Vaya
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NotQuiteThere said:Well once a week wasn't my problem. My issue was I felt so profoundly disinhibited and relieved of long standing depression and other issues that I felt I'd found a miracle drug. I didn't use very high doses (maybe 20-30mg insufflated at a time), but I used them several times a day to keep the 'buzz.' Over a few weeks though, my purpose in life became less directed towards achieving my goals, and more towards taking more MXE. And it snuck up on me so slowly that I didn't even realize it until I just noticed I couldn't think straight, I felt terrible without it, and that all the original positive emotions I had when I started using it were gone.
Perfectly conveyed. This is precisely how it begun for me as well. I wasn't always doing 200-220mg doses for 14-16 hours straight every day :/
I wish there existed a body of literature already detailing Methoxetamine's pharmacological profile and its established potential dangers, if any. But we who choose to imbibe otherwise-unexplored psychoactive chemicals, also choose to be the guinea pigs in a grander experiment.
I have faith I can get better. Or maybe I'm putting on a brave face. Either way, only time will tell, so I may as well stop making the worst-case scenario a reality before it's happened yet
~ vaya