Hey guys. Hope everyone is well! Hope none of my BLers were affected by Florence (and if so...I hope you are safe).
Florence got me thinking about natural disasters and being on methadone. What would a person do who lived in, say, Wilmington, NC this past week who was on methadone and was at a low "phase" (aka having to go to the clinic daily)? Would the clinic prep the patient with enough take homes? What if damage was worse than predicted and the clinics have to shut down longer than they thought and people don't have enough methadone?
There's some interesting articles on this subject that I found. Here's one that was written around the time of Hurricane Harvey last year (written by a former methadone addict who was PREGNANT during a natural disaster crisis and couldn't get her 'done):
https://www.vox.com/first-person/2017/9/8/16273590/hurricane-harvey-irma-methadone-heroin-addiction
These are the things that I think about, and definitely major downsides to methadone maintenance. If I don't get my methadone, my whole world will fall apart and I will feel awful for a LONG LONNNNG time. Luckily, I live down the street from my clinic. It's a 2.1 mile walk. Even with the worst of car troubles, I can walk there in 45 min...an hour if I'm in bad shape. There's also a bus that goes straight from my house there (which is rare on Atlanta's very poorly run bus system...usually you have to transfer 8 times to get somewhere you actually wanna go) which is a 20 minute commute ROUND TRIP (10 min there, 10 min back complete with stops). Even if one of Atlanta's notorioua 3 inch snowstorms that shut down the whole city pops up, as long as my clinic is open, I can get there...but them staying open is always what I worry about. Will hospitals give a MMT patient methadone if they need it badly enough? I've heard mixed answers. Methadone is so damned controlled...if you didn't read the article I posted above, there's a part where the woman needs to get to Denver to dose and her clinic got her a fucking HELICOPTER RIDE to Denver but they couldn't get a dose of methadone to her hope...getting a HELICOPTER PERSONALLY CHARTERED was easier than getting just one dose of this drug to someone deemed *not trustworthy enough* (bc she hadn't been a patient at the clinic long enough to earn takehomes). Ridiculous.
I'll be interested to see how maintenance treatment changes as this opioid epidemic continues to ravage the nation. If history repeats itself, which it has a tendency to do, I imagine methadone (and bupe even maybe) will become even more controlled than ever. However, it would be really nice if we could see our nation attempt something different this time around...if we could combat addiction the proper way by addressing the mental health issues behind it and taking away the criminality stigma attached to addiction...we could maybe have a chance. I know I didn't start finding success in my own treatment until I let my shame of addiction go...I told myself my drug use did not define me or mean that I was a bad person. That was such a huge load off of me when I let all of that go...I felt like I didn't need drugs to numb the pain and guilt I felt anymore.
My weekend was ok. Bf and I got into a huge fight Saturday...and, shamefully I admit that it was because I had drank too much and was being irrational. Not that he was completely innocent..but I took something small and made it a bigger deal than it should've been and got him, eventually, so angry that he , too, became irrational (even though he wasn't drunk, only i was) so two irrational people just began yelling at each other. It's not the first fight we've had like that, but it's definitely the first we've had like that in a long time...definitely since long before we broke up back in Feb. We got some sleep and woke up early Sunday morning full of apologies. We were righting about money, which is something we usually never fight about (and i like that about us, bc thats a big reason a lot of couples fight), so we agreed to not start doing that. Fighting sucks..both my bf and I can be yellers when we're upset...fortunately we're not *below the belt* hitters (not physically, i mean, i mean we don't drag mean, personal issues into our fights..we generally stick to the matters at hand ) and neither one of us is physical with the other. Just sucks though bc fighting with the ones you love always sucks. We make up always, but it still put a damper on the weekend.
Anyways, I need to get to work...lots to do, as usual. love yall