Brief Background
I was born in Ukraine. My dad ran a lot of schemes to make money but never had much of success, this lead to him binge drinking for months at a time. Followed by 6-8months of clean periods. My mom was just a regular person, a teacher in the USSR days, a businesswoman after the fall of the Soviet Union. My family legally relocated to the US when I was 12. This was a hard period for me. I wasn't liked very much in school and regularly made fun of. My parents worked very hard to provide for me and my sister, and were never home. My dad still binge drank. The whole relocation had a negative effect on me. The fact that my dad was never there in the old country or here made me shy and uncertain in everything I ever did.
Substance(s)
My main addiction were and are opiates, any opiates. Secondary, benzos. Coke, Crack, and Amphetamines were for partying. I no longer do anything but opiates.
Duration of Addiction/Dependence
I started with weed at 14, from there on I tried some pills, the usual things like hyrdocodone, codeine, and lean. Didn't really fall in love with opiates at that point. At 15 I tried some coke, nothing too impressive I thought. But then I tried some xanax with coke at once, and there was my first love. At 16 I tried heroin, smoking it. I wasn't impressed but it around all the time and I did a lot of it. I got clean for a while after that, I started dealing with depression and decided to quit everything. The period of being clean was brief, and when I started up again. I started up with percocets and hydros and this time around I felt like I found what I was missing, it was blissful. From there it progressed to OCs, and China White Heroin. Eventually the amount of money I was spending on drugs were massive, I was selling things out of my parents' house. This resulted in me getting onto the Methadone Maintenance, for a while I was doing ok. But some personal teenage heartbreak and losing a lot of my friends set me off. From here on out it got really dark, I'd dose at the clinic, then score benzos and spend my days nodding off. Weekends consisted of crack binges. My parents were freaking out, rightfully so. I gave it another try at getting clean, got down to 21mg of methadone and got onto suboxone. I wasn't ready to be clean, and continued eating xanax like candy and doing a lot of coke. My parents suggested a year long in patient, faith based treatment across the country. With nothing to lose, I went. It was one of the best decisions of my life. I was clean for 3 years until I started up again on poppy seed tea, which is what I'm battling and trying to quit at the moment.
Adverse Effects
Trash sick from not knowing how to shoot up properly. OD on fentanyl patches. No one trusts you. People look at you as a joke. Dealing with the beast for the rest of your life.
Warnings and Advice
My advice is one none of the kids take. Don't do it. It's only fun for a little, but the struggle is life long if you end getting addicted. No matter how badass and smarter than X you think you are, you're not.
I was born in Ukraine. My dad ran a lot of schemes to make money but never had much of success, this lead to him binge drinking for months at a time. Followed by 6-8months of clean periods. My mom was just a regular person, a teacher in the USSR days, a businesswoman after the fall of the Soviet Union. My family legally relocated to the US when I was 12. This was a hard period for me. I wasn't liked very much in school and regularly made fun of. My parents worked very hard to provide for me and my sister, and were never home. My dad still binge drank. The whole relocation had a negative effect on me. The fact that my dad was never there in the old country or here made me shy and uncertain in everything I ever did.
Substance(s)
My main addiction were and are opiates, any opiates. Secondary, benzos. Coke, Crack, and Amphetamines were for partying. I no longer do anything but opiates.
Duration of Addiction/Dependence
I started with weed at 14, from there on I tried some pills, the usual things like hyrdocodone, codeine, and lean. Didn't really fall in love with opiates at that point. At 15 I tried some coke, nothing too impressive I thought. But then I tried some xanax with coke at once, and there was my first love. At 16 I tried heroin, smoking it. I wasn't impressed but it around all the time and I did a lot of it. I got clean for a while after that, I started dealing with depression and decided to quit everything. The period of being clean was brief, and when I started up again. I started up with percocets and hydros and this time around I felt like I found what I was missing, it was blissful. From there it progressed to OCs, and China White Heroin. Eventually the amount of money I was spending on drugs were massive, I was selling things out of my parents' house. This resulted in me getting onto the Methadone Maintenance, for a while I was doing ok. But some personal teenage heartbreak and losing a lot of my friends set me off. From here on out it got really dark, I'd dose at the clinic, then score benzos and spend my days nodding off. Weekends consisted of crack binges. My parents were freaking out, rightfully so. I gave it another try at getting clean, got down to 21mg of methadone and got onto suboxone. I wasn't ready to be clean, and continued eating xanax like candy and doing a lot of coke. My parents suggested a year long in patient, faith based treatment across the country. With nothing to lose, I went. It was one of the best decisions of my life. I was clean for 3 years until I started up again on poppy seed tea, which is what I'm battling and trying to quit at the moment.
Adverse Effects
Trash sick from not knowing how to shoot up properly. OD on fentanyl patches. No one trusts you. People look at you as a joke. Dealing with the beast for the rest of your life.
Warnings and Advice
My advice is one none of the kids take. Don't do it. It's only fun for a little, but the struggle is life long if you end getting addicted. No matter how badass and smarter than X you think you are, you're not.