Ok my life is crap now, and you know what guys. I am happy for that I know it now, my life/sum people in it I know I can't trust no more, some very good friends.. damn man..
and no it aint because I fucked up again, because I did, paranoia kid in crib running around screaming, but from real reason, 3-4 guys
would beat me up (got witnesses) but they ran away or sum thing, I panicked totally still police, my mom, my stepmom,
I called them all I was going insane thrashed my place totally, the police took me into Psych, leaved 2 hours later, home to crib again, all the city have heard me and im getting laughed at, or people look fuckin scared, they really do look scared lol. my "gf" is still keep on makin me feel worse on myself,
keeps texting/calling that I am an idiot and I don't deserve her, I did let go on her because I know she is with someone ells and thats fair just let my own life now. But she keep on going I love u/I hate u, u end as nothing etc. And many people are supporting her. Even about the most evil things, sum do.
Sorry I haven't answered all the post to me, and I keep o sayin I would.. I really will, just don't have the focus/mind right now. Don't know shite to do anymore. Have been heard music all day just sippin cola,
see my crib gets more worse and worse. And if it aint bad enough
, I idiot have ordered sum mdpv + the mxe man yesterday.. I have to flush the mdpv,
I have fuckin too. Its going to kill me if im not. And in sum way I dont give a fuck if I die. But then again I do, thinkin of movin to another place, start on a fresh, long away from this city/people here.
I am really sorry guys of being like this, it really warms my heart ya think of me.
Don't know what the fuck to do