I am also considering going boozeless. Except I can't really conceive it. Can't just have one at the moment, must get absolutely shit faced. Forget loads of shit from a night sometimes too, or just make a twat of myself. Or both!
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NOvember 2.0 (alcohol free)
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monstanoodle
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Thankyou ever so much ((((((((((( Effie ))))))))))) 
Yea, I think the viscious circle is an ultimate downfall that I need to get out of. Old habits don't go easily though ay?
I should except more help. I don't want to end up in hospital again.
(((((( Wibz )))))) I'm the same, having "just the one" is not an easy task is it![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
I really wish you the best too hun I hope we can all make this decision, stick to it and come out of it all the better for it.
Yea, I think the viscious circle is an ultimate downfall that I need to get out of. Old habits don't go easily though ay?
I should except more help. I don't want to end up in hospital again.
(((((( Wibz )))))) I'm the same, having "just the one" is not an easy task is it
I really wish you the best too hun
I hope we can all make this decision, stick to it and come out of it all the better for it.
Well I'm happy to say that I've been alcohol-free for 2 weeks today. I have a tentative date for social drinking on around the 10th of December, but before then I want to go to the doctors, get a full liver/kidney check, glucose and thyroid panels, as well as anything else I can think of, to make sure I'm at 100%. I'm currently taking Milk Thistle until I finish a full bottle, and some vitamin B supplements as well.
It started with a feeling of pressure just below my left rib cage that I notice would flare up, and this was especially bad the day after I drank. Then I would get cold feet. I just couldn't get them warm, no matter how hard I tried, and my big toe had some numb spots in it. After abstaining now for two weeks, the pressure has gone away (except when I eat a huge meal, then it flares up a little) and while my feet are still abnormally cold at times, most of the time I can keep them warm with socks and a blanket. Also, feeling has come back to my toes which is nice.
I'm not exactly sure what it was, but I have a feeling that it had to do with alcohol and my diet. I'm not sure if abstaining will allow me to drink normally again or not. I guess I'll find out later.
It started with a feeling of pressure just below my left rib cage that I notice would flare up, and this was especially bad the day after I drank. Then I would get cold feet. I just couldn't get them warm, no matter how hard I tried, and my big toe had some numb spots in it. After abstaining now for two weeks, the pressure has gone away (except when I eat a huge meal, then it flares up a little) and while my feet are still abnormally cold at times, most of the time I can keep them warm with socks and a blanket. Also, feeling has come back to my toes which is nice.
I'm not exactly sure what it was, but I have a feeling that it had to do with alcohol and my diet. I'm not sure if abstaining will allow me to drink normally again or not. I guess I'll find out later.
Sepher
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Cyc, a good and timely thread. Mind if I tag along on it? Lately I have managed to convince myself that, psychologically speaking, it will in the long run be best if I try to stay sober and manage my alcohol addiction without relying on artificial aids like Disulfiram. Course, the reason I went onto the meds in the first place is because I had already proven to myself that I cannot manage it, and am seriously at risk of losing everything I've worked so damned hard to put in place over the last 10 years recovering from my previous addiction to Heroin. It's all bullshit enabling excuses of course. I know that rationally. Just I'm so damned good at rationalising things away if that will let me drink. So, I here and now resolve to 1) Keep taking the bloody tablets, because that will help with 2) Stop fucking drinking Sepher you daft twat! :banghead: 
I recognise the 4 day on then recover mode. I'm a binge drinker, rather than someone with a true physical dependency for alcohol. I don't get DTs when I stop for instance. I still define myself as alcoholic, because once I start I can't stop. The only thing that stops me is my own body protesting that after 3 or 4 days it can no longer take any more alcohol into its system, and no point trying to force another one on it cos it will quite literally throw it straight back in my face! Then it's recovery mode for a coupla days while my body tries to burn it off, and I can smell the booze coming out through my pores. My liver function tests out ok, but clearly my body isn't processing the alcohol like it used to, and the longer this goes on the more and more it's having a deleterious effect. It's aging me at a ferocious pace. It's gotta stop.
Hope November treats you well Cyc, and may you enjoy all that it brings all the more being sober enough to fully appreciate things.
And hey Monsta. I think my alcohol issues largely stem from the fact that my mam's effectively alcoholic, and while I was trying to turn my life around living with her made it all too easy to follow down the road she's on. You have my sympathies. I know it's gotta be hard as hell for you trying to stay sober when you're surrounded by booze. Hang in there fella.
I recognise the 4 day on then recover mode. I'm a binge drinker, rather than someone with a true physical dependency for alcohol. I don't get DTs when I stop for instance. I still define myself as alcoholic, because once I start I can't stop. The only thing that stops me is my own body protesting that after 3 or 4 days it can no longer take any more alcohol into its system, and no point trying to force another one on it cos it will quite literally throw it straight back in my face! Then it's recovery mode for a coupla days while my body tries to burn it off, and I can smell the booze coming out through my pores. My liver function tests out ok, but clearly my body isn't processing the alcohol like it used to, and the longer this goes on the more and more it's having a deleterious effect. It's aging me at a ferocious pace. It's gotta stop.
Hope November treats you well Cyc, and may you enjoy all that it brings all the more being sober enough to fully appreciate things.
And hey Monsta. I think my alcohol issues largely stem from the fact that my mam's effectively alcoholic, and while I was trying to turn my life around living with her made it all too easy to follow down the road she's on. You have my sympathies. I know it's gotta be hard as hell for you trying to stay sober when you're surrounded by booze. Hang in there fella.
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Captain.Heroin
Bluelight Crew
Potentially Triggering
Roughly a half year of severe, excruciating, uninhabitable pain caused my buprenorphine taper to go in the opposite direction, five fold, just to get bare-minimal pain relief as the medical professionals that dealt with me wouldn't prescribe anything beyond 5mg percocet or 7.5mg hydrocodone (I wouldn't feel anything from these without far surpassing the "recommended dosage").
Anyways, because of this, I've been actively wanting to continue on my taper.
Warning: The information related to my plans on how to continue tapering, may be triggering to some people. Please be advised that I don't want you to have to risk being triggered, which is why I wrote this warning and NSFW'd the "possibly triggering" parts.
This is just my current journey; I deliberately put most of this post in NSFW just in case anyone would be triggered by anything I said above.
Last but not least, GOOD LUCK to everyone who is planning on doing something similar to what I am, whether it's total abstinence from all drugs, total abstinence from just one drug, or anything else even as little as wanting to make cut-backs in current drug use. I know that when we put our minds to it, we can do it.
One last thought I just had; please be well aware not to go from full fledged physical dependence to abstinence overnight, especially to drugs like ethanol and benzodiazepines. It is important to slowly cut back one's usage , at least for just a few days, before quitting for good, otherwise, there are potentially hazardous results such as seizures. Please, have a back up plan in case your current plan doesn't work out.
Roughly a half year of severe, excruciating, uninhabitable pain caused my buprenorphine taper to go in the opposite direction, five fold, just to get bare-minimal pain relief as the medical professionals that dealt with me wouldn't prescribe anything beyond 5mg percocet or 7.5mg hydrocodone (I wouldn't feel anything from these without far surpassing the "recommended dosage").
Anyways, because of this, I've been actively wanting to continue on my taper.
Warning: The information related to my plans on how to continue tapering, may be triggering to some people. Please be advised that I don't want you to have to risk being triggered, which is why I wrote this warning and NSFW'd the "possibly triggering" parts.
NSFW:
This is just my current journey; I deliberately put most of this post in NSFW just in case anyone would be triggered by anything I said above.
Last but not least, GOOD LUCK to everyone who is planning on doing something similar to what I am, whether it's total abstinence from all drugs, total abstinence from just one drug, or anything else even as little as wanting to make cut-backs in current drug use. I know that when we put our minds to it, we can do it.
One last thought I just had; please be well aware not to go from full fledged physical dependence to abstinence overnight, especially to drugs like ethanol and benzodiazepines. It is important to slowly cut back one's usage , at least for just a few days, before quitting for good, otherwise, there are potentially hazardous results such as seizures. Please, have a back up plan in case your current plan doesn't work out.
Sepher
Bluelight Crew
Just by way of a bump . . .
Not had a drink for over a week now, and taking the Antabuse and Acamprosate religiously. Not craving too much, but have had a little help with that I need to be careful with. Need to check in with the addiction unit at some point the next week or so for a review of treatment, but got a drawer full of scripts for the meds should see me through till well into the New Year as it is, so really more about it being time to put the counselling back in place I think.
Feeling pretty good and together at the minute. It's nice not constantly flipping between permanently drunk / permanently hungover, doing loads better at work, moods lifting already, and generally a much nicer person for my girlfriend to be around. Not felt so positive in a while. Hope I can get something productive out of it, see if I can't make it last a while.
Not had a drink for over a week now, and taking the Antabuse and Acamprosate religiously. Not craving too much, but have had a little help with that I need to be careful with. Need to check in with the addiction unit at some point the next week or so for a review of treatment, but got a drawer full of scripts for the meds should see me through till well into the New Year as it is, so really more about it being time to put the counselling back in place I think.
Feeling pretty good and together at the minute. It's nice not constantly flipping between permanently drunk / permanently hungover, doing loads better at work, moods lifting already, and generally a much nicer person for my girlfriend to be around. Not felt so positive in a while. Hope I can get something productive out of it, see if I can't make it last a while.
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Hey, it's November already!
No alcohols so far. Last drink was Saturday, although I was certainly thinking of one at the end of work today.
This'll be fun! Say, as an aside, is anyone doing Movember as well as NOvember? I've got a couple weeks' beard going, and am debating doing a Kentucky Colonel-style mustache. Thoughts?
No alcohols so far. Last drink was Saturday, although I was certainly thinking of one at the end of work today.
This'll be fun! Say, as an aside, is anyone doing Movember as well as NOvember? I've got a couple weeks' beard going, and am debating doing a Kentucky Colonel-style mustache. Thoughts?
haha..
w01fg4ng
Bluelighter
I'm on board this month. This will be my 7th month of sobriety from alcohol. I'm hoping to keep up the stride as long as possible. Sobriety feels good for the most part.
Also, haven't shaved my face in 4 weeks lol
Also, haven't shaved my face in 4 weeks lol
Sepher
Bluelight Crew
Dave, I let a bit of a goatie go for a few weeks. Thought at 42 I must finally be able to grow something half approaching a decent one by now, and quite fancied the look for a change. After 4 weeks it still looked about as convincing as a 13 year olds, and shaved it off out of sheer embarassment at my obvious lack of testosterone. Could have let a shedding cat sleep on my face and have had more of a bloody 'tache stuck to my lip, so no, I'll not be joining you for Movember, but you knock yaself out! 
Missykins
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You might have mild pancreatitis or hepatitis (I don't mean infectious hepatitis).