• The Dark Side 💕 Welcome Guest 💕
    Posting Rules Bluelight Rules
    Notable Threads Urgent Hotlines
    Bereavement Mindfulness
    Suicide Support Anger Management
  • TDS Moderators: AlphaMethylPhenyl | paranoid android

New Chapter

L

louisvillemusicman

Bluelighter
Joined
Nov 29, 2010
Messages
74
Location
Louisville, KY
Well, seeing how my life was slowly spiraling out of control, I decided that I am just completely done with all drugs (minus cigarettes). I told all my friends that if they find out I have used anything at all, they need to stop hanging out with me. It's time to fix this problem before it is too late. This is really going to suck. I haven't remained sober for more than 4 days in probably 5 months. So lets hope this works! Wish me luck guys
Thanks
Love & peace,
Ben
 
Good luck man! What is it that you're quitting, exactly? Perhaps we could offer some specific advice.
 
Good luck, Ben. This is very inspiring, and I think you'll be a lot happier after you accomplish this. It takes a lot of courage and I think it will pay off.
 
Pot and Focalin are the regulars but I'll really go for anything I can get. Those are the two that are really getting to me. The others don't happen enough for them to be specific problems but it's just the generality of my drug use.
 
A good buddy of mine last year told his (non-using) friends to stop hanging out with him if he continued to use, he did continue, and then just ended up a drug addict in isolation. Point is, YOU really gotta want it inside (not to meet the conditions of some "agreement"). If you don't, your friends dwindling away because of some pact you set up will probably lead to further desires to medicate yourself, further isolation, repeat, etc.

But if YOU want it, you don't need to put unnecessary pressures on your friendships like that. Just pick and choose wisely who you associate with, when and where.

Do your friends, those who are "holding you accountable," also use the same drugs? If so, this might not work out so well, but if not, then you've got a solid network around you in the future.

Overall, though, great choice to remove the unhealthy components of your life. It might suck not having the highs, but you'll benefit from clarity of mind, connection with your thoughts and feelings, and the freedom that a life not submissive to any given intoxicant will have. Keep it up, let us know how it goes. You can do it!
 
RedLeader said:
YOU really gotta want it inside (not to meet the conditions of some "agreement"). If you don't, your friends dwindling away because of some pact you set up will probably lead to further desires to medicate yourself, further isolation, repeat, etc.

But if YOU want it, you don't need to put unnecessary pressures on your friendships like that. Just pick and choose wisely who you associate with, when and where.

Do your friends, those who are "holding you accountable," also use the same drugs? If so, this might not work out so well, but if not, then you've got a solid network around you in the future.

Overall, though, great choice to remove the unhealthy components of your life. It might suck at first not having those highs, but you'll benefit from clarity of mind, connection with your thoughts and feelings, and the freedom that a life not submissive to any given intoxicant will have. Keep it up, let us know how it goes. You can do it!
Click to expand...

... i was going to say this, word for word!
;)
 
louisvillemusicman said:
This is really going to suck. I haven't remained sober for more than 4 days in probably 5 months. So lets hope this works! Wish me luck guys
Thanks
Love & peace,
Ben
Click to expand...

It probably is going to suck in the beginning but you know it is going to all feel worth it in the end. I wish you the absolute best of luck! Put me on your PM list if you need someone to talk to during the hard times.<3
 
I'm not trying to put the pressure of this onto my friends. I felt really weird telling them that but I did it because I've tried to stop before and I had no motivation or reason to. Now I do. Now if I fuck up, I lose my friends and that is a good reason not to fuck up
 
yeah, but you lose a friend and gain ones that will never let you down. as said above, you'd just become isolated, losing a support network.
 
Yeah, I don't know that it's the best means of 'forcing yourself'. Maybe telling your friends that you want to quit, and need their support and care so that they don't enable to you keep using?
 
They understand. The people I told this to I love to death and I am willing to stop using drugs to keep the people I care about most. I've gotten day two of sobriety almost accomplished (1.5 hours left) and I really don't think I'll be going back to that.
Thismorning when I went to take all my medicine (I'm prescribed Welbutrin and Focalin) and I looked at the Focalin pill, laughed and threw it down the drain
I am really confident that this time will be the last time I have to deal with this
 
That's great to hear!

Confidence is good, but "I got this"-ness can be dangerous. Try and focus on your hobbies and interests, school/professional work and the like for sources of accomplishment, as throwing your pills down the drain will get boring pretty soon. I cannot stress enough how important it is, in your early sober/clean time, to have a solid backbone of goals that you're working toward. When you had bad days, which you will, you can latch onto the progress that you're (still) making toward your goals and even embellish in that a bit to feel a bit of instant gratification. Your friends will notice this too in a bit of time, and will likely compliment you on what you've got going on, which you'll come to understand is a good feeling much more natural/pure than most of the common drug highs.

You've got 2 days down, now take it to 4. Then 8, 16, 32, and so on. Man, let me tell you that no matter how focused you might be on counting those days in the beginning (man, I was etching tally marks into my bed post!), time will start going by too fast to pay attention to the count, and that's when you're really absorbed in your new life - a life of fun, confidence, freedom and being lived by the person you are deep down.

Godspeed, my man, and I'm so glad to hear that you're off to a great start! :)
 
I play bass so I think I am now going to use that as an outlet to kill boredom and negative feelings
because when I get a song down that I haven't been able to before, I feel fantastic! I don't know how I didn't think of that before
 
You must log in or register to reply here.
Top