Grondelduck
Bluelighter
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- Aug 1, 2011
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Next week I have my exams, and I still have about 1500 pages to read this weekend for the upcoming exams.
A little about me: I have ADD, my attention-span is incredibly short and very sporadic. Knowing I'd never get all that reading done without some external 'help' I decided to get a gram of amphetamine to help me focus and get stuff done. I find speed to be more practical then dexamph, which I am prescribed. The amphetamine was uncut and pure, and I was told this when I got it, but of course I was a bit skeptical. This person had been providing me with speed in the past, and I knew I wouldn't get junk, but still. Having done my fair share of speed in the past (to the point which one might consider an addiction), I had an idea of what to expect. I should mention I have quite an addictive nature though, but I hadn't touched speed for a month already and thought I could easily control myself.
Anyway, on to the studying. I cancelled all plans for the evening and made a schedule of what to learn and such. After taking about 50mg (eyeballed) I instantly noticed this was far stronger then the average streetspeed one would usually get. Strong rushes of energy and happiness ensued. I put on some nice dancesets to listen to on the background. I started reading a few pages, but the music was too tempting and I found myself rocking back and forth in my chair to the melody. Passed a mirror and saw my pupils were black abysses.
The urge to socialize was so strong I gave into it, so I hopped on facebook and started chatting to this girl I've been into for some time. Just for a few minutes, I told myself, and then I'll get back to studying.
I did another line to get the focus I desired, and got back to reading. For about 2 minutes.
"Hey, I might as well check if *person* is online on World of warcraft (yeah, I know, but in my defense; I mainly play it because of the social aspect ). He was, and I got tempted into playing, "just a few minutes", I told him.
About 1h later I decided I should really go to work now, and I took another small line and got back to reading.
At which point a good friend of mine came online, who had been feeling quite depressed the last months. We had a great meaningful conversation about everything concerning our lives for about an hour. Definitely not wasted time, but I still hadn't done any reading done.
At this point I felt so strongly stimulated I decided to take 1.5ml of gbl to straighten it out a bit. Or so I thought. The gbl hit me hard, and I got on my phone, texted another friend about how the world would be a better place if all shared his kindness. While I was at it I also texted a few girlfriends about how freaking awesome they were, and how much I loved them.
Got back on my pc, and started talking to the before-mentioned depressive friend, and how conveyed my gigantic amount of love for him as well.
"Hm, might as well download some new tunes while I'm on my pc anyway."
I noticed the gbl was hitting me far harder then I expected, so it felt naturally to counter that with another small line of speed. There, back to reading now.
"OH GOD I LOVE THIS TRACK, what was it again?" Dancing across my room, I started texting another girl from my uni who was unaware of my druguse, and started expressing my incredible admiration for her kindness and such.
At this point about 4 hours had passed since I began 'studying'. It was about 2am, so I decided to check on my friends who did go out that evening, and see if they were having a good night as well. And made plans for the next 2 weeks while I was at it anyway.
The amphetamine, being far stronger then I expected, was overpowering (in a good way, though not for studying). I decided to take another .5ml of gbl, and started reading a page or 2 again.
At this point I felt too 'relaxed and lovelydovely, so I took a wee bit of amph to get the desired focus back. Not too long after I found myself dancing about the room a bit, and I decided studying was out of the question for the night.
I took 3mg of Etizolam to calm down a bit, with little effect. After 1h I mainly felt residual stimulation, and got tired of that very fast, so I took 2ml of gbl to get to that cozy place again.
At which point I felt the urge to share my evening, but of course everybody was already fast asleep at this time (5am). So off to bluelight I went!
Which brings us to this moment. At the time of writing it's 6.18am and the gbl has settled in quite nicely.
So, all in all, I got about 10 pages of reading done, a few hours of conversation and lots of love spread
No regrets, it was a productive night, although in a different way then I intended it to be :D
Dropping 15mg of zopiclone now and hopefully drift off in a blissful sleep.
TLDR: Amphetamine was stronger then anticipated, much love spread and little work done.
Much love!
Tagged by bindingaffinity
substancecode_amphetamine
substancecode_amphetamines
substancecode_stimulants
substancecode_gbl
substancecode_gabaergics
substancecode_etizolam
substancecode_benzos
_combo_
explevel_experienced
exptype_positive
roacode_oral
A little about me: I have ADD, my attention-span is incredibly short and very sporadic. Knowing I'd never get all that reading done without some external 'help' I decided to get a gram of amphetamine to help me focus and get stuff done. I find speed to be more practical then dexamph, which I am prescribed. The amphetamine was uncut and pure, and I was told this when I got it, but of course I was a bit skeptical. This person had been providing me with speed in the past, and I knew I wouldn't get junk, but still. Having done my fair share of speed in the past (to the point which one might consider an addiction), I had an idea of what to expect. I should mention I have quite an addictive nature though, but I hadn't touched speed for a month already and thought I could easily control myself.
Anyway, on to the studying. I cancelled all plans for the evening and made a schedule of what to learn and such. After taking about 50mg (eyeballed) I instantly noticed this was far stronger then the average streetspeed one would usually get. Strong rushes of energy and happiness ensued. I put on some nice dancesets to listen to on the background. I started reading a few pages, but the music was too tempting and I found myself rocking back and forth in my chair to the melody. Passed a mirror and saw my pupils were black abysses.
The urge to socialize was so strong I gave into it, so I hopped on facebook and started chatting to this girl I've been into for some time. Just for a few minutes, I told myself, and then I'll get back to studying.
I did another line to get the focus I desired, and got back to reading. For about 2 minutes.
"Hey, I might as well check if *person* is online on World of warcraft (yeah, I know, but in my defense; I mainly play it because of the social aspect ). He was, and I got tempted into playing, "just a few minutes", I told him.
About 1h later I decided I should really go to work now, and I took another small line and got back to reading.
At which point a good friend of mine came online, who had been feeling quite depressed the last months. We had a great meaningful conversation about everything concerning our lives for about an hour. Definitely not wasted time, but I still hadn't done any reading done.
At this point I felt so strongly stimulated I decided to take 1.5ml of gbl to straighten it out a bit. Or so I thought. The gbl hit me hard, and I got on my phone, texted another friend about how the world would be a better place if all shared his kindness. While I was at it I also texted a few girlfriends about how freaking awesome they were, and how much I loved them.
Got back on my pc, and started talking to the before-mentioned depressive friend, and how conveyed my gigantic amount of love for him as well.
"Hm, might as well download some new tunes while I'm on my pc anyway."
I noticed the gbl was hitting me far harder then I expected, so it felt naturally to counter that with another small line of speed. There, back to reading now.
"OH GOD I LOVE THIS TRACK, what was it again?" Dancing across my room, I started texting another girl from my uni who was unaware of my druguse, and started expressing my incredible admiration for her kindness and such.
At this point about 4 hours had passed since I began 'studying'. It was about 2am, so I decided to check on my friends who did go out that evening, and see if they were having a good night as well. And made plans for the next 2 weeks while I was at it anyway.
The amphetamine, being far stronger then I expected, was overpowering (in a good way, though not for studying). I decided to take another .5ml of gbl, and started reading a page or 2 again.
At this point I felt too 'relaxed and lovelydovely, so I took a wee bit of amph to get the desired focus back. Not too long after I found myself dancing about the room a bit, and I decided studying was out of the question for the night.
I took 3mg of Etizolam to calm down a bit, with little effect. After 1h I mainly felt residual stimulation, and got tired of that very fast, so I took 2ml of gbl to get to that cozy place again.
At which point I felt the urge to share my evening, but of course everybody was already fast asleep at this time (5am). So off to bluelight I went!
Which brings us to this moment. At the time of writing it's 6.18am and the gbl has settled in quite nicely.
So, all in all, I got about 10 pages of reading done, a few hours of conversation and lots of love spread
No regrets, it was a productive night, although in a different way then I intended it to be :D
Dropping 15mg of zopiclone now and hopefully drift off in a blissful sleep.
TLDR: Amphetamine was stronger then anticipated, much love spread and little work done.
Much love!
Tagged by bindingaffinity
substancecode_amphetamine
substancecode_amphetamines
substancecode_stimulants
substancecode_gbl
substancecode_gabaergics
substancecode_etizolam
substancecode_benzos
_combo_
explevel_experienced
exptype_positive
roacode_oral