to my skillet. He uses pretty much the same way Tommyboy was saying he uses. He's got serious connects so lucky for me being a new user I'm able to get fire h and crystal. I've had shitty quality stuff as well, so I can tell the difference. Anyways the past week I kicked it with him I used everyday even though I wasn't buying he always smoked me out, very generous person. The seventh day I took sober, but by night I felt like shit. Big headache, cold sweats, and I could not get comfortable at all. If I tried laying still to go to sleep I would get so uncomfortable that I had to sit up, It's hard to explain but my arms were so uncomfortable I punched one of them as hard as I could to get rid of the uncomfortable feeling, but it just hurt really fucking bad and left a bruise. Overall it was an extremely shitty night, I got about a total of 30-45 minutes of sleep. The next morning I felt much better after I had coffee and breakfast. This was my first somewhat of a withdrawal. My friend had warned me I would have minor w/d symptoms, and I had anticipated them on my own as well. I can imagine what a w/d after weeks or months of use would be like (hell). I toughed it out though, and stayed sober the next two days. During my sober days I felt fine. By the way during those six days it was heroin only I was using. Toward the end of my third day sober my friend introduced me to a good friend of his who smoked me out till I was good and nodded, later that night after we ate a bunch he smoked me out with a good amount of meth. I was extremely sparked, stayed up the whole night and went to bed early in the morning. It was my first time using meth in about a month and it was fun, toward morning though I felt way drained. I've been sober one day now currently. My user friend is a serious person when it comes to drugs, the kind of person that would check me if I got out of line. The other night when we were sparked we carried out a three hour conversation. One of the serious ones, about life, drugs, people, us, and lots of other stuff. At the end we decided we both needed some sober time to get clear headed and on top of our priorities. I personally want to stay sober for about 2-3 weeks from anything except coffee, and the pot I smoke at night. He is going to try for a week I believe.
You guys were right about my mind changing after the drugs. I've had both positive and negative changes on certain thoughts. Fuck using once a month, I know that if I get smoked out on the weekends or buy a half gram for two day use I'll be fine if I can leave a certain amount of days in between use. Now I'm not saying that I'll be using every weekend, but I will definitely be using more than once a month. I have become more fond of the drug, but I also KNOW what it takes to avoid physical addiction, like my user friend knows as well but he told me that it was years before he starting using like that. I do like the drug and there is nothing wrong with that. I am full aware of the risks associated with what I am doing. Everyone has their "guilty pleasure" whether it be junk food, cigarettes, pornography, or anything else humans like that we know are bad for us (physically and/or mentally). Right now mine happens to be heroin, but it sure as hell isn't junk food, ciggs, or porn. Addiction is a risk associated with heroin that I am full aware of. Just like a husband or wife cheating on their other knows they run the risk of getting caught resulting in emotional problems and relationship problems. Or people who enjoy fast/junk food know that they run the risk of obesity or diabetes or any other poor diet related illness. I went through all the posts and feel a lot different than my first post. Not to say that I don't like my outdoor activities ( I still do just as much), but i feel different thoughts about my use. My thoughts are always evolving as this thread grows, I really do appreciate everyone's input. What do you guys think now? Same thoughts? Different advice?