while it's easy to let the brain be lazy and group people so tightly together as black white or even "shades" of these colors, when I really get out into the world and look at people I find there are more possibilities than I allowed myself to perceive initially, automatically. for instance, yesterday while walking into a license branch I thought to hold the door open for big black girl walking behind me. I do this for anyone male female regardless of anything, but I wasn't interested from the corner of my eyes. sitting down, she sat next to me, and glancing her features, her energy- the way she carried herself, the pleasant appearance... I became attracted to her, potentially in very intimate ways.
I am attracted to all races, but when I'm actually with these girls, so far something has always felt lacking if they weren't white. This isn't to say that there's a direct correlation, or that I'll always feel this way. I haven't really had any dates with a black girl, though, or attempts to be that close other than sexual encounters. I really don't have the experience to say what I know (that I don't know that) I'd feel given enough time being around/with. I grew up in a midwestern town, southern Indiana, lots of corn, and other farms, and just a few black people or people of any other race. Asian people opened up restaurants, as did Mexican... but I didn't actually see many girls my age of those ethnicities or get chances to interact with any males either. It probably wasn't until I went to college that I had much exposure to other races, and even then that was probably mostly white. Now, living in Indianapolis, and having more exposure, I can say that it's more likely that I'd date a black girl than any other race, besides white... simply because of how many there are to choose from. One is likely to catch my attention, which happens.
So I guess much of it is my exposure... definitely familiarity. My experiences with the girls of other ethnicities are limited, anyway... but I guess I just said so far something has felt like it's missing.. and although I've thought it was something to do with ethnic origin and features and ways... I can't honestly say that..
At this point, I'm open. But "white" is very ingrained.