When you drink like that ontop of benzos?
My 50mg diclazepam just didnt cut it today. 60mg in the afternoon with a pint of gin almost gone. 10mg methadone too, i need 3-4 2mg lopes again to not sniffle/tear. I hate myself sometimes. All the time im so dependent on feeling something. Family life kills me on the inside.
I just stole 15 10mg methadone. Make that 60mg in my blood, plus tobacco which I was holdin out on. God with my 'fresh' tolerance this is amazing. Lately snagging 20mg gets me noddin, so yeah.
Edit: Adding another 50mg to go with the last of my pint of Gin. I don't get this chance often, stealing dad's methadone. Fucker deserves it, has ruined pit family, and between the opioids and testosterone he takes he's fucking monster. If he was responsible with his meds and didnt have to buy more at the end of each month I'd let him be. Low low tol, 10mg @ 6pm, 50 @ 9pm, 50more now at 12:30. If only the diclaz I take hadd a recreational efffevt in me.... I'd be near OD territory, Either way, feelsgoodman. Shit, the methadone alone is near OD territory,
Edit: Took 30mg more, leavvvvvvvvving anotheer 80mmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmg sesh. I honestly think id die if my bennnzo tol didnt make me themm synergize, Got 2 shotso f gin left mixed into acollins glass and plenty of raspbery arizona tea. Sooooooo high i can't reallt do anything.
Missssion accomplished: NOD CITY for 2 days,
P.S. This edit took ages to type. Ant for my opie tolerance, 2-3 2mg loperamide pills lately stop the sniffles I get from WDs. So these are ultra high dosess.
Edit 2: Just took the other 80mg. Im not sure it'll be nod city for 2 days, but 1at least 1, and getting there is allllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll that matters. Also the tobacco, finished my pint of gin, and fanct crackers and cheese (brie?). With the free one offered to me before parents wentto wedding, plus 15 more thaken over the day, thats 160mg total. I've done this before with no tolerance (no neeeding to take a few lope to fight the snifffles) up to 90-120mg methadone before.