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badfish45 said:
Worst of my "withdrawal" from the weed is finally going away, so I'm sure the next 5-6 weeks will fly by :)
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Man that is awesome to hear, keep it up badfish!! <3


I feel blurry :|
My cat has been sleeping on my pillow for the past week since my other cat passed away, and thus the fur she's left on there has given me a shocking allergic reaction. My eyes are so itchy and blurry, I can hardly see dagnammit! :!
 
Now n3o, what have we said about talking like a grizzled 1840s prospector?

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ATM: Awake? I have a day off, and what does my body do? Wakes me up at 5 in the bloody morning, that's what. /sigh
 
^ But, Dave , now you get a longer day off!

n3o--goldurnit, I fergot about that word dagnammit =D durn gud word!

Bad--hooray for passing hard stuff!<3

me: rainy along with the day
 
Optimistic

Got some good feedback from tutors at uni for illustration. Just been set an 85-hour minimum project. It's daunting, but at the same time I can't wait to see where it'll take me. It's been a year in the making, but now life is making me happy again, as opposed to down and despondent.
 
herbavore said:
Hey, JS, that is great news. I love seeing your work in SO. :)
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Ahh cheers! The amount of work I'm producing is testament to my mood. Last year I barely created one decent thing, was working horrible hours 5 days a week and getting counselling for drug addiction...University is what I needed, it seems.
 
procrastinating :|
I seem to do a lot of that.....

Dave said:
Now n3o, what have we said about talking like a grizzled 1840s prospector?
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Hahahahaha :D I'll talk how I want garnsarnit!! =D


herbavore said:
n3o--goldurnit, I fergot about that word dagnammit =D durn gud word!
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Haha, I've been saying it a little bit recently, I dunno where it came from :D
Hope you're feeling more sunny today herby, *big hugs* <3


JSPete said:
Optimistic

Got some good feedback from tutors at uni for illustration. Just been set an 85-hour minimum project. It's daunting, but at the same time I can't wait to see where it'll take me. It's been a year in the making, but now life is making me happy again, as opposed to down and despondent.
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That is awesome JSPete!! Very exciting. Well done :)
 
i'm so fucking sad right now, mix of chaotic feelings. i'm so scared. just graduated rehab/halfway, and now i can esly do drugs freely.

been going thru shit with the girlfriend.
the last time we talked was a few days ago, i calld her house and her step dad answerd the phone and calld out 2 her that she had a call. she told me a sob story about she gets like this at times.. but i kno sorta by her peraonality that she jus doesnt sit at the house all day and work, i really think that shes been going out.i really think shes seeing someone else, shits hard.
:(
its just so hard for me 2 grasp, here i am working a minimum wage job trying to support myself, and her i guess, i dont argue or fight back, theres been no, zero, conflict in our relationship sofar. its just fucked up that she told me that she gave me her heart etcetc, and i litterly gave her my heart, i even told her that. and this is how she repays me...
 
badfish45 said:
Don't assume anything. Whether it's likely true, you don't know for sure, so don't get yourself worked up over something you don't know about.
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easy 2 say mate, and i'm tryn not 2 get worked up over it.. she told me she loved me, that im her baby etc, so im sure she has to be getting my texts and phone calls, does she just look at her phone and see that im calling and just click ingnore?
i have a feeling that she's seeing someone else, probly some 1 that makes more money then me and drives a fancy car. hope she relises that when she was with me she seem'd happy, we did happy things.
i bought her a awesome picture taht someone did using spray paint n shit and she put it up n her room, does she think about me when she see's it? or did she take it down.
i really dont know.

one of my close friends on bluelight told me to ignore her for 2 days,48 hours, then after 48 hours, shoot her a text asking her out 4 dinner. if she doesn't reply then i know that it truly wasnt ment to be. :/

i have a PI calling me in the morning.. trippd out and thought about hiring one, but why waste the cash.
 
that's sound advice from your friend. And of course it's so much easier said than done, that goes for just about anything. Just know that most of the time the thoughts racing through my head usually end up to be irrational fear. Love is hella confusing and tough man.
 
badfish45 said:
that's sound advice from your friend. And of course it's so much easier said than done, that goes for just about anything. Just know that most of the time the thoughts racing through my head usually end up to be irrational fear. Love is hella confusing and tough man.
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it's so hard 2 let go.. letting go of drugs make this shit like a cake walk, i want 2 turn 2 drugs so bad. i (was) a hardcore needle junky, and if i go back thats where i'm going to go. I kno if i use then i'm going to overdose.
its a permanent solution for a temporay problem,. i dont understand love either man, here i gave a girl everything i could. and its like.. is this how she repays me? ..
shits fucking with my emotions hardcore, i hate this shit. i want 2 let go . something inside me is telling me other wise. dunno wat it is, havnt found it yet.
Maybe just maybe its my hearts way of telling me this isn't over yet.
btw i love ur avatar <3
 
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rangrz said:
We do not forgive, we do got forgive, we are legion expect us!
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Pray that shit brother!! Are you into the uncut and or occupy movements also by any chance? Heavily bielieve in these causes;)

OT: I'm Better than i was yesterday, horrible sleep disturbances though, so much negitave shit goin on in the world. But im pullin up ok, another few days and the worst will be out of the system i hopes.
 
What's a good word for "really-awake/wanna-do-something-crazy/horny/craving-something-unknown"?

I'm Zoom x 1000 currently
 
Wow Carl that is quite a lot of zoom!! 8o :D
I wish you could transpose some of that zoom on to me...I kinda need it.

I am feeling so completely unmotivated and bored. It's Saturday evening and I'm probably going to be in bed by 9pm :|


D's said:
it's so hard 2 let go.. letting go of drugs make this shit like a cake walk, i want 2 turn 2 drugs so bad. i (was) a hardcore needle junky, and if i go back thats where i'm going to go. I kno if i use then i'm going to overdose.
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D's it is hard to let go of someone but remember all the hard work you've done to get clean. Please don't sacrifice all of that. I know it feels really shitty right now but pretty soon you will start to feel better, without resorting to drugs. It might not be tomorrow, or the next day, but you WILL feel better soon. Please don't go back to using <3
 
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