I post in bed. Sitting/standing for extended periods causes chronic pain. The standing is improving as I do PT, but my docs still dont know why I hurt so bad while I sit. PC-bed set up is win.
Taking 150mg dxm cough gells to mellow out, and have the rest later. My 50mg diclazapam just makes me normal, and going out in public to get this makes me want to redose that already (social anxiety). Waiting for the booze stores to open, getting a bottle. Haven't decided between cheap rum or gin. Prolly gin, its closer and higher proof. And those pipe tobaccos.
Edit: 10mg methadone too and postponing any extra dxm or it'll take away from the 'done. Gotta clean my room, and since I dropped my opioid dependency (switching with benzo, which treats the back muscle pain and anxiety very well) the 1 or 2 freebies I get I can actually feel. Brb, liquor store then clean time in a bit. Like, I'll actually end up itchy and a 2nd would get me noddy! That's been unheard of by myself for so long. Infact 150 already is kinda overpowering the done, but my receptors are being tickled which is enough, so I dont care. Seems more trippy since I did the 2g rue + ~15mg 4-aco-dmt yesterday. All I know is this filth needs gone, and I need to work up spent reserves. The ethanol on empty stomach has put me in a weird state. I take it easy on that, smoke, and enjoy motion/music euphoria, then clean time.