...if your breakfast is a handful of antacids and valiums washed down with Evan Williams
...if that bottle of Evan Williams moves from the kitchen to right next to your bed because you can't make it to the kitchen without a few pulls of whiskey first
...if your hands keep shaking even though you are drinking all day
...if you have to have surgery, tell the doctor your an alcoholic, receive continuous sedatives to prevent DTs, but STILL almost die from DTs and have to go on an ethanol drip
...if the quality of car you drive gets progressively worse and worse because you total each vehicle after a few months because you're always driving drunk
...if you've got a suspended license due to DWIs but you still drive drunk because you're never NOT drunk
...if you carry around a fast food cola cup that's actually half filled with Evan Williams when you go shopping (or anything else outside the house)
...if you have bleeding stomach ulcers from non-stop drinking, but you still don't put the bottle down
...if Evan Williams becomes too expensive so you switch to 10 High and then finally to the cheapest 80 proof the store has period
...if you have $8 in your family's bank account and you spend it on a bottle instead of on food for your kids
These are all things I've seen from close family members, mainly while growing up and as a young teenager many moons ago. Surprisingly, I never had a real problem with booze myself, even though pretty much every member of my family has to varying degrees.
And I ended up being the bad guy in my family because of my dope habits... Alcoholism used to be almost 'OK', while us junkies were utterly demonized. Nowadays I think alcoholics have a pretty nasty stigma around them too.
![:\](https://bluelight.org/xf/BL_Images/Orig_Emoji/wrygrin.gif "wry grin :\")
