^. You are past the worst of it for sure. Now the trick is putting one foot in front of another until you feel like yourself again. It may take awhile, but trust the people who have done it...they say it gets better. I believe them - well, I have to believe them.
Shit, you jumped off 8 mgs of sub, what? Two weeks ago? Take a minute to appreciate what you have accomplished - which is Astro-fucking-nomical. If you feel like a zombie two weeks in...you just need to remember where you were at two months ago...and how far you've come. I know you've got a ways to go. I do too. I certainly don't feel human yet, either. But it could be worse - I could be staring down a c/t withdrawal off of oxy, so I can be grateful for that. At least I'm the middle of it, not at the starting line.
Do you have any support at home? I hope you have a loved one telling you every hour of the day how great you are doing.
You got this, Tin. Just one foot in front of the other until it's not a struggle. It's our only way out, you know? The further along I get in this process, the scarier where I came from is. I'm finally to the point where I am more afraid of what is behind me (heavy/regular opiate doses to relieve pain) than what is front of me - months of struggle and pushing through the PAWS. At least every freaking day I know I am getting better, even if it doesn't feel like that.
- VE