Was out of town this morning and felt like I did not need drugs any more, but as I approached my town the mood started sinking and reached a low point just before reaching my house, though inside the mood improved somewhat. The whole atmosphere of my town makes one want to use drugs with the bad vibe it gives off through the telepathic energy released by its inhabitants. And I thought I was the cause of the bad telepathy in my town. Now I blame it all on the negativity of unknown people and the fucked up experiment I was subjected to against my will without my knowledge when I had that OD after discovering my telepathic ability to attach people to me telepathically so I'd stop using drugs. All it did was make me miserable and did the same to them but many of them were volunteers from what I gather. Some of those people like it because they get my drug telepathy that makes them feel better.
Made me want to use even more drugs than before so it was a complete failure.
Will be dosing the kratom I did not think I'd need in a few minutes, about 20g. I had 2mg clonazepam about 4 hours ago before leaving for any anxiety I might have encountered but things just start to feel better once you are 5 miles or so away and very significantly better once you get 15 miles or so away. In the next town down it was like being in a mentally clean place but this town is like a collection of dirty bad vibes. I hear some of the people who were attached telepathically have managed to remove themselves and maybe when more do so things will improve but I'd love to just get out of this place.
Someone used a telepathic attack on me yesterday and made me feel like I was dying and caused my blood pressure to rise to 162/106 P113 from a near normal level and they attacked Lucky with their power too. The attack on me actually may have been on everyone who is telepathically attached to me and they all think (or hopefully now formerly thought) that I was the one who did all that shit to them. This is about the 7th or 8th time they have done it to me and they repeatedly do it to Lucky. I woke up at midnight with what I believe to be the same person doing shit to Lucky and this is not a relative doing it but someone else at least in this case but probably the other times they made my blood pressure do abnormal things without the ingestion of drugs. And it gave me no drug telepathy any of those times - just feelings I would have a seizure, stroke, and/or die.
To BingeBoy - just telepathy and haven't tripped in months
Took a huge amount of seroquel to weaken my nephew's telepathy because he was using his telepathic attack power to hurt Lucky and was making threats. I may have taken too much such that I might die but probably not because my heart rate is slowing back down. But it was the IR with some Latuda and prochlorperazine I put up my ass and 1,800mg of Seroquel XR I ate.
Now I am almost sure I won't die because I don't feel like I will but it hasn't all kicked in. I think it just took effect to fast up the ass.