I can see that this thread is pretty old now and this post may not get seen but I read this entire thread a few months ago and had the exact same problems. 3 months ago today I went to Berghain in Berlin I took Cocaine, MDMA and ecstasy. I never normally do drugs and certainly did more than I could handle. I had a panic attack in the club, I couldn't breathe properly, my heart was beating faster than I've ever felt, I felt dizzy, my mouth was uncontrollably gurning, my eyes were wide open and I had trouble controlling my breathing, I literally thought I was going to die that night. I felt this way for about an hour whilst my friends gave me water and I danced to use up the rush of energy and try and forget about the panic.
After an hour or so I had calmed down slightly but my heartbeat was still rapid and my eyes and jaw were out of control. I left the club, got to the place I was staying and in to bed... I remember lying in bed with an insanely fast heartbeat thinking that this could be it and that I might die in my sleep. The three days following the incident, everything felt surreal. I felt on edge, restless and not in the mood to eat or drink really, I didn't feel any anxiety but I felt heavy depersonalisation and just did not feel myself at all, my friends noticed that I was still tapping my feet, tapping my hands. I found it hard to stop moving.
2 days on I was back in the UK and went to work. I had a full blown panic attack on my first day back. I felt I was going to die, I couldn't breath properly and was fighting to stay conscious. I noticed that things like tea, coffee, green tea... Anything with caffeine really brought on the panic attacks. Anxiety kicked in like a bitch from this point onwards. I took HTP5 and Berocca each day. I started to feel safe when at home and work but the second I stepped outside I was hit with heavy depersonalisation and anxiety and the feeling as if I was in the Matrix. I started to stay at home a lot as I felt the most safe. The worry about being outside was the fear of having a panic attack in public. I spent ages researching online and it always came back with "Panic Disorder"/ "Agoraphobia" and It started to freak me out thinking that I'd be stuck like this forever!
I went to a doctor that prescribed me Propanalol which is used to slow your heart beat down to avoid anxiety. It sort of worked to rid the anxiety but did nothing for the depersonalisation and made me feel sluggish. I was then prescribed Zoloft which is an antidepressant... that made things 100x worse and made me feel the worst yet. The doctor told me to look in to mindfulness/meditation and joked that he realised it sounded like hippy bullshit but it could seriously help. I started doing the mindfulness exercises which you can find online easily and they did help to make me feel a lot more relaxed. Granted... they won't heal you immediately but it was a big step for me in the healing process and it can't hurt to try.
After 3 months of feeling anxious and struggling everyday with what has honestly been the most horrible life experience I've had, I am now 100% better. My anxiety has gone and depersonalisation has vanished too. It's been a long 3 months but I got over it and so can you. Exercise, healthy eating, mindfulness/meditation, watching shit tv, avoiding caffeine, avoiding alcohol are the key things that brought me back to reality. I would definitely avoid taking medication. What you've done is because of drugs, don't try and treat it with more drugs, just let your brain sort itself out naturally
If you're going through this sort of thing then do not worry, you will get better. It's not like an alcohol hangover that lasts a day. As you can see from previous posters on this thread it can take months and months until you're better. You've fried your brain and it just needs to recover. Best of luck and if you have any other questions or worries, feel free to pm me. I'm happy to help.
