First, I'm going to answer your questions and then I have some new information that I'd like some advice on if anybody has any.
1. Before my detox - I was on oxymorphone (supposed to be 60 mg, went up to as much as 120 and got oxycodone to last till my next Rx), trams - 50-150 mg per day as needed, tizanadine -- 2mg 3x a day. About nine months ago, my dr switched me from oxycodone to oxymorphone. Other than that, these meds had been on for 2 yrs. Abot two months ago, (new dr.) gabapentin - 300 mgs at bedtime got added. The xanax was not Rx (used to have an Rx for xanax years ago) - just have some available.
Now, since my detox - ~4mg of suboxone per day with this being my first day of taper down 25%, up until today I had been taking everything else as well. Something is making me feel like shit, though. I took only 1/3 of my trams pill (had lowered to 1 already when I started subs) and that's it. Except for Xanax because part of the shitty feeling is jitteriness that I can't shake with exercise or gabs. Hoping I'm not developing a xanax habit - taking 1mg or less a day though, so...
2. I have taken the xanax for the anxiety this situation has created, mostly. Also, to get through the 24 hr. Period of starting subs. Now, I'm taking it to help with the jittery, anxious feeling I'm getting everyday w/suboxone.
3. Yes, and I might do that if I find that its needed. I will probably try just a plain ole counselor, first though, as my profession would require me to self report if I "get treatment" for drug or alcohol problem.
4. My plan is to get off Suboxone as quickly as possible without having a lot of discompfort. I am starting PT to help with the pain (botched foot surgery that a corrective surgery made worse) and have relatively high hopes for that.
5. If things don't go as planned, I will definitely consider but please see 3. I'd rather have to self report myself than just go down in a ball of flames because I won't ask for help.
Is this sort of anxiety/agitation common with Suboxone? I'm trying to figure out if it is coming from the subs or if it a feeling I haven't ever really experienced before - unfulfillable craving. If it's the former, I need to decrease my sub intake as quickly as I planned and not worry too much about it. If it's the latter, I'm in trouble. My plan might not work. I go back and forth on whether or not I should switch back to the slow taper that I was failing miserably at - but have someone to administer to pills to me now so I can't take more than I should/am rx'd - which is now down to 30 mgs a day as of my next appointment, tomorrow. I have a friend who will go with me to that appointment - to help me be strong. I could definitely say I changed my mind and don't want to taper, because of the return of the pain, and probably be right back to where I was - pain free physically (mostly) but miserable spiritually. I'm not doing that, period. I just want to stop feeling this way as quickly as possible. I hate it and I can't work. I have ADD and an aderall rx I haven't been taken very often since I started taking opioids. For whatever reason, the opioids seemed to help with it for quite some time. It was after I switched to oxymorphone and got addicted to it that the ADD symptoms have returned. But being on Suboxone makes the ADD 10 fold worse and I'm in real danger of driving my career off track if I don't figure out how to get the fuck out of this spiral of opioid/opiod withdrawal/opiod withdrawal maintenance hell. Any advice here would be really appreciated, toothpastedog. Also and finally, I'm finding that mid point through the day 2mgs of subs wears off and I feel like I need more. If I try to take an entire 4mgs in the morning and be done with it, I'm crazy irritable all day and end up feeling like I need another .5 at night. If I wasn't having this anxiety and agitation, I'd be feeling a lot better about where I am. On an uptick - I haven't had an oxymorphone in about 2 weeks and no OxyContin in 5 and 1/2 days...yay - sort of.
1. Before my detox - I was on oxymorphone (supposed to be 60 mg, went up to as much as 120 and got oxycodone to last till my next Rx), trams - 50-150 mg per day as needed, tizanadine -- 2mg 3x a day. About nine months ago, my dr switched me from oxycodone to oxymorphone. Other than that, these meds had been on for 2 yrs. Abot two months ago, (new dr.) gabapentin - 300 mgs at bedtime got added. The xanax was not Rx (used to have an Rx for xanax years ago) - just have some available.
Now, since my detox - ~4mg of suboxone per day with this being my first day of taper down 25%, up until today I had been taking everything else as well. Something is making me feel like shit, though. I took only 1/3 of my trams pill (had lowered to 1 already when I started subs) and that's it. Except for Xanax because part of the shitty feeling is jitteriness that I can't shake with exercise or gabs. Hoping I'm not developing a xanax habit - taking 1mg or less a day though, so...
2. I have taken the xanax for the anxiety this situation has created, mostly. Also, to get through the 24 hr. Period of starting subs. Now, I'm taking it to help with the jittery, anxious feeling I'm getting everyday w/suboxone.
3. Yes, and I might do that if I find that its needed. I will probably try just a plain ole counselor, first though, as my profession would require me to self report if I "get treatment" for drug or alcohol problem.
4. My plan is to get off Suboxone as quickly as possible without having a lot of discompfort. I am starting PT to help with the pain (botched foot surgery that a corrective surgery made worse) and have relatively high hopes for that.
5. If things don't go as planned, I will definitely consider but please see 3. I'd rather have to self report myself than just go down in a ball of flames because I won't ask for help.
Is this sort of anxiety/agitation common with Suboxone? I'm trying to figure out if it is coming from the subs or if it a feeling I haven't ever really experienced before - unfulfillable craving. If it's the former, I need to decrease my sub intake as quickly as I planned and not worry too much about it. If it's the latter, I'm in trouble. My plan might not work. I go back and forth on whether or not I should switch back to the slow taper that I was failing miserably at - but have someone to administer to pills to me now so I can't take more than I should/am rx'd - which is now down to 30 mgs a day as of my next appointment, tomorrow. I have a friend who will go with me to that appointment - to help me be strong. I could definitely say I changed my mind and don't want to taper, because of the return of the pain, and probably be right back to where I was - pain free physically (mostly) but miserable spiritually. I'm not doing that, period. I just want to stop feeling this way as quickly as possible. I hate it and I can't work. I have ADD and an aderall rx I haven't been taken very often since I started taking opioids. For whatever reason, the opioids seemed to help with it for quite some time. It was after I switched to oxymorphone and got addicted to it that the ADD symptoms have returned. But being on Suboxone makes the ADD 10 fold worse and I'm in real danger of driving my career off track if I don't figure out how to get the fuck out of this spiral of opioid/opiod withdrawal/opiod withdrawal maintenance hell. Any advice here would be really appreciated, toothpastedog. Also and finally, I'm finding that mid point through the day 2mgs of subs wears off and I feel like I need more. If I try to take an entire 4mgs in the morning and be done with it, I'm crazy irritable all day and end up feeling like I need another .5 at night. If I wasn't having this anxiety and agitation, I'd be feeling a lot better about where I am. On an uptick - I haven't had an oxymorphone in about 2 weeks and no OxyContin in 5 and 1/2 days...yay - sort of.
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