Guys / Girls, i just wanted to add to this thread to hopefully give some others hope.. All these symptoms, I've had, Whether you want to call it DP, or anxiety or HCCP... who knows, what they'd diagnose it as.... I don't like thinking about it, so will probably not be back here, but just wanted to share. I've been exactly thru this. Back in '93 i took lsd, ecstasy and smoked a joint at the end of the night.. I was back then, just a kid, someone who like most kids wanted to party a little. Raves were big back in the day, life was really good and I'd probably been to maybe 8 of them prior to that one night. Maybe taken 15 ecstasy prior to that night over a 12month period and was a moderate smoker of weed. ALWAYS coming out fine the next day. Anyway, something very different happened to me that night during our typical after rave chill outs.. My mind started racing really bad, everything went into hyperdrive... It scared the absolute crap out of me. but that was just the beginning. The next day, i knew things were not right.. Visually everything seemed off, anxiety levels were off the chart. It was as if i was still on a mild trip and it just did not go away. It was the worst yr, maybe 18months of my life. Sure enough i went into a depression over it.. It was ALL i ever thought about. I was a complete mess. I broke down to my mum in tears, i tried speaking to friends, not ever knowing where i was going to end up because of all of this.. I thought i'd possibly end up breaking down and going mad. I didn't have the internet back then, so couldn't research.. I went to a doc and he gave me a sedative of some sort, but that did nothing. HOWEVER, i managed to pull myself out of that mess. and this is the hope you need to know, but keep in the back of your mind don't keep analyzing waiting to get better. Not exactly sure how myself, & i think it was just getting on with life... Meeting girls, going on vacation, finding love.. but i somehow managed to stop thinking about it COMPLETELY and then 99% of my symptoms went away... Maybe symptoms may have even still been there. But it got to a stage, where it really didn't matter it became the norm, and my life (up until recently was excellent again) It may have become a passing thought once every few of months. I started a business, moved over to America, with my wife, had two kids, and generally have been living an excellent life.. Every now and again, I'd think back to how horrible it was during that 93-94 period. If you've been thru this, you'll never touch another mind altering drug ever again.. That's for sure.... So that's the good news for you all.. It will go-away.. Eventually.. sorry that you're going to go thru hell and back, but your life will be normal one day again. That's the good news.
Unfortunately for me though, now that I'm in my 40's i had a very stressful incident that triggered the anxiety back.(part of the reason i'm on this site).. Nothing drug related, but a very bad tenant in my rental home triggered some anxiety. Anxiety for me was something that went away 'almost completely' for 20yrs. I think I've made it worse by the remembering how bad it was back in 93.... After all this time living a completely normal life, i'm now back to analyzing thinking I'm seeing colors more vividly, being anxious and that spaced out feeling. I've bought it all on myself. Not from doing drugs, but allowing anxiety to take hold of me once again... I'm married, and have a very supportive wife... I may go and see the doctor and try out some SRRI's and see if they help.. I managed to 'completely' pull myself out last time... So hopeful i will this time, which i will, once i can damn well stop thinking about it.. its been going on for me now for 9months... From experience, i will say its probably anxiety giving you/me most of the visual symptoms and the fact that you're constantly thinking about it making it 100x worse and spaced out, for me. The good news is that as far as my symptoms today it goes away completely when I'm socializing or doing a hobby of some sort.. Keeping myself busy... Its just when i'm bored, quiet at work, or alone i allow my mind to start tormenting me a little, questioning everything, such as, are those colors brighter than they're supposed to be.. Does that look trippy? You're feeling a lot more spaced out than you should... It's become a kinda OCD obsession once again as it was back in 93... BUT I must stress, that I did get rid of this for 20yrs COMPLETELY. 20yrs is a long time.... so my don't let my relapse scare you.. Had I not had this extremely stressful situation 9months ago, i would have probably never relapsed.
So here i am again today.. A little wiser to it all, but it ain't easy. It's currently consuming all my thoughts, UNLESS i'm out socializing, having a boost of confidence or keeping myself busy... Something that's hard to maintain. Again, please do not take my situation to heart, thinking you'll relapse yourself again. We're all different. But the main thing was I did pull myself out of the complete nightmare i was living. If i can get myself out of it this time, and get back to the life i had before 93, and the one between 94ish and 2014, then it still equates to a very good life....
Good luck to you all, and please please please kids, do not ever take mdma, esctasy and LSD. I think its far more dangerous than what you probably think it is... I was a dumb kid and learned the HARD WAY, and well look, its even come to bite me 20yrs later. I know as a indestructible kid, you'll just think it won't happen to you, but rest assured, it can ! I also want to say that i did not have any weird mental things going on as a kid... just a normal kid probably even happier than most, and it got me !