I hear ya
I broke down when i read your post. I have a 2 year old daughter and one on the way, i promised i would never bring any drug related shit into their lives...and yet the grip heroin has on me keeps pulling me away. I just keep trying and trying to stop...cos i know i will lose her in months/years if i cant stop...The most beautiful and precious thing i had a part in making and yet the quiet desperation for another shot keeps eating away, and then i fall
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UOTE=shartito;14154342]I thought about this for a while. It’s a very intriguing question.
Having my 1 year old daughter look at me, and love me, and smile at me, and crawl on me and slobber on me, and think I’m perfect and infallible.
Having my five year old son sit on my lap while we watch a movie together and fall asleep on my lap.
That is honestly the only thing that feels better than opiates. And is the reason I want to quit before I lose complete control (which I’m getting close to...) So my children never find out what a fuck-up their dad is.[/QUOTE]
I broke down when i read your post. I have a 2 year old daughter and one on the way, i promised i would never bring any drug related shit into their lives...and yet the grip heroin has on me keeps pulling me away. I just keep trying and trying to stop...cos i know i will lose her in months/years if i cant stop...The most beautiful and precious thing i had a part in making and yet the quiet desperation for another shot keeps eating away, and then i fall
..
UOTE=shartito;14154342]I thought about this for a while. It’s a very intriguing question.
Having my 1 year old daughter look at me, and love me, and smile at me, and crawl on me and slobber on me, and think I’m perfect and infallible.
Having my five year old son sit on my lap while we watch a movie together and fall asleep on my lap.
That is honestly the only thing that feels better than opiates. And is the reason I want to quit before I lose complete control (which I’m getting close to...) So my children never find out what a fuck-up their dad is.[/QUOTE]