Thanks guys! The support is so appreciated.
I've learned some things about the nerve stimulator that make it unlikely I'll do that. I don't have much luck with "procedures" anyway, obviously. INfection, unexpected jolts...no thanks. PT is going really well, though. Actually making some progress with range of motion that hadn't happened before.
No updates on how I'm feeling, really. Still very roller-coaster-y. The melatonin and tizanidine didn't work last night so I'm going on about 41/2 hours of sleep. My doctor gave me samples of something else to take - Belsomra. Said there were no dependency issues. Got home and discovered that it says right in the pamphlet that you can experience withdrawal symptoms from abrupt discontinuation. F that. I've had enough "Withdrawal Symptoms" to last me a lifetime. I'm gonna up my melatonin a little and see how that works (which the doctor said was fine if it turned out I didn't like the Belsomra). My husband is out of town for several days so it will be easier to do some trial and error - not worrying about waking him up.
R13, yep, there has definitely been some straw grasping! I know it just takes time but it's hard not to try to find something to just make the bad feelings/feeling bad go away. I know this will be over when it's over and not a minute sooner. I'm getting pretty resolved to that. I'm just ready already, that's all. I know I'll look back on this in weeks, months, years and see it as one of the best decisions I ever made and not that big of a sacrifice, in the big scheme of things.
Thanks again guys. I really appreciated the uplift this morning.